♥ aku sayang dia,ma. aku cinta dia, ma. :))

okie.
sumone just shoot me lah k.
im hooked onto "unchained melody" or issit "chained melody".
hmm,whatever lah.
yg the song that goes " ohh my love, my darling.."
hurs.
im such a romantic sucker.
ishk.

ohh, did i mention that im goin to sri lanka? YESSA. its been confirmed already. and im fuckin fuckin excited. this month, me and my girls are bcumin travellers. with nana goin bintan with her significant other and me goin sri lanka to see the world, WE ARE HAPPY PPLE. haha. and this time, mommy wud not be with me i guess. hurs. ill be on my own. wish me luck people k? i just wish i wun ged lost there cuz im such a fuckin direction freak. so please ((:

anyhoos, i wud be gone for 2 weeks and damn,i wud miss hella loads of pple. and this tyme, i will make sure i haf my digicam with me ALL the time. and since mommy is not with me, i ged to hog it. hurhurs. oh yar, just wish that daddy allows lah k. cuz he noes that im such a dickhead sumtymes. hurs.


oh yar, guess what? mommy received an email and the woman or rather, the bitch saed that she was my dad's daughter. that means, aka, my sister.and that means that her mom is related to my dad? SIALLAH. sejak biler sak! so i emailed her back. rudely. i hate it when things like this happens. so puhlease, dun ever ever think of breakin up my family. psychopath. i think shes just desperate and she just thinks daddy is hot. HAHA. tak dapat lah. nak bapak aku, langgar aku dulu k. BODOH. soory kalau bual cam samseng terbiar tapi tgh bingit ni. ishhhhh.gRRRR.

did i mention that im fuckin bored? gayah is bein a bitch cuz she doesnt wanna answer my calls or reply my msgs. urghs. GIRL, i need my stufs for tmr lah. haiyoh. dun tell me ur still sleepin sial. its like what, 3.45 already. god's gracious. and yar, i was supposed to attend my ex school function today remember? but im gonna miss it i guess. sorry pple, im busy helpin my mom lah. hurs. :))

and zulaikha has sent me an email statin that if i enter this contest, we wud win ten million dollars. HAHA. kau pk senang?! hurs. but its a good tot hehs. no harm tryin. hurhurs. ill do that later. im fuckin excited abt tmr but too bad not all my girls are gonna be there. lin is werkin. i dunnoe if nana can actualli make it and gayah oso. why does this happens. like, how come they are not there when i need them sial. whatever lah k~ farked up now.

love,
ana.

♥ sri lanka, HERE I COME.

i noe, min will surely say mmg sajak aku ni gi sri lanka cuz aku kan minah chi.
HAIYAH.
but nontheless, im still goin sri lanka.
haha.

james from the tsunami team called just now.
i noe tsunami is long gone but we're goin there to help with the buildin of schools and stufs. like the expedition i went with SIF. meetin will be on next thurs and i cant wait to find out what are we actualli doin. im sooo fuckin excited. hurs. im soo glad that im on the team :))

and oh yar, today is MOMMY'S 50TH BDAE. and im proud of mommy cuz she proved to me that women do not need to depend on men and we as women can stand on our own. hurhurs.
GO,MOMMY!

ok,i shud really sleep cuz im fuckin tired and my throat hurts. like farks.
so hels.

lookin forward to saturday.=]*

much love,
ana.

♥ i like this topic.ALOT.

im fuckin glad that i ditched my clubbin plans for my girl ydae.

SERIOUSLY SIAL.
and bcuz of what happened ydae,or rather, what she told me, im still very very excited despite tellin her how i cant wait for her big day like 14323566 times.
this news will leave mouths hangin, heads smashed or vulgarities spewed.

IF ALL GOES WELL,

SITI RAIHANAH BTE KAMIS WILL MARRY JUSTIN EDWARD ALOYSIUS.

haha. im fuckin fuckin excited that my girlfriend is actualli takin a big step and actualli thinkin of marriage and haf kids and go thru the household neverendin dramas. like,omg. when she told me i was actualli shocked first and then after sumtyme, i began to think abt how it actualli was, i began to ged like really really excited. and of course, i ged to be the bridesmaid. and yar, she asked me a fuckinly stupid question. "so, biler kau nye turn?!" HAHA. soalan bonus na. aper,jus bcuz ur geddin married, i haf ta ged married too? OMG. haha. it wudnt be soo soon i guess.and so our mommys' day out wud be not so soon too. hurs. pfft. i just cant help but think abt how her life's gonna change after she geds hitched. it wud be no longer based on love alone. there wud be alot more factors other than love i guess. hurs. i dunnoe why nana seemed so composed and so calm whereas im the excited one. maebe she wud be excited if tmr was her big day. HAHA. ok fyne. =]*

bein a perfectionist when it comes to events that happens just once in a lifetime, i wud wan a weddin drowned in malay tradition but at the same time, i want a weddin reception with an aisle where we wud exchanged vows and then,sit on the pelamin. i wud wan a reception where my close friends are always near me and i will make sure that my girlfriends wear the same colour as my gown and they wud each be holdin a bouquet of flowers. i like the old traditional red roses so red roses wud be splattered all over. table cloths wud be trimmed with red laces and i want my pelamin royal purple. i want mommy daddy and meimei to haf their clothes customed made and they wud be the vips of the day too. im just a sucker when it comes to weddins and ill make sure that ill haf a weddin perfected to suit the both of us cuz it happens once in a lifetime and i wan to remember my big day vividly even when im old and wrinkly. hurs :))

guess what? i think my girls haf planned to "mati terkejut" me lah. satu satu nak kawin. haiyah. but i still love it cuz i noe im gonna be involved in 2 weddins! haha.

ALINA BTE ABDUL AZIZ NAK MARRY AZRUL BIN ABDUL AZIZ.

no no, they are not related whatsoever ok. please lah. HAHA. she shocked me with news just now just when i wanted to tell her abt nana's weddin plans. hurs. and she asked me the stuuuupid question again. URGHS. aperhal dgn korang nie! gian jadik bridesmaid ker. HAIYOH. like ive saed,it wudnt be very soon lah. soon, ill be standin and lookin at my girls geddin married and of course, will cry and cry. that, i dun deny. its just too much for me to handle u see. like, WOAAAH. skali duer sak. haiyoh. and im LONELY. haha. but not really. i dun haf ta ged married to be NOT lonely u see. hurs. oh wells. i pray that everythin goes well for both my girls lah k.

aidil called me at like 9 in the mornin expectin me to be awake. -rolleyes- this guy just dun geddit. how can i ever be awake at 9 in the mornin i ask you? i miss him lah k. and im thinkin of invitin him for mommy's retirement parteh. but maebe not. i dunnoe. ill see how i feel i guess. haha. cuz nana is gonna bring jas and he'll help with the barbeque. YAY! dah der chef. tak ya tolong. i can therefore layan tetamu-tetamu tertentu. -winks-

ok, i hafta meet lin at 4 and that means,i hafta ged ready already. i dun wan her to be late for her first day at work. so til next time pple.

love,
ana.

♥ 5N1`2004 WET MY PANTS.

with a class like that, how can i NOT remember each and everyone of my classmates i ask you?
OH DAMN.
now, my classmates are bombardin me with testimonials and how can i NOT miss them i ask you?
GAWD.

replies to testimonials;

jovan aka peh ching hui-seriously, i dunnoe why u decide to name urself jovan but anyhow, it sounds good lah ok. yes, i am STILL messy and my room justifies all that. and still, my study table in my room is STILL messy and that also justifies my messy nature. HAHA. and yar, i miss our chats too. u noe, the LAME story tellin sessions where ill pull my table from the left side to the right side of the class just to gossip with u guys and how u cudnt handle my larfter. HAHA. and oh yar, i still larf like that. like,HAHAHAHHAHA, like that? hurs. and oh yar, u describe me like im six or sumthin. like how u mentioned, how im cute when i walk around the class? siallah. like, SMALL GIRL LEHS. haha. but stil, im grateful that u still remembered me and ull always be my SUGADADDY! without the kinky sex part,of course. hehs :))

lin anting- ur such a sweetie that i cud ged diabetes lah ok. i remembered ur graduation prezzie and i still haf it. ITS UP ON MY TABLE! haha. ur such a nice monitress but really, not like a monitress at all. ur crazy antics and how u jump around the class with ur tie and still proclaim that the tie is just there cuz u wanna be JAPANESE. haha. and oh yar, how u were my braces partner together with rena and how we cud go on and on about how painful it was when we first put it just to frighten other people.HAHA. and yar, how i always sit on ur table durin accounts or wassit maths and always end up geddin fucked by u juz bcuz im just too lazy to take back my books and decide leave it on ur table instead.HAHA. and OH YAR, the whole funfair thingy where we were supposed to paint the banner and u tot me how to paint as if i dinnoe how to?and yar,u were also the one who tried to pull me back when i wanted to hit fadh.THANK YOU. i wud prolly be suspended if that happens. ohh NO NO, his mom wud be after me.HAHA. i MISS you LAH! keep in touch OK??????????????????? mwahs.

LYNETTE CHOONG MIN HUI- i just hafta type ur name in capslock cuz everybody, this bitch here is officially my partner in crime. like REALLY SIAL. we went back all the way to sec 4 when we were closer, remember? that day we were supposed to haf PE and u were sick and i juz didnt feel like movin and so, i went to talk to you and our first topic was "WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO WITH OUR LIFE?" realised that we shared the same interest which is hospitality and we talked from then on. after that, it was walks to sgoon mrt after school everyday where we bitch about pple we didnt like or things that we saw that we didnt like that day. where u wud gimme ur story on how actualli chinese guys wooo chinese girls cuz i was fuckinly curious whether they had the same techniques as malay boys. HAHA. quite lame. and remembered our DEBATE? OMG. those brainstormin sessions where we were supposed to be brainstormin, we were busy gigglin away with whatnots at that time. and yar, IT WAS YOU in the toilet with me when i did that phuckin test and the next day when i told u i got my period, u wanted to slap me cuz it caused chaos to the WHOLE CLASS.and how i wanted to punch fadh's face but u pulled me back and mentioned that uve never seen me so fierce and i looked like a stupid shiverin tiger.that wus farny. HAHA. HAHA. :))

oh man, now i really feel like cryin. seriously. I MISS 5N1 alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot. LIKE THAT CAN? gawd. ill always remember each and everyone of you and YES, when i haf a kid, ill make a gatherin where ill introduce ALL OF YOU to my kid. REALLY. and if i haf 37 kids, ill name them after everyone of you. HAHA. thats if my pussy can stand it lah k. siallah, one already so painful, u wan 37.SIAO LAH. haha. but thats how much i love u guys. despite our fights, misunderstandins or the throwin of books in classes or oh yar, wassit pushin and turnin of tables? HAHA.

I APOLOGISE IF IVE HURT ANYBODY PHYSICALLY EMOTIONALLY OR MENTALLY WHEN I FIRST STEPPED INTO 1N1`00 AND TURNED 5N1`04-IAN AFTER 5 FULL YRS.

cause i love you guys sooooooooooo much.
even tho i hate the school lah ok. THAT, i dun deny.
hurs.
and thinkin of the times we had together just cudnt put me to sleep cuz im excited just rememberin all the farn we had. HAHA.

and yar, after i log out, im gonna find all the class photos (mind the werd FIND.my room? messy remember?) and see how u guys haf changed thru out the years and of course,ill keep it safe with me.ALWAYS.

♥

finally this phuckin thing is finally workin.
i tot niggarawk has decided to go against me.
-wipesweat-
hurs.

oh wells. this saturday is mommy's retirement plus bday party. yes, at her age, she is still havin a partehh. hurs. and im phuckin excited and over my late dinner just now, i just tot of sumthin that i can do for her prezzie. kinda excited but ill prolly need my girls' help i guess.=]*

met gayahs at her place and chris was there too. it seems as if chris was sufferin from her hangover. hurs. good luck,girlfriend. and frankly, the bump on her head looks ugly i tell you. seems as though she fell off a chair in Desire's. like, OMG. and i can totally understand why she doesnt wanna go back to De's. hurs. -winks- after sendin chris off to work, me and gayahs talked to my ex boss and her boss, Ravi. hurs. he was nice abt it and he even asked me why i wasnt at work. hmm, i quit, remember boss? HAHA. okie fyne:) so we went to the toilet and just SUDDENLY gayahs realised that she has skinny legs. -slapshead- like, HELLO. farks lah k. one does NOT haf ta look at ur legs to really realised that ur skinny, u skinny monkey! haha. and then went on to chyll at the river and talked. she let me read her 4-pages long letter tat's shes gonna gif to zul. haish. all i can do is to pray for her i guess. but just look on the bright side of life,k? mwahs. but seriously erk, who writes a FOUR-PAGE long letter sia. seriously. and her handwritin's really smmallll. like, OMG.

headed to sgoon to meet aidil and it seems that he waited for me for quite sum tyme cuz i was bz talkin to gayahs at the river. hurs. teehee. its high time i haf sumone waitin for me instead of me waitin for sumone,like ALL THE TIME. talked over fries and coke float. hmm, anyone who really likes coke float? raise ur hands? like, omg. its disgustin i tell you. its either that i eat the ice cream or i drink the coke which is right beloowww. i hate mixin and slurpin the whole brown thingy thing. looks like brown crap cake. HAHA. he told me ghost stories and i aint realli suprised cuz suprisesuprise, its the army. like, OMG. -rolleyes- how to NOT haf ghosts i ask u.

and yar, im confused abt sumthin tho. here goes, is he realli considerin a relationship if i realli really change? like, will he only accept me if i change my habits? i tot when u like a certain sumone, ur supposed to accept everythin abt her first b4 u can actualli change her?hmmm. i dunoe lah k. like, he'll pounce on me everytime he sees me with a pack of fags. like, at least gimme time. its not that i dun wan to. i am already tryin. at least be appreciative? urghs. and the best part is, hes not even my boyfriend. yarh. pple dun call me crazy for nothin,aites? things i do for him and all he does is gloat and gloat abt how perfect his ex girlfriend was or how perfect was their relationship. am i just bein paranoid or what? but i do feel affected when he talks abt his ex and how well they went. like, i feel DISTURBED ok. what if all these are not worth it? what if im just his rebound like how i was to fazly and to alot more boys that i used to haf. what if sial..

issit just me or issit just them? how come im seein alot of pregnant women? hmm. is the baby bonus really worth tryin for? does it apply for teenage mothers too? hurs. ok fyne. dun ged me wrong. im not pregnant lah ok. im just wundering. did i mention that i wud be over the moon over the clouds if i was with a child? haha. that sounds good already. but of course, i intend to haf a kid only AFTER marriage aites :))

hmm.i take a moment and reflect. For all that i am now, i'd give anything to be where they are. i love babies, love children and i'll love them even more if those little tykes I drool over came from my own loins. Soberly, on the flipside, as i take stock of who I am, i know i am not ready for kids yet. I really can't even wipe my own ass properly, let alone wipe little ones of others.That's why I take my hat off to all the young mothers, mothers-to-be and mother-wannabes. They are in a level i can't even fathom being in. the mothers have already performed miracles and are thriving through the beauty of motherhood and the dealings of family life. the mothers-to-be are about to embrace motherhood itself and are glowing epitomes of real wonderwomen, whats with pregnancy shenanigans and some, with careers and life's neverending dramas. The mother-wannabes have received revelation and are mature enough to desire and try for motherhood to shape their future and destiny. (To the mother-wannabes, I wish them all the luck, all the fertile eggs and sperm, all the baby-making kinky sex in the world,InsyaAllah!)

So again, to the young ladies in the supaposh Sorority of Motherhood (current, pending or tentative), with you all, I rest my case as I give my kudos. This sorority membership is worth more than a million Gucci bags.

and to that too, i give my kudos to all already-mommys for the upcomin mother's day. and that includes my Mommydear.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!
mwahs. <<<<3.

love,
ana.

♥

okie.
i just realised that i cudnt sleep and when i read my previous blog, i actuali sound fuckin depressed. hurs. sorry pple for the fuckwittage. but sumtymes i cant help it cuz it just gets to me.

and yar, it gets to me like how the song brown eyes gets to me like a hiatus. urghs. this is bad. but things wud be better cuz in exactly 8hrs, i wud be on my way to meet lin and we wud be on our way to PALAWAN BEACH. -yay- urghs. its been fuckin long since i last went to the beach. and this time, im so determined to ged a tan. like seriously ged a tan cuz i think i look fuckin faded. haha. like the colour in my skin dah menurun. hurs. oh wells. aidil is prolly fast asleep and prolly lin too. i hope she is cuz i wudnt want her to be late for our date tmr. yay.

ok,im gonna hit the beds and again drown myself in sappy old love songs cuz i feel like cryin. haha.
ok, bye.

♥ i think ive been jinx-ed.

things never went well when im with him.
theres bound to be sumthin.
thats prolly why im feelin as if im a jinx.
i always bring him into shit.
-rolleyes-

but thank god, hes nice and he understands. like farks lah k. i just hope things wud be better already. and ydae, im happy we got to spend time together. -beams- glad that we actualli talked. we were actualli pissed b4 cuz we didnt haf any place to go cuz of lin's bro and so we sat at the park. cant believed we were there for like 5hrs straight. but after that, i felt that it was a blessin in disguise. hurhurs.cuz he told me loads of stufs which makes alot of sense i guess and it will all depend on me right now. sampai biler kan aku nak jadik gini. haish. but please erk, i wudnt change for you. please. i always believe that no one is worth me changin myself. and if i were to do it, i wud prolly do it on my own accord. i will always live by that. and i shudnt cheat myself and go round tellin pple that im changin for him. i cant. and i sumtymes feel as if he doesnt accept me the way i am. things i do dun make me a bad person u noe. its just a common stereotype among people that makes it all fazed-up.

and hes prolly right bout sumthin, his presence in my life is just like a salesman offerin me sumthin to buy. and this tyme, he comes knockin on my door offerin advice. and thats it. a part of me am afraid that hes goin to go away but another part of me is still happy cuz at least theres sumone like him knockin on my door like once in my lifetime. and to me,thats good enuff. if hes here to stay, i wud seriously treasure him but if hes here to touch and go, we will sumday go on our separate ways but i noe i wudnt ever forget him. =]*

cum to think of it, yday wus one of my worst days of my life. lin wanted to end our frenship cuz she didnt want to put me thru watever shit that shes gg thru. i felt like cryin and lucky for me aidil was there to tell me that its not gonna be like that. i wud haf cried or like seriously ran back to her house and would haf like, demanded her an explanation. i mean, i love her so much and theres nothin i wudnt do for her sial. i just felt as if, bein there for her is the only thing i wanna do. but lin dearest, things are goin to be alrite.u hafta believe in it to make it come true. and girl,ill always be there for you. haish. i promise ill be strong for you. and for us k? mwahs. eyy, im not a lesbian lah ok. i noe sum pple might already be disgusted by what i saed but shes my girlfriend and i hart her.
hehe. and ydae was a bad day too cuz azrul, lin's bf, fell off the second story flat on his face. i nearly died when she told me that today. just glad that everythins alright. i pray that he wud be alrite. i hart him too. even though hes my girl's boyfriend. hehe.

today's already monday. which means aidil is goin into camp tonite. he told me that he needs time. yar, i understand. hurs. this is just bad for me to handle la k. and i was like disappointed when he saed that he wanted a perfect girlfriend.i looked away and for alil while it was like a slap on my face cuz i know i cud never be that perfect girl for him even tho im tryin and i was never gonna be good enough for him and to him.like what he saed. hehs. but yarh, so long as hes happy, ill be happy too. i guess. haish.
"cume Tuhan jelah yg tau aper yg ana rasekan,aidil."

that is always the case right. me bein happy for people. there was never a point where im happy for myself. like, fyne lah ok. lin saed prolly ill haf ta play the Lil Bad Girl so i wudnt get hurt easily. she saed im too nice to people and thats prolly why they take advantage of me. but i think prolly bcuz im just too frenly. i trust pple too easily and im just too gullible. but oh wells. only God knows. and theres always karma. in bahasa melayu, biar orang buat kiter, jangan kiter buat pat orang. hurs.

i feel like tearin already lah k. i just hope sumone cud be there for me to listen to me rant and rant and stil wudnt complain and be sincere about it. i hope there wud be sumone who really cares. urghs.

fyne.-rolleyes-
im askin for the impossible. but when i was younger,daddy says,if i pray hard enuf, it'll come true tho.

heh. i might try.
insya-allah.

love yall.
daaaaa~

♥

i think i really like KOTT.
thats short for KOPI-O TEH TARIK.
i love najib and cik sal.

people may say that najib is overdoin things but to me, he is too original for anyone to accept and thats why they diss him. i love him and all that he does. i love him cuz he isnt afraid to try new stufs or to even make a fool out of himself. cuz i noe behind this farny-forever-elated man is a man of price. he produces he acts he directs he presents. what more can he NOT do? haish. i take my hat off him. i just like him lah ok. from way back when he was the MC for AsiaBagus, i love him. when i was a kid, i remembered him vividly. he brought his craze from the past til now and i respect that. and cik sal is another one crazy figure who i like too. haha. shes like an eccentric wire on teevee. she talks with this whinin tonation which is disturbin to the ears but at the same time, chuckles the splits out of me. HAHA. so farny lah they both. they haf chemistry i guess and thats prolly why they work together so well.

guess what? daddy stole my skirt house keys and my card so that i cant ged my ass to work today. how wicked is that? i seriously dunno what the hell am i gonna say to nathan. seriously. just bcz what, HSA SENT THE FUCKIN FUCKIN LETTER. im fuckinly pissed. but im more pissed that they wudnt let me do what i want or at least finish sumthin which i haf started. TALK ABOUT QUITERS HUH! -rolleyes- i wanna talk to sumone but dad is at home and i cant possibly use the fone cuz ill scream and scream thru the fone and he cud hear and it will all defeat the purpose. like, FARKS. i hate this lah ok. seriously. i saed that im gonna quit at the end of the month so why cudnt u just let me do my own stufs. LIKE FARK LAH REALLY. i hate this. now, i cant even meet lin when im feelin so fark-ed up. urghs. serious sey. im at a total loss of what im gonna do. i just feel like goin out of the house but HE locked me in and i seriously am thinkin of jumpin off my balcony verandah. i mean, its only 5 stories. i mean,i cant possibly die from the fall can i? urghs. stupid tots are comin into me. i told u i was beginnin to be claustrophobic. -screamssss- AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

dun even talk abt aidil lah k. hes with his friends. he has got jam session at six and he must haf tot that i wud be workin. wells, i was supposed to BE WORKIN at eight. but since my dad does stupid and seriously fuckinly lame stufs to me, i might as well sit at home and do nothing. i hate it when u deprive me of sumthin that i like doin. siallah. LIKE FARKS. i feel like screamin and screamin and screamin and screamin and screamin and screamin. seriously.

if only i had sumone with me now. sumone whom i can talk to. sumone who cud just tell me that everythins gonna be alrite and good things will come my way cuz bad luck has got to me thrice consecutively. oh damn. whatever lah k. i feel like lyin on my bed, drownin myself wit sappy love songs and cry.

til then,daaaa~

♥

today was an alrite day i guess.
except the fact that mommy wanted me to go back even b4 the movie.
but of course i didnt cuz i used MY money to pay for it even though its fuckin 8.50.
hurshurs.
met lin at town at 6 plus and then find out that she wanted to diss the movie plans to join azrul for JB and asked me along but too bad, i wasnt really interested. i rather stay mainland. hurhurs. oh wells. met aidil and of course, he was late. -rolleyes- so got tixs for the 2140 show. we watched Pacifier. hmm, abt that movie, it was an ok movie cuz i still prefer GuessWho but it got alil touchy at the last part. but overall, i wud gif it 3 popcorns! -crunchcrunchcrunch-

and so me and aidil shared a cab back. im just glad that he wasnt really mad at me. i mean, my parents are more impt and when they asked me hm, i hafta be home. im glad that he understood. haish. it was a lil hartbreakin when he saed that he wanted to ged to noe me alil more deeper b4 anythin else.but a side of me agreed with him cuz i, myself,wasnt sure at all. im just glad that we cud talk abt stufs and if only i didnt hafta go hm tonite, we cud talk. but too bad. prolly ill talk to him tmr b4 i start work. i hope so. if not,ill prolly hafta wait til next week wen he books out again. damn. things are just not workin the way i want it to work.but i believe that its all His doing and of course, theres a reason for everythin and im really strugglin to keep myself positive and dump all the paranoia. -smirks-

oh did i mention that im sufferin frm a dry cough and it seems as if my throat is inflammed. like, BAD.hmm,ive been thinkin. im prolly gonna stop work like soon. mom and dad are really unhappy and im fuckin pissed. but i dun wanna argue so i might just quit just like nana and mira. and justin and azrin. -rolleyes- come to think of it, hella loads of pple are quitin. cuz apparently to them the management suxs but frankly, im fine with whatever. i mean, its all work politics. u cant expect everyone to sing to ur tune, can you? but really, ill be sad to stay cuz to me, it is still a decent bar except that they sell alcohols and dad is fuckin unhappy with it. but whatever. im just gonna stay home i guess. urghs. well, for one, I CANT STAY AT HOME. i think im beginnin to be claustrophobic. like farks. my hall is huge but i still feel uneasy just stayin at one place at a time. i HAF TA move around. urghs. but that aside, ill see how things go and see how soon i can quit. im just too lazy to talk to them already. its comin to a point where EVERYTHIN they say is right and they are fuckinly talkin abt respect.so since everythin they say or do is right, i might as well shut my fuckin mouth and wait til im eighteen.so everythin else bcums legal and i dun hafta face sum lame letter posted to my parents sayin that ive been caught smoking.
-rolleyes- but farks lah. i seriously shud bomb HSA. all bcuz of YOU TINY TWIT COMPANY who claims to haf everyone's welfare at heart. ohhh,FUCK YOU.

im actualli hungry. i ate like laksa yong tau foo just now and it tastes soo good. but i didnt finish it cuz it was too much. oh wells. im just thinkin abt aidil and how i think we clicked. haish. thats the problem u see, to me, it seems as though we get along fine. he understands me and vice versa. but i dunnoe abt him. so,i really hafta talk to him. ive got loads to tell him.i dun wanna wait til a week after and then meet up and then suddenly forget abt what we were supposed to talk abt. that sucks soo bad cuz it always make me feel dissatisfied.

hmmm,i wanna sleep and perhaps wake up alil early tmr and meet up with aidil b4 work.
and did i mentioned that MSN MESSENGER IS STUPID? seriously. i hate it soo much now.
okie pple, til then.
i love yall.

=]*

♥

hmm, do you like it if you start to talk and then another person finishes off the sentence for you?
HAHA. i love lin. and thats one reason why i love her so. she saves my breath and i dun hafta talk much. mwahs girl!

and oh yar, i love faz too. -beams- he msged me this really really really sweet msg and like, omg, for a moment, i was short of breath. hurs. he saed i was better than HER. HAHAHA. yessa! kwakwakwa. but dun ged me wrong, dis faz IS NOT my ex,fazly. this faz is fazli. but i love fazli more than fazly lah k. wooohooo~

i miss aidil lah. i dunnoe if we're gg out tmr cuz im workin. like, damn. the other day, he picked me up from work and we chylled and talked and talked. im just glad that we haf sumthin btwn us.hurs. yar, after 2 days and its fireworks. =]* so, ill see if he calls me tmr. i hope so though.

keke. did i mentioned that i met harny ydae? OMG I TELL YOU. i miss her sooo much. like farks. rindu peh rindu. im glad that shes doin fyne. I LOVE YOU,BABE. we WILL meet up soon,yehs? mwahs.mwahs.

ok, i wanna go and eat. im workin tonite and i hope i can stand it. urghs. this is badd siall.
ok bye pple.

pray for me,aites? mwahs.
d i hope i can stand it. urghs. this is badd siall.
ok bye pple.

pray for me,aites? mwahs.
ites? mwahs.

D

♥ aluna:)

did you all actualli noe that Aluna means Love in caveman language?
HAHA.
oklah, quite lame but what the hells.
sumone saed that to me and for a lil while, i was alil impressed by the language.
HURSHURS.

now everybody, since lin is beside me larfin her head off, say hi to her.
( LIN WAVES FRANTICALLY.)
now now, dun be rude and be nice. please.
NOW, SAY HI.
or at least just wave.
(ok,now they are wavin.) -rolleyes-
-jawdrops-
-salivameleleh-

hmm, (turns to lin) what do you wanna talk about? since its blog rite? we ARE SUPPOSED TO TALK ABOUT SUMTHIN.

Lin: Lets teach them how to speak spanish.
Ana: -stares- HAHA. ok, whats the first word?
Lin: hmmmm, PUS? it sounds spanish.
Ana: what the hell sial.
Lin: thats short for pussy u damn @#$@%#$!

hmm,seriously. at like 6.12 in the mornin,u cant fuckin expect like the both of us to be sane. hurhurs. TALK about sanity, ive tot about sumthin.

"SINCE THERE ARE STALE BREAD IN MY HOUSE, WE ARE GOIN TO FEED THE FISHES"

hmm, i noe lah. we are nice people u see. but then again, what the hell is up with 2 girls wakin up at 6 in the mornin just find stale bread in the kitchen and THEN, feed the fishes. like, WHAT THE FISH! eh no no, arowana. like what the hells.

-turns to Lin-
eh farks, we are really supposed to talk about sumthin. like, really talk about sumthin worth bloggin let alone worth readin. hmmmmmmmm. oh yarrr!

what about the jamaican girl?
kuakuakuakuakuakua. i cant help but larf first then tell you all about it later. HAHA.
ok fine. i confess that me and faz are havin his perhubungan sulit like-thingy thing and its drivin her nuts cuz she saed that Faz was her NEGA SHIT NYE BOIFWEN. like, what the hells. seriously, firstly, puhlease. like, hello erk. FAZ AND ANA? KISSIN ON THE TREE? just sounds wrong already lah sey. so pluease. and oh yar, she calls me B. which is like short for BIATCH. but i think shes just too dumb to actualli know that. HAHA. and yar, the only thing that is jamaican about her is her afro-dumbo hair. which like, God noes, whether its natural or fakely permed. OH PLEASE. n yar, she calls me a freak. i mean, MANER PART YG FREAK PASAL AKU SIAL. and yar, cum to think abt it, she looks more freakish to me cuz of her hay on her head.

and oh yar, did i mention that i was supposed to work tonite? HAHA. ok fyne. thats like lame. but i guess i wanna go off and try to figure out how make another blog with the same username and password for ALINA BTE ABDUL AZIZ. -rolleyes-

ok,fyne.
dAaaaaaaaaaaa~

♥ bitter disappointment:)

just when i thought i cud open myself and try to love again,
im drowned in bitter disappointment.
again,so whats new.

baby, im scared too. i haf fuckin more reasons to be scared to love. and so, i just dun geddit why he has to cut sumthin from the past and paste it in the present. whats past,is past, rite? my hart's been crushed,smashed and even stabbed like fuckin hella loads of times but i noe there IS sumone out there for me,like ive mentioned like 3530424824 times before. and yes b4 he came into my life, i saed that i do not need any man. yes, all bcuz the guys i got to noe scares the livin daylight out of me cz i noe that they are just bein nice cuz they want me in their beds. hurs.

but him, its a totally different scenario,place,setting or whatever u call it lah k. i actualli felt innocent like a child whos all pioneer at this game called love.hurhurs. seriously, the talks we had, the long stares we exchanged with each other, is just too much for me to digest. its like theres was this point of time when we stared at each other and it just felt so right to kiss but suprisesuprise, Lil Miss Afraid here cracked up to cover what shes actualli feelin. like farks. like,i wus talkin to myself, nak tak nak,nak tak nak. haha. okie fyne. that wus actualli farny but what the hells. maebe this isnt the right time to actualli pounce on a relationship. whats meant to be mine, will be mine eventually. and i fuckinly believe in that.i guess i hafta pick myself up and try to brace up cuz maebe good things will come my way soon. insya-allah. =]*

hmm, its 6.10pm now. and im meetin lin at 7.30. wow-ness. i actuali haf more than an hr to ged ready. i wanna eat BK. like, EAT BK SIAL. haha. ive got a fuckin cravin for BK now. like the mushroom swiss. wwwooohhoooo.

oklah. i wanna wash the dishes lah. wait mommy bising bising. urghs. oh yah,im glad that shes finally goin out with her friends to makan. her friends treatin her cuz she has retired. hurhurs. soo sweet. HOPE U HAD FARN MOMMY. hurhurs.

daaaaaaa~

OH YAR, FAZLY'S GIRLFRIEND IS A FUCKTUP BITCH AND A SLUT IN DENIAL.
I HOPE SHE BURNS IN HELL.

♥ it does ged alil mellow.

time check, 6.56am.
im wide awake.
oh please. dun tink that i slept like a princess ydae. the only reason why im wide awake is bcuz im too tired to ged my ass into bed and actualli wait to "fall asleep". like, ill just stare at my ceiling listenin to brown eyes and waitin for my eyes to be droopy and then, unconsciously, fallin asleep. like ive saed like 3430543523594 times, THIS IS BAD. like phuckin bad. urghs.

but nontheless, werk wus farn. it was always farn actualli. even though i got my ass kicked by nathan ydae. ohh that burger. i hate him. urghs. but wells, we were hostin this bank's event and alot and alot of white people actualli came and partied. and i mean,really partied sial. the last person got out of BB's at like 3.45am when we were supposed to close at 3. like, WHAT THE HELL WERE THEY THINKIN. i wus soooo tempted to go like, " EH, KRG TAK YA TIDO PERRR!!!" alermak. sot sakks. serious. and they phuckin made fools of themselves. hmm, thats the thing i like abt white pple. they are NOT afraid to make fools of themselves. seriously. as long as they had farn, nothin else mattered. hmm,mindsets we asians shud cultivate. but it was good also bcuz i didnt spill any salad dishes and i handled my customers well. HAHA. im like soo proud of myself. i think nathan tot so too but hes just this big egoistic guy who has pride taller than everest and thats prolly y he doesnt wanna pat me on my back. hurshurs. but i like him cuz he gives me space to learn. like, ive always wanted to werk in the F&B industry but didnt haf tha chance to so when an opportunity like this come my way, of course i wud grabbed it. and at least mom n dad knows what im doin even tho its not really religiously right. so fyne;)

i think me and nana are driftin apart. we dun talk like we used to. i know that she has a boyfriend and everythin now, but takkan jas is like everythin sey. i mean, i dun wanna be an intruder and tell her who she shud talk to and stufs but like what the farks, we haven been talkin and i dun feel good about it. i wan us to talk like we used to. i wan us to be crazy like we used to. and neither of this is happenin all bcuz what, she has a fuckin boyfriend. haish. even though im feelin like this, i noe that he makes her happy and i am really happy for her cuz she found sumone but why does it has ta change all bcuz she's attached? im not envious that she found like HIM but then, WHY SEY. seriously. the only time i can talk to her is like,suprisesuprise, when we pass each other durin work. and the only time that happens is when i hafta serve food at Area B. like, WHAT THE HELLS. and after work, she'll be off with jas even though she asks me to stay with her. i thought that she wanna do that cuz she wanna talk to me cuz its seriously been a long long time. like, catch up on things and everythin. haish. she saed that i neglected her and thats y jas came in. LIKE FARKS. ive never neglected my girls OK. even if im attached. when i was with fazly,i knew she felt farked up and i was there to listen to her. but why isnt the same thing happenin to me? and that time, i cud bring her along for our date just to listen to her stories. or whatever that she wanna say.and it was supposed to be my date with HIM. i was always there sial. dun gimme the shit that im ungkit-ing. IM NOT. im just fuckinly pissed. and of course, dun gimme the shit that im jealous of jas. PUHLEASE. im old enuff lah k. this type of things are just too disappointin. seriously. and just now, i knew they wanted to talk abt stufs and that wus y i left even though i noe i hafta wait for like 1/2hr for the train cuz its a fuckin SUNDAE. urghs. i miss my girls lah. i dunnoe if they miss me. but farks. i just miss geddin stupid and lame and everythin else that we use to do.
GAYAHS,NANA&LIN, I LOVE YOU OK. PLEASE. seriously sial.

haish. and lin too. i wud be happy if shes happy. but the problem is, that fuckin asshole is not makin her life easy sial. and the day b4 ydae, i seriously felt like slappin his innocent-lookin face. STUPID BOY. pompan baik baik kau tak nak. BODOH. serious sial. and yar, that aidil another one. URGHS. i dunnoe lah. im thinkin abt alot of pple right now. haish. but the fucktup tink is, i dunnoe if they were thinkin of me. and AIDIL, i like our first date and i wud always remember it. put aside the fuckers frm HSA, i love our date. even though it was not supposed to be a date. like couplecouple date, i still love it. its been a fuckin long time since i went to the movies with a guy. HAHA. and it actualli felt nice. the whole popcorn and icecream thingy just geds to me. and yarr, i just wished u didnt haf ta go home. we cud haf talked about like alot alot of stufs and never go dry. hurhurs. hmmm, i just like the whole boy-girl thing again. hurs. sounds weird esp comin from sumone like me who tot that likin sumone is just stupid. but it cud be farn. and yarr, it cud painful too. but hecks. -rolleyes-

ohhh. daddy is pissed cuz im workin in a fuckin BAR. all i can say is, SHALLOW MINDED PEOPLE WUN GED MY ATTENTION. seriously. FARK LAH OK. urghs.and yarr, im supposed to call fazly. prolly i wud ged call him like NOW. cuz im in a pissed off mode. so ALL THE BETTER. a reason to scream.

love,
me.

♥ to him!

Brown Eyes. =]*

Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and then you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide it
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

*chorus
I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you see he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me
his brown eyes tell his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument we apologized
and then we compromised and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then
and there you were the one

*repeat chorus

i'm so happy so happy
that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me showed me the true meaning of love
and i know he loves me

*repeat chorus

He looks at me and
his brown eyes tell his soul.

♥ Brown Eyes- Destiny's Child :)

im so in love with this song.
i cried while listenin to that song.
i just hope that i cud haf enuff courage to sing that to one of my girls tellin her all about my lovestory and this time, success story.-beams- hmm, how i wish lah. and how i wish the song cud be relevant to me. urghs.

im actualli embarassed to make this public but i think fate has got hold of me. i think. i think. im not really sure but i think. its like 50-50. like im sittin on the fence. neither here nor there. this is what i found out. -chuckles- haha, gatal aku. hurs.

abt 3 yrs ago, i wus supposed to wait for imp at sgoon interchange and when he came and when we waited for his bus, his friend, aidil(sounds familiar?HAHA.), tegur him lah. they talked for awhile and i was introduced to him lah. i tot he looked damn cute at that time but whatever lah ok. so that time, i didnt really think anythin abt him cuz he wus like what, my boyfriend's neighbour? so,hells lah. then like 3 yrs after that, i was eatin at bk with lin and he approached. i tot he was talkin to lin so i didnt bother like really lookin at his face but when i saw him, i took like 3 turns like,like you noe lah,u turn ur head in like disbelief like that. with like shockin eyes and everythin?? yar,that wus what i did.and so, i told myself that he looked like fuckin fuckin familiar and when he saed he was stayin in sgoon,i tot i might haf met him when i wus schoolin at that fucktup sch. but NO, ydae, i asked him where he stayed and he saed 335. and it triggered my memory. and he was shocked. he saed" so that was actualli you? " haha. tidak ku sangke. dah lepas 3 tahun jumpe agik. this time, i wasnt with imp. i told lin and the first tynk she saed was "jodoh kots. it might be if ur paths crossed like unexpectedly." but i dun care abt the whole fate drama. i was seriously like woooo when we were talkin abt it. yarr,
LYNETTE CHOONG MIN HUI(kiss me babe,cuz i noe u love purple!HAHA.),
you told me this once and i still remember,
LIFE IS UNPREDICTABLE,AYES?

YESSA. life suprises, i call it. but yday wus pleasant. but not soo pleasant cuz we got screened by sundal peh officers dari HSA. all bcz my other friends were smokin, THEY ASSUMED I WAS TOO. HAIYAH. like, stuppid. and prolly,ill ged a letter lah. but what the farkin hells. tak salah,tak ya takut kan. tapi serious uh, if it wasnt for that stupid pple from HSA, the night wud haf been perfect. URGHS. benci sial aku!!!! kesian aidil kene tahan aku nye membebel. haha.

okielah, i haven sleep since like ydae. so im gonna hit my bed. its callin me.

but b4 that;
oh yarh, im cordially invited for zhonghua's prize givin ceremony. for i dunno what farks. HAHA. first time siol. if i were to attend, im sure pple wud think that ive done very very well but then again, ASK if u dunnoe. DUN PRESUME please. hurhurs.
but whatever lah. they'll prolly like gif us like what, $20 Popular vouchers. like, sooo common. that fuckin school is like sooooooooooooooo selfish. serious. LOKEK NAK MAMPOS.
sapesape yg next year sec one considerin that school, TOLONG JANGAN.
bodoh peh skola. seriously sial.
heed my advice lah k.=]*
i noe it bedder than anyone. hurs.

anti-zhonghuarian me,
NUR AMALINA OMAR,
CLASS 5N1'04,
18.

♥ who wud haf guessed.

aidil called just now,
yar,the cute guy from bk,
the guy who noticed me the second i entered bk,
the guy who obviously wants sum attention from me.
-rolleyes-
and i wus supposed to call him back.
but guess what, i didnt.
i didnt feel like it.
hes not what i want.
but then again, who is what i want.
i myself dunnoe.
so how wud u guys noe, rite?
okie fyne.
u guys ged the fuckin idea,yes?
oh wells.

im gonna sleep with lin tonite. hurshurs. the nite's geddin kinky. -winks-

and tmr,ive gotta work.
so im gonna rest my bum and rest my droopy eyes. and did i mention that my temples hurt cuz i feel as if sumbody punched me?
and oh yes, imp deleted lin on his friend's list.
i guess he doesnt me to know sumthin.
sumthin is prolly fishy.

urghs. but whatever, FARK MEN of all kinds lah k.
mwahs.

♥ first moms!

i think im gonna stay home every thursday just to watch First Moms.
i LORVE that show alot alot alot alot.
and of course i love Tanya, the teenage mother.
hurhurs.

mommy is irritatin the hell outta me. and yes, meimei too.
and faizal questions my capability in life just bcz what, im gg to ite simei.
-rolleyes-
WHATEVER.

and oh yes, LIN'S COMING OVER!!!! YAY!!! it seems that she didnt plug in her telephone wire and she cudnt hear the ringer. haha. okie fine. so today, i guess, we're gonna be minah kedai kopi. we're gonna chyll at rezki. and gossip. and gossip. and gossip. hurshurs. that sounds good sial:) talks over ice lychee and fries. like,OMG. and also, the weather is purfect for a girls nite out. sape sape nak join kiter? kiter makan supper lah.
this place is directly at the junction off st georges road. when u come out of the PIE, u go all the way straight. right after the bendemeer market, when u see a red building on the right, u turn right. then u go straight. at the second traffice light, u turn right and go all the way straight.u'll past Boon Keng Mrt. after the mrt, there will be a traffic light. past that traffic light and on the left u'll see ADAM sumthin sumthin. i forgot the full name lah k. den wooahhh-lah, u'll see us. hurhurs.

and oh yar, i asked faizal abt the policeman stationed in mrts. and he saed that it was confidential. -rolleyes- tak gune lah u keje smrt kan. ishk. oh wells, good luck with ur new girl ok. and please, i tak jealous lah. -slapshead- hes my ex and now friends. haha. or rather brother erk.hes like 10 yrs older than i am. hurhurs. but,horny nak mampos. matair dgn minah tudung. tak tau cam maner matair dier leh tahan. ishk. tak tau lah. tgh tunggu kad jemputan jelah. hurhurs. cam excitin gitu=]*

oh yar, i forgot lah. i saed that i wud stay hm on thursdays rite, but now thinkin of it, i wud go out after the show. -winks- hurhurs. kan thursday nite. that means, it equals to ladies nite lah. HAIYOH. blurr kot korang. wooohoooo~.

oklah,i wanna pluck mommy's eyebrows. shes buggin me to do it since like, FOREVER.
and i hate it.

daaaa!

♥ i love bein a child,dont you?

i noe ydae i mentioned sumthin about me cleansin my face and puttin a mask and geddin a good nite sleep, rite?

hmm,sumhow. i din managed to do all three. oh rather, i did cleanse my face but the moment i applied moisturizer, the skin above my eyes and my temples hurt like farks. i tot i was suddenly allergic to Olay but after awhile i felt the pain was similar to the pain i had when i got punched. and farks. it went on and off and it wus like contractin. one time it was there, another it wasnt. hurs. but i didnt ged a good nite sleep cuz i slept at like 4 this mornin. and mommy woke me up at one just now. urghs. thats like bad. and she made me clean my room. and so i did(ehem!).

I FINALLY CLEANED MY ROOM! and not only that noe, i mopped my floor and cleared my cupboard. HAHA. and oh yarr, my study table too. but i was geddin impatient to see my room clean, i poured like loads of johnson johnsons in my moppin basin. haha. so my room smells nice too. YAY! -jumparound- like, omg. finally sial. now, i cud haf loads of frens sleepin over in my room and mommy wun call me "tak tau malu". haha. whatever :)

i think nana is workin tonite. oh wells. but lin is fast asleep i think. hurhurs. excitin nite ydae,i assume. HAHA. -winks- i might hafta work tonite if eddy calls me again. but i hope not. cuz i dun feel like smilin at anyone today. hurhurs. i noe,lame excuse.

but theres always sum days when u dun feel like bein frenly and lil miss nice girl. the other day when i was workin in Nidec, there was alot of newbies and farks, that wus one day that i din feel like socialisin. i didnt feel like smilin to anyone or sayin hi to anyone at all. or when they were busy larfin, i wud just sit with them and just stare and larf secretly at how they wan to feel wanted. hurhurs. like, how they try so bad to be farny only to realise that jokes they made were all of 1960s. -rolleyes- ok, fine. i sound fuckin mean but i wus just tryin to stress my point.


i cant wait to start school. hmm, talkin about that, i just remembered suhail is gg to ite simei too.haha.YAY! i had farn talkin to him. the HORNY BASTARD. ohh my, this is bad. -winks-
i like how me and suhail were discussin about our friends haf grown and how they've changed and stufs. and we larfed over our zaman kentangs. HAHA. where playin soccer was the main agenda after school and geddin dirty was a must. and oh yar, how the 10cents ice popsicles never fail to quench our thirst and not to mention,how the 20cents barley drink tastes sooooooo good. and oh yar, most importantly, how girls would hate boys and we would scribble "Boys Suxs!" or "Girls Rule!" on our desks only to secretly haf a crush on one of them. HAHA. those were the bengwan days. when i was in Cedar, we caught loads of grasshoppers in the field right in front of our school and plucked out their hindlegs so that they wont run away. or rather, hop away. and oh yar, how we let go like 5 grasshoppers in malay lesson to scare Cikgu Seha. HAHA. so cute. and the smell of that makcik's mee rebus. like,poowahhh. and oh yar, how my clique consistin of Huda,Nasirah,Me,Aishah,Irfan and Asyraf, would stay til 6pm everyday just to collect saga seeds while wait for the afternoon bus. and ohh yarh, how i actualli managed to pronounced FUCK when i first saw that word written on a wall and how i went sooo excited and told everyone about my newfound word. HAHA. and mommy slapped me when i saed that to her. haha.
in maritoda, everythin was like glitz and glam.like, DUN TALK TO ME IF UR DAD WORKS FOR SUMBODY ELSE. ok, fine. that wus like how many fuckin years ago lah ok. haha. that wus the stuck-up and the kerek me. i admit i was once an airhead and sucha fuckin spoilt brat. i saed, once. i am not now lah.

sorry for the lengthy entry though.i just feel like typin and typin and typin. oh wells, why shud i even apologize. haish. this is my blog and what i wanna type shall be posted, like it or not. HAHA. ok, i wan to haf a tagboard but am too proud to ask for help. HAHA. farra saed i shud haf one so that i noe that she's still alive in hk and she wanna tell me how she misses me and stufs. HAHA. LAME LAH GIRL. haiyah. dun think i dunno what u'll do to my taggie. flood,flood and flood. like i dunno. hurhurs. what lah you. it happened once and im not gonna let it happen again. no pussy,no. krekre. i shall call farra pussy lah. hhey pussy pussy, come here. -snapsfingers-

ok,i shud really go and cook. im not really hungry but i haven eaten since yday. hmm,go figure.

(i miss typin this-->) lotsa love, hugs and kisses,
ur friend.

HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. sooooo primary school. but i loike. ive got a fuckin enjoyable childhood lah OK. =]*

♥ to each its own :)

haish.
i noe why nana and lin didnt call me tonite.
and im so fuckin hurt. -sobsob-
you DITCH me for ur men.
haiyah.
but no,i shall stand on my feet and not be swayed by peer pressure. im not gonna find myself a boyfriend just bcz 1/2 of the buangpisangs is attached. HAHA. whatever. oh wells, hope you guys haf farn with ur significant other while i stay at home and rot. hehs.=]* no no, no need to feel guilty lah. im OK. -stareshard- REALLY. =]*

i watched american idol just now and my oh my, this season of contestants are fan-tastic like Fan-tasia. HAHA. ok, that wus lame. haha. but really lah, everyone wus great except for that country pumpkin. hmm,whats her name, ermms, oh damn, i forgot lah. i hate her. and i agree with simon. she sounds like a kitten tryna be a tiger. TRY HARDER,BABE. haha. i just hate the sound of her voice. sumhow, i think she lacks solidity unlike Vonzell. gawd. i hart vonzell. hmm,maebe im just bein biased cuz i love black people like to the core of the apple. but still,i like Vonzell and Anwar Robinson. hmm,is he a muslim too? cuz i saw sum woman wearing the tudung cheerin for him and it states " Anwar's Family" hmmm,if he is, coolllll. haha. i think Paula is pretty but she sucks up to everybody despite her bein a judge. I prefer Randy not only becuz hes black but i think he shares the same sentiments as me. HAHA. i like simon for his honesty and thats it. no more no less.=]* a love-hate relationship is at its best.

oh, nana just called me. and it seems that shes stayin hm too. haha. together,girl. HAHA. she and i are sufferin from major back problems and we seriously walk like either non-virgins or old pple. it depends on how u look at us and at which side you observe,you see. pfft. dun wanna elaborate further :)

oh eddy called me just now askin me to cover for nana. HAHA. too bad, my blisters. but i wudnt mind actualli if u called me earlier cuz there's an inpromtu rugby function and of course, ill ged to see loads of hunks. yg badan manhunt-manhunt. HAHA. but its a decent bar lah ok.

oh yar, the other day, i was bored and when viga came onto msn, i immediately msged him since its been ages since i last spoke to him. so i saed a lil hi. but guess what? it was his fuckin wife.
-gulps-
she started askin me questions about myself like how old am i and how long have i known him and stufs lah. u noe the whole paranoid-wife routine? yarr. she started to haf wild imaginations and assumed that i was havin sum kind of perhubungan sulit with viga. LIKE FARKS. i wanted to keep my cool but the moment she accused me, i knew i had enuff. like, stoopid rite. eh girl, ur like fuckin hitched. why dun u open ur fuckin eyes and start appreciatin ur man instead of goin around geddin mad about such a trivial issues?! i seriously cudnt believe it. like, she went on and on about how flirty guys can be. and she went berzerk and i mean, totally berzerk when i told her that ive known him for 7years. and she asked why viga didnt tell her anything and she saed i was makin up stories. urghs. shes fuckin irritatin i tell you. ur fuckin married and ur supposed to trust ur man. like, HELLO. urghs. and then, i asked her if she was at viga's place. bt she saed she was at her mom's. and then she questioned" why? are u meetin him later?????" URGHS. i blew my top. i wrote in caps tellin her about my relationship with viga and she wus like watever.that wus like so fuckin irritatin. in the end, when i seriously cudnt take it anymore, i called her a bitch and asked her to fark off. that wus a mistake i tell you. so today, i got into msn and viga told me that his wife wanted to putus. LIKE WHAT THE FARKIN HELLS. it wasnt even my fault. it was her, her and still HER. thats her fuckin problem if she doesnt trust viga. and plus, the main thing is, there's nothin goin on between me and viga. -rolleyes- ishk.
FAZLY, nilah baru prangai cam budak budak kalau u nak tau.

eeee,bingit nye. siallah.urghs, why am i even talkin about him. oh yarr, i forgot. cause he still owes me money and my hp. URGHS. bodoh peh jantan. mintak kene tembak. i feel soooo pissed now for i dunnoe what farks. and mommy is buggin me to do the travel scrapbook that i promised her that ill do. yar,i promised but if i dun feel like doin, WHAT YOU WANNA DO. stupid rite. haiyah. just pissed,pissed and pissed.

and just farks, Janji Padamu, is playin again. urghs. HOW LIKE THAT.

♥ aint no where in the globe i rather be *

weee.
at last, i dun haf ta work today. like, ive saed waitressin is fuckin tirin and plus, stupid and ugly-lookin blisters are growin on my feet. like,eeeew. i tell you,its fuckin horrible and my back hurts like fark. but i still had farn at work ydae. oh oh, did i tell you? i nearly spilled one whole salad dish. and its at like 17dollars. like,OMG. really. and yar, my hart nearly went out of my mouth sial when the grapes in the salad rolled down the aisle. like,FARKS. i wus so relieved that no one saw. seriously. and lucky i was in charge of area A alone. omg. LUCKY ME. pfft. but i loike area A cuz its the outdoor section of the bar and theres where alot of diners eat cuz they cant prolly eat at the bar so i ged to serve nice nice nice-smellin food. and yarh, ydae, i got my ass burnt when ravi the manager asked me the placings of all the tables. i went like,HOW I NOE. and of course, together with my pathetic and confused look. HAHA. to look desperate lah. so that he wun be so mad at me. and yar, i actualli told him thatim a very confused person by nature and i am bound to be confused over the names of the drinks and i wud be better at my job if i was given the waitressin job where i haf to take the food from the restaurant next door and serve.like, if ravi were to ask me to list all the beers they serve, i wud be like, HOW I NOE,again. and that wudnt be very nice to see lah. haha.

oh yar, i qoute " whats the base for Bloody Mary?". and i cleverly answered" blood lah".and i cud actualli smile like i was so proud of my ans.stuuupid. and yar, he glared at me. haha. ok,FYNE. its vodka. but i tot it wus tomato juice, at least. =]* i guess i sux at rememberin names of all 69 cocktails, 8 beers and about 20 combinations of shots. like, salute to mira lah ok. she noes EVERYTHING.
-rolleyes- and PLUS, pricin too. on/off peaks as well. like,woahhhh. lalallalalallala~

relationships. frankly, im sick of it. like, really. cikalang wa sama gayah sula single liao. haha. i dunnoe that girl lah k. but if that makes her happy,ill be happy for her too. hurhurs. i and nana was tokin and actualli agreed that we wanted our men sensitive. and take note lah ok, we saed sensitive. we din sae over-sensitive or we din sae insensitive. haish. but how cum we always ged guys who are either over or under. like,FARKS. ok, case closed. i dun wanna talk about men anymore. i wanna bitch about girls now. HAHA. -winks- this is farn.

ydae, after my visit to SATA for my urine test,i and lin was in a bus with these 2 girls. and oh yar, my urine looks weird in a cup tau. like,GROSSS SIAL. haha. oh anyways, we were sitting and tryin our best to like concentrate and hum to akon-lonely when we heard them talkin about men. so i did a clever thing and lower the volume. i think lin noticed and she smiled.so we actualli looked as if we were listenin to our cds but in a matter of fact, we were eavesdroppin. eyyy,u cant help it lah. the topic sounds interesting. roughly, this is how it goes. HAHA. i wanna larf first.ok, so here goes;

slenge-girl: i think its fated lah. i always see him in the bus,in the train,in the mama shop and at my mom's kedai. and whenever i turn to look at him,he'll turn away. you noe(slaps friend's shoulders), i think he was lookin at me. then, my heart cam dak dook dak dook sak. hahaha.and hes super cute siak. serious..
metalwannabe-girl: siallah kau. aku pun raser mmg jodoh kau dgn dier. haha. maner tau kan. den my part wus like, i think our lips completely met tau. and he wanted to stick his tongue and i felt disgusted. mcm eee sey. aku malu sak. i seriously dunnoe what to say lah. but it felt good. (she den talked softer) it actualli felt right when we were doin it. haha. i seriously cudnt believe it.(den she chuckles).

like,OMG. haha. and they were schoolin at suprisesuprise, ITE BEDOK. hurhurs. after that sentence, i turn up the volume. -rolleyes- eh please lah. haiyoh. just bcuz we see him everyday doesnt mean its fated tau. wahlaoweis. and oh yar, HE STAYS BESIDE HER. they are neighbours i heard lah. HAHA. how to not bump i ask you. like, stoopid rite. kaos. tapi cute lah conversation dorang. i wanted to larf not at them but just larf. haha. i mean, like, cute kan. hurhurs. oh man. macam macam character ader pat ite. i wunder how my new friends will be. like,i noe ive got nana and lin with me. so we are sooo totaly gonna rawk ourselves but like, ya noe. classmates and stufs. how like that. hurs. actualli its quite interestin. just now, went to sch to register and to ged my photo taken and i bumped into jufri and ain. and yar, that fatihah guy. hurhurs. went to fag with ain and we talked. it seems as if shes back with kilat and yar, weddin bells are ringin soon i guess. HAHA. sooo exciting.

hurhurs. and she asked me" kak ama plak? takde guy skrg?" eh hello. kene ader guy ker. haiyohhhh. susah benar nak jwb.soalan bonus. hais. but whatever lah. and oh yar, ydae met king. he was like this fat chinese tycoon sittin in front of the gamin machine. he looks cute actualli. and yday, he was in his 3/4s and his baggy shirt and slippers. haha. sooooo cute. and oh yar, without his cap. like,wow. haha. okielah. whatever :)

hmm,tonite, ill be stayin hm. and be a good girl. im gonna cleanse my face, open up my pores, put on a mask and ged a fuckin good nite sleep on my comfy bed. i swear if i carry on with my night life like this, my face wud be horrible.so before that happens, i better do sumthin. oh damn,im actualli feelin sleepy. haishhhh.

to fazbaby! MWAHS. I LOVE YOU. haha. ur my second heartbeat too.
MWAHS.MWAHS. nanti aku gi queenz, kau turun. den kiter lancing lancing. HAHA. -rolleyes-
til then,
ana=]*

♥ its still in me.

yay! i finally got it rite.
haha. okie fine.
i noe this layout looks alil stupid and looks alil plain but whatever lah k.
i need to be clean and tidy.
so that people wont call me dirrty anymore.
BOOHOO.

oh wells. met imp and sent him off for his bmt thingy. hurhurs.im so screwed i tell you. as i sat in the train,i started thinkin. and i came to a conclusion where, I DUN WANNA BE ATTACHED. hehe. really lah. yar, i do care for him and everythin but come to think of it, i care for everyone. and besides, he's startin to change and yar, he'll find sumone better than me. someone who can satisfy his needs and who can give him love and attention. right now, i cant. i dunno. i mean, he wus everythin i ever wanted. but that wus in the past. im afraid. hurhurs. i feel so rotten. i hate this kinda feelins. when i talked to him over msn ydae, i was so decided that i wanna be with him again and yes, maebe there's really a possibility that we could be together. but just now, it just seems so wrong. it felt empty and the feelin of wantin him BAD isnt just there. its sumwhere but its not there. i want it to be there like so bad so that ill noe that i dun haf to search any further and he's like the one. but i cant lie to myself and him. it wasnt there. it just wasnt. it felt empty and thats the reason why i wanted to stop whatever that we were doin so it wun escalate to sumthin which i cant handle right now.

OH MAN. IM FEELIN THE SWAYIN AGAIN. IS THERE ANOTHER EARTHQUAKE??? OMG.
as i sit and blog, i can fuckinly feel it. i aint lyin and my wall clock is swingin too. OMG. I HOPE THERE ISNT ANY EARTHQUAKE. I HOPE.i pity all victims. hmmm,ok, so it has stopped. DAMN. that was shockin. haha.i actualli felt it. like,woooooo :)

ok,back to my failed love story. where wus i again? hmmm. -scrollsUP-. oh yarh.and farks, he cant stop talkin about his ex. she's this,shes this.shes that. oh man, gimme a fuckin break lah sial. so what if shes thinner than me. so what if shes pretty. so what if you think shes better than me. SO WHAT SIAL.eh, til when looks can bring you places. TIL WHEN SIAL. urghs. one moment, u sound as if u love me sooo much and the other its as if im ur fuckin sparetyre. before yar, i wus stupid enuff to play along. but now, either u noe it or u dun, i twist man round my fingers. NOT the other way round. please. if u wanna be with me, PLS show me sum signs that u love me and cant ged over me and NOT talk about ur ex like 24/7. urghs. thats the fuckin problem with me. i tend to play along. and when i play along longer than i should, i tend to ged hooked. and i of course, the blurcock me, always ged hurt. so please imp. i just wish you could be alil more sensitive. sumtymes if i sae no, i mean, MAEBE. aiyoh. how cum guys are sooooo insensitive. this is geddin in my nerves i tell you. now, to make things even fark-ier, the song, Janji Padamu, is playin in my discman. like how coincidental things can be. urghs. that wus like HIS song to me. urghs.

memories,memories,memories. i just wish i hadnt met him like 3 years ago. urghs. but farks lah. im still keepin those memories. those kentalan memories. ohh yar, did you pple noe that actualli kental means kuat? HAHA. he told me. hehe. he actualli checked the dictionary. HAHA.so cute. as i saed, memories with him are still vivid even though its 3 yrs ago. haha. days when i tot the window wus a door and i actualli waited rite in front of the "door" so that the fuckin thing will open. haha. sooo stupid me. yar, bak book bak book, dah 3 tahun sak. hais. that time, wen we first went out,people saed that i wus his sister. and when we went hari raya visitin, his fren's mom saed sumthin like" wah,baik imp. jalan raye pun bawak adik.baik sey". that wus the first.but it wasnt the last. another time, when we had a channel gath, pple also asked him if i was his sister. haha. sooo farny. pple sae that if couples look like each other, they are meant for each other? haha. I seriously dunno. maebe, i dun think so. but then again, after so much shit happened between us, we always happen to cross each other's paths. hmm. nvmlah. kalau jodoh takkan ke maner kan=]*

nana told me that ill be workin for the whole of this week. EEEEE.tak nak lah keje. haha. i mean, i dun wanna work tmr. ishk.ishk. if ill be workin for the whole week, ill be in dead shit. like, FARKS. waitressin can be sooo fuckin tirin. urghs.-rolleyes-

just now too, i met suhail. my pri school fren. HAHA.so nice to meet him. mwahs. hurhurs. he wus supposed to meet his cousin at the interchange but he bein a nice guy, accompanied me all the way home and he took a bus back to where we met to meet his cousin. haha. so sweet rite. soo many years of not talkin and when we actualli meet, fuyoohhh, alot of gossips. hurhurs. and yar, he told me that he was mysteryboy who sprayed on me with the foam thingy at esplanade's countdown. like, FARKS. after soo long sial. haha. so HE wus the one. nottyy erhh kau. spank aru tau.hahahaha.

oh damn, my eyes are geddin droopy. i think ill ged back to my bed. i hafta meet lin at 11 to look for a job for her and if that manager saes that i haf to work,ill be workin til damn late tmr. til then, takecare yal.

love,
ana.

♥

hurs.test.test.

♥

i seriously wunder what nana and gayah are doing right now.
and oh yar, what lin is doing.
i miss going out with the three of them lah ok.
i miss those crappin sessions where we had our own picnic and made suntec's fountain our version of east coast beach. plastic bags littered everywhere else, pieces of food spitted around and oh yarh, that shakin session with the chocolate milk.-slurps- everyone is busy with their own lives.

and yar, that reminds me. i haven been talkin to dzul lately. he sounds ok when i called him a few days back only to doubt me when i told him i was in Bedroom instead of Queenz. he didnt farkin believe me and when he asked me why my voice sounded farny, he presumed that i have drinkin and i haven been a good girl. but no, i was busy stuffin myself with food from 7 elevens. haha. i tell you, with people like me nana gayahs and lin, 7 elevens wud be fuckin rich. like macdonalds rich si-al. we buy food whic can amount to 30bucks. like farks. yes,i noe. but really,its always farn actin like sum tai tai walkin thru 7 elevens and goin out with 4 bags of food. HAHA. i think that's like our fav. pasttime. EATING. or rather, STUFFIN. hurs. yday also, me and lin had our own slumber party. after work, we walked from Nidec all the way to her house. can you imagine? and the mats on bikes were like honkin on us. but whatever. eh please lah. UNLESS U WANNA GIF US A RIDE,PLS DUN HONK OK. haha. we talked about seriously-i-dunno-what to cockroaches bein irritatin pests to starbucks to bitches. HAHA. hmm,come to think of it, pests are supposed to be irritatin rite. so what the hells. hurs. ok, fyne. im in my too-lazy-to-blog-but-still-wanna-do-it-just-for-the-sake-of-it mood. den when we were at lin's place, she talked to azrul while i made myself useful by fryin hashbrowns for our western supper. HAHA. that wus farn. and we talked and talked and talked and talked til we fell asleep. i wish nana and gayah wus there. i bet it wud be more farn. and more drama too. haha.=]*

did i mention that i met imp? yar. we went compasspoint to ged his army stuffs and it was farn i guess. i mean, shoppin at cold storage and shoppin at john little for his undies. HAHA. so cute. he saed if there was pink undies, he wud geddit. but too bad. aye, it takes a man to wear pink OK. haha. but whatever. hes my ex lah ok. this is the third year that ive known him and im just glad that we are still talking.i dunnoe if we are still together but i wudnt dare say anythin. call me coward or whatever.im just too scared to let myself commit again. with my fuckinly active nightlife, i dunnoe how the hell am i gonna handle a relationship.besides, i dun wanna destroy the friendship. eh, who says lovers cant be friends eventually. yes, ugly shit happens while i was with him but all is forgiven. i just hope he appreciates me.i secretly wish that is. but that isnt gonna help cuz he does read my blog so it isnt a secret really. but what the hells. haish. i dunoe what haf i gotten myself into. he just broke up with his girl and hes already sayin that he still loves me.i dunnoe lah ok. im seriously tired of tryin and tryin and tryin only to realise that its not geddin anywhere after everythin is over. and the farky thing that i cannot accept is that, he doesnt wanna gimme his number. and yar, EMAIL erk. haish. WHATEVER. i dunnoe what the hell is his motive. seriously. and yar, when i saed i wanted to visit his parents, he saed NO? what the hells. i dunnoe if hes hidin anythin i mean, i shudnt be worryin lah but i cant help it. i mean,if now when we are not together and hes already behavin so secretively, what about when we are together? HAISH. again, FUCKWITTAGE. this kinda shit always happens to me. imp, i hope u understand=].


ps: seriously, i think he doesnt love me enough. haha.how ironic huhs.
love,
ana.

♥

a piece of my past is back in my life.
dunnoe if its good or issit bad.
this year is the third year and i hope hes here to stay.
i hope history doesnt repeat itself cuz if it does, its gonna be very ugly.
too ugly, its not worth mentioning.
pfft.
God, please bless me and him.
Amin.

love,ana.

♥

oh wells.
for starters, im workin at bungee's tonite. YIPPPEEEEEe,NOT actualli. HAHA. i AM lookin forward to it but then again, the thought of my blisters poppin and oozin out with pas is not really sumthin that i wanna look forward to lah. HAIYAH. work, work,work. but its actualli farn werkin there. even though i am the fattest waitress there lah. haha. but not to worry, i can do anythin.hurhurs. sumtymes when i find sumthin that interests me so much, i stick to it no matter how the tough gets goin. so bungee is one example. unless they sack me because i look too fat, ill stay. HAHA. =]*

i noe i haven been updatin as much but BELIEVE me, ITS NOT MY FUCKIN FAULT. everytime i try to blog and when i finally did and when i finally click on the "publish post" icon, the next thing ill see on the screen is HUGE WERDS like" THERE WERE ERRORS". and fark, the entire post just disappears like that.so you seriously cannot blame me. hurhurs. so just wish me luck when i post this, it'll go smoothly. hehe. -rolleyes-

i hate it when pple msged me on msn and starts to talk to me and just disappear in like 5mins? like farks. zaid baby, WHERE ARE U? haiyoh. MAIN PS KOTS. haha. i dun wanna disturb him cuz he'll blame me if he loses. HAHa. whatever. I NOE. oh wells. talkin about PS, last tuesday, when we were chyllin out at min's place, i played tekken or issit tekkon. oh whatever tek lah ok. i played wit wan. HAHA. kesian aku tgk dier. slalu kene elbow. sorry yah,wan? i noe ur a nice guy and of course u wudnt mind. keke. but i had farn. but the most farn-est part wus when min saed that we cud do SHEESHA-ing. so after we ate maggie mee, we sheesha-ed our way til we fall asleep, literally. HAHA. and min saed i hijacked his place. WHERE GOT. i aint a terrorist you see. dahlah kau panggil aku mak tiri. skrg TERRORIST. haiiii,ni tak boleh jadi lorh.-shakeshead-

DAMN. i dunnoe how the hell am i supposed to work today. just now, when i tried on my shoes WITH my plasters,my ankle still hurts and i cudnt walk properly. so,i tried wearin my black socks with my shoes and EEEEWWWW.so disgusting. never am i gonna work in that kind of state. like how to even walk properly let alone walk and carry trays of glasses to and fro bungee. i seriously am fuckin clueless. i wish sumone cud just throw me black shoes without the heel. i wish. GAWD. so now is only 4,that prolly means that i haf another 2 hrs to think about my predicament. urghs.

on a happier notch, UMIE AH HAS GIVEN BIRTH. to a healthy baby boy. HAHA. soo cool rite. so now, theres three of them. Umairah,Thaqif and the last one. hehe. i dunnoe the name yet lah. but the last one has the same birthday as Umairah. kekeke.HOW COOL IS THAT. im sure im gonna love him too. as much as i love the both of them. and im sure thaqif wud be alil more noisier and alil more naughty. just to ged the attention cuz he noes that hes not the baby of the family anymore. AHHAA. so ttthhhattt means, i haf to layan him lah. cuz hes sooo fuckin cute. haha. yarr yarr, min wud again call me mak tiri bcuz of this. hurhurs. releasin the "mak tiri" in me. hehe. but hey, im nice with kids u noe. i dun torture them and i dun kill them at least. hehe. soo yarr.-beams- hehhe. i love the way they chuckle and the way they play chak-chak with you. the way their eyes move when u are tryin to show them sumthin. the way their fingers feel soooooo smooth and smell so nice. EH,im not a pervert OK. but then again, when u are close with them,u cant help but notice these lil things. soooooooo cute. haiyoh.

on the otherhand, i wudnt wanna haf babies til i noe really that im ready. i wudnt wanna regret havin kids and not treatin them rite just bcuz they came on accident mode. and the govt is doin great in promotin family plannin.like, we haf ta see whether we are financially stable to maintain a family and haf ta see whether we are emotionally prepared. cuz i noe, when the time comes, and when im finally pregnant, i wud haf feelins that ive never felt in my life before. and i wud be sooooo excited. HAHA. hmm,just thinkin of me bein pregnant excites me. you noe, the whole shoppin at kinderland or issit called wonderland now? hmm. or OH YAR, shoppin at mothercare with my bulgin and sexy tummy with my girlfriends. HAHA. that is sooooo nice.sumhow or rather, i find pregnant woman totally sexy and completely alluring. they carry this aura with them that is soooooo captivating and sumhow when i see a pregnant woman, ill just smile. but i feel like runnin up to them and huggin them. cuz they are just sooooo erms. like, you noe lah ok. -BEAMS-

hmmm, i now secretly wish and hope that the system doesnt screw and it doesnt die on me. and i DUN WANNA SEE "THERE ARE ERRORS" in my next page. so PLEASE. i really wanna post this. PLEASE BLOGGER DOT COM. PLEASE.

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HAHA.a guy from friendster gave me this message. and im flattered. HAHA. ok, so hes cute cuz he knows that any person whom i dunnoe who sends me a message would be blocked.haha. farny lah. oh wells. its good to hear another guy tellin me that i dont need a man. haha.
"eh why u soo cute? nah don't worry. no need to click the block user button. i won't ask fer ya number/address/e-mail/location. u don't need a man aniwaes. toodles."

im just to tired to blog about whats been happenin to me for the past few days but i noe i had farn. hurhurs. now,im waitin for nana's call to tell her about my skirt. urghs. this is sooo stressful. and i called dzul and he didnt pick up my calls and on top of that, he didnt call me back. usually,when i call and he didnt pick up my call, he'll call me back. gawd. he didnt call me back. urghs. im dangerously in love with him. urghs.

farks lah. what a life ive got. hurhurs.

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as much as my system needs fresh fresh air, the body is still rejectin it. and its fuckin irritatin cuz i seriously cannot sit still without vibratin bcuz i haf to cough and when i cough, my body sorta shivers. its the worst feelin in the whole wide wide world. and i admit, i hate it. i cough til my head spins and til my stomach sorta wheezes. its stupid lah i tell you. haish.

despite all the bacteria and virus runnin in me, i still can find the energy to club. met nana at riverwalk at eight. she was with ah hock and ah dog and i see that they were assimilatin well with each other. those two are dearies i tell you. gawd. i love them to bits. thereafter, heard that there was a major raid for underages in all clubs so i wus rather reluctant to go Queenz-ing.so i thought we walked around til victor tell us that licensin are gone and then,we'll be there. so met her and headed to peninsula to ged nana a black skirt for her work today. shes workin at Bungee's tonite so prolly she'll be at nurul's chalet alil late i guess. after walkin and geddin what she wants we headed to brasbasah to chill cuz we tot we wanted to meet gayahs. but turned out that gayahs was still arguin with zul and we din wanna interrupt. ended up sittin at levelfive listenin to Lonely yet again and talkin about stuffs. mainly about our girlfriend-girlfriend relationship.and im glad that i haf a girlfriend who stick thru my thicks and thins.hurs.=]* its always farny how different the two of us are in character but we still managed to find a snugglin spot where we cud snuggle up to and still haf crazy farn. haha.

then,esplanade wus our next spot. saw loads of skinheads and their vespas. wOoooo.cool babe. semuer mods. haha. and i think they were havin an underground race or sumthin cuz we heard and saw alot of vespas ridin fast past the road. oh wells, other than fashion sense which really do not appeal to me, i second their love for vespas. haha. we then convinced boy to chyll with us and he came and afew hrs later, gayahs and zul came. glad that everythin was ok btwn them cuz they looked happy and they actualli looked cute together. hmm,im still wunderin how the hell zul tolerates her vulgarities. i tell you, this bitch here, doesnt know the werd discreet at all. her vulgarities are enuff to shoot like apes and gorillas. gawd. but i love her stil. haha. then, boy decided to move his bike from the carpark to sumwhere near our sittin spot so i agreed to follow him and of course, to ged a free ride too. hurhurs.

on the way to the carpark, zaid and min came.i wus farkin excited and happy to meet them cuz i miss them and yarr, you noe me. the whole frantic excitement got the better of me. haha. so me and boy ride to cannaught dr and he decided that he wanted to head home cuz he wanted to sleep. lazy bum,he. haha. so yarr, he went off. hes such a nice guy i tell you. cute lah. haha. then, chylled with min zaid zul gayahs and nana til around 2 b4 headin for queenz and fortunately, when we reached there, we saw no signs of men in blue.NASIB BAIK.but unfortunately, when we reached there, the first person i saw wus Tong. -rolleyes- tak tau lah aku. im like fuckin pissed with the whole bunch of them. so when we got in, we saw king and he smiled. so i smiled back. but other than that, no thank you lah. ive learnt my lesson. but i did haf farn with zaid and min. they are soooo cute. haha. and yar, truckloads of farn too. krekre. i swear to myself that i haf to mention this. so here goes;
DESPITE THEIR FAILED ATTEMPT TO TURN ME ON AND TO SEDUCE ME, I STILL LOVE THEM.
DESPITE THEM BEIN HORNY BASTARDS YDAY, I STILL LOVE THEM.
haha. eh min,zaid! HOW?! haha. sayang sey pat dorang. oklah,i try this, in my best ah-pek lingo, CIKALANG WA SULA ADA LUP SAMA LOLANG LIAO.

ps: thanks Gordon for the drinks. I LOVE YOU. u touch my ass,ANYTIME. of course, i PULL ur hair, ANYTIME. HAHA.=]. kater jek manager queenz tapi, prangai, HAIYOH. he looks fierce lah but hes a softie. just like Abg Salleh and that gay bouncer. haha. tapi kalau dah senyum, FUYOOOHHH. -melts- haha. HENSEM SIOL.pandai vict carik bouncer hensem hensem. HAHA.

hehe. oh wells. i hope today's chalet's gonna be farn. i hope. i hope. what cud be far worst than havin no food at a chalet. so yarr. at least i noe that there's gonna be food and hells, im there. haha. but seriously, who doesnt love barbeque food. like charred hotdogs, uncooked squids or yar yar, chicken soaked in oil AKA saturated fats. whaha. who doesnt love unhealthy eating sial. pernah tak orang gi bbq abeh makan salad. haiyoh. nightmare siols.daymn lah, my throat still hurts damn badly sial. ya allah. boleh mati ah gini mcm. sumone, squeeze ur hand into my throat and take out everythin thats in there? PLEASE? pfft.

oklah, cikalang wa mau calik makan liao. wa sulah manyak lapar. wa mau makan loti telur liao. loti telur manyak baguii lohhh.

wa peli dulu orhs,
ana.=]*

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i was interviewed and this is how it went. msn-style.i hope they dun publish it or sumthin.
Kak yanti, PLEASE OK.


Hello! So Ana, how's life?
it has been ok with me.sumtymes, it geds too excitin and theres alot of drama whereas on other days, i just sit by myself,read a book and listen to songs.that's it.

You've got something big going on huh?
sumthin big? hmmm,wells,i dun think so.not at the moment i guess. im still waitin for school to reopens where i can meet all my friends and study all bout bein a nurse.and im really serious about this.life ged alil boring sumtymes.

So tell me, are you attached?Attached?
attached? ohhh.hells yes. im attached with my girls. i meet them like almost everyday.

Oh come on!!! You get what I mean, right? Any special one that captured ur heart?
hmmm.im not in any relationship i guess. but i think ive got my hart hooked onto one.hurs. but other than that, any man wud do me fine.oh yar,he must be very farny and must be very very open.

Ok, I'll keep that in mind and will keep you posted of any man that I feel is a match for you!! Hahaha!! Back to our convo here. How's everybody at home? I mean, ur dad n your siblings?
well, everyone is good i guess. mom is retirin soon.my dad werks hard and my lil sis is sittin for a major exam this year. they are all pretty bz. as for me,im bz plannin of my bdae bash which is in sept.haha.

I wish them good health, Ana. Next question. How is your daily routine go about?
hmmm,wakes up at around 11 if i was at home the night before. if i was out the night b4, i wud come back at 9 in the morning,sleep and then wake up again at 5. when i wake up,i search for food cuz ill be hungry.in the meantime, when my girls call for sumthin to do or to club, then i wud bathe and meet them again at 9.and the whole thing repeats itself. sumtymes, when we dun feel like clubbin, we do night-cycling. that's it i guess.

We also found out about your love life, Ana. So what's going on with it. Can you tell us more?
WHAT ABOUT MY LOVE LIFE?! WAIT KAK.ARE YOU STALKIN ME?!

No,i am NOT stalkin you.i happen to do alot of homework on you.so, tell me now.
im not in any relationship as i mentioned just now. but i kinda like this guy. hes nice. and thats ALL.
if we are not meant to be,it'll never gonna happen, and if it does, its God i wanna thank.

Glad that you look on the bright side. Ermmm...what about this someone then?
hes nice. very charming,sweet and very concerned. i like protective guys so there, he belongs to the category i guess.Oh my god!! You really know alot about me huh?? Hey who told you all these?

HAHA.thats all the question that she posted.she sent me the file and i have ta fill up and send it back to her. its a wonder how she noes soo much cuz shes miles away from me. tucked in city of lights,all the way in NYC.haiyoh. like i say, news travel fast. hurhurs.shes my godsis and i wus super close with her when she was still in spore. shes doin her masters in one of the universities there. so yar, phuckin proud of her.

oh wells, nothin much to say cept that im waitin for tmr and today,im goin out with mommy dearest. hurhurs.wunder where shes gonna bring me. i hope, it has got to do with alot of clothes and money. oh yar,i just heard the church bells ring.that means, its 12pm, the first of April. i just got fooled ydae by dzul. hes such a sweetie. i love him. yarr. dangerously in love with him. hurhurs=]*

love,ana.

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kakak ku sudah tunang!!!!!!!!

haha.no wonder i felt extremely happy today.
when she spilled the beans, i was jumping! mwahs,kak! I LOVE YOU.

haha. mwahs. hope your relationship with abg bear will last ok.
samer samer kiter tembak dak2 lahabau tu ok.

-hugs-

FACT # 1: jantan jantan clubbin semuer takle harap. SEMUER. ALL.

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hheys.

i dunnoe why im feelin fuckin tired after ydae. like,omg. i think its bcuz of my period and my back hurts like no one fuckin cares. urghs. this is bad. but im just glad. hurs. and oh yarr, to add to my already sickly self, ive just gotten the flu. and i am still coughin. i tell you, im coughin til i wanna puke. its irritatin cuz im coughin on a dry throat and it feels like i wanna ged sumthin out of my throat badly and when i coughed, nothing comes out. i just feel like diggin into my throat and prolly airsuck it or sumthin.urghs. ni lah nasib orang sakit. haiyahs.

oh yarr, ive got plans for my eighteen birthday already. hehe. i noe its kinda early lah k. but yarr, ive made plans. like my mom but im better cuz im plannin it 6 months beforehand whereas my mom is plannin hers a month before. i dun wanna reveal what im plannin to do or rather, make my guests do cuz i dun wanna spoil the suprise. nanti aku blg, semuer tak nak dtg. semuer blackmail. takle.takle. only zaid noes.haha. erk boy, keep it secret tau. HAHA. but i think it shud be farn lah. and yar,im not bein cruel OK. hurhurs. talkin about zaid rite. i lorve zaid and min. ALOT. ALOT. ALOT. ok, i feel like doin this.

-SHOUTS- I LOVE MUHAMAD ZAID AND MOHAMAD MUHAIMIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-WAVES- HELLO!!!!!!!! EH,HERE!HERE LAH!!. [siao punya olang.]

haha.they are the only two guys and i wanna highlight erk,the ONLY two guys that i met from a club that i really care for. and i noe they care for me too. hurhurs. they are supa cute too, you noe. if ive got their pics, ill post it on my blog. SINGLE. haha. cCCCuuute to the max. and yarr, zaid saed he'll bring me to DBL O when im eighteen.and then we can all party together. no more of Queenz already. haha. den after that, we can go riding together when i ged my license,ok. masih lamer lagik lah k but no harm in visualisin the future rite. you haf to visualise to make it happen. so yarr, thats wad im doin now. cuz i noe what i want and i go for it. and when the time comes, no need to hussle and bussle whether i wanna do this or i wanna do that. all haf been decided. tgh tunggu time jeks. =]

this saturdae im goin to east coast again! yipppe! right after mairah's bdae bash.its nurul's chalet. its been ages since i last saw her sey. haiyoh.miss her truckloads. -mwahs-

i think i wus supa drunk ydae til i called dzul at like 5 in the mornin and expect him to talk to me. kesian orang tuh. haha. sorry lah you. tak ingat. i checked my call register and realised and i quickly call him to apologise. hurs. nasib dier baik. dier tak marah. haha. SORRYYY ERK YOU. oh yar, and i called lan too.azlan, zaid's friend? yarr. hurhurs. he went china black ydae. HEHS. BUSUK PUNYA OLANG. hes nice lah k. but then, lovers or friends? i say, FRIENDS. haha.

ooooh.yarr, did i tell you whats my current fetish? MYOJO THAI TOM YAM. haha. i tell you, if theres anyone who's crazy enuff to taste my blood, they wud die. cuz my blood wud be spicy. haha. seriously. today alone, in like less than 8 hrs, i ate 2 bowls. one in the mornin and just now. i totally lorrrve it. -slurps- i like it when my noodles get all fat and slimy and all juicy. hurhurs. cam ulat lah dengs. i LOIKE~. oh wells. but im still loyal to my number one current fetish lah ok. STRAWBERRY SHEESHA. haha. i hope min brings his sheesha set this saturday. den i can sedut sedut. krekre.

guess what? mommy's listenin to A1. the A-list album or sumthin. like since when sial. haha. and she noes the lyrics tau. eh wah eh wah. sudah canggih mak aku ni. krekre. oh yar, read zaid's blog. haha. hes cute lah. the way he describe his day rite, like pompan tau. cam he used phrases like " i was so excited to see it" haha. cute kan kan kan?! oklah. but really damn girlish. krekre. -mwahs- anyhoos, the rain has stopped already and im lorvin it. that means i can go out shoppin with mommy later! hooohooo! happy lah deys. i hope we're not ridin on her scooter. dun wan lah. i wanna wait til I AM THE RIDER. den i can go on that thing. i hope we take the train or sumthin cuz we cant use the car. like,stupid rite. haiyah. bodoh lah. car kan boleh bukak lagu kuat kuat. boleh make up make up. boleh rest rest. hurhurs.

i think ive written a damn damn long entry lah. but i just felt light today. i mean, as in not light as in i feel thinner today. i feel much happier today. for i dunno what farks but i feel good. perhaps the mamak downstairs made my day cuz he gaf me one epok-epok tau. sedapp. namer mamak tu, MOOSA. haha. nolah, i din ask him for his name. i saw the sign. cuz it saed MOOSA PROVISION SHOP. so his name, MOOSA lah. dengs lah yall. haiyah. dahlah.
i wanna remove the mask. my face feels soo cramped and stiff now. hurhurs.

til-later-when-i-feel-like-bloggin-then-ill-blog,
ana.=]*