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just a few more days to 2006.
im patiently drumming my fingers on my desk whilst recollecting the events of ['05].
alot of things had happened.

breakingup,makingup,full-forcedclubbin,full-forceddrunkness,badhangovers,brutalhittings,parentalissues,pastbackgroundissues,afightagainstmyself&myego and like, a few more kazillion things. pfft. that few issues actually made me lose me balance,fall,brush my bruised knee, sweep my hair over my shoulders, re-tie my hair, straightened my skirt and then, allow me to walk back,however wobbly.

and yes, i am excited to welcome 2006 with the love at the esplanade watching the fireworks. and prolly if he allows, maebe another full-blown club session with nana. i mean, spending time with the ones you love like family and friends shud be the way to spend an auspicious period of the year- the beginning of the year.

and when ushering the new year, i wish that all the backstabbin would stop.
because it seriously hurts to hear untrue stories being made and bein spitted at you.
and ya, girl, ive heard the discrimination you made against me just because u didnt like the way i walk.
so please, for once, my mom gave birth to me. if u haf a problem with the way i walk, ask my mom. and of course, i attract attention. because i got it from my mom. and yup, she didnt join the modelling line for nothing aite. SO PLS.
and pls grow laa and pls find sum other flaws on me because the way i walk has got nothing to do with your ego. unless ur such an insecured bitch who is already intimidated just by the way i walk. but i dont tink ur that low. so pls. hee. its never nice to hear sumthin like that,you noe? but thanks. im fuckin flattered that at least sumone notices the way i walk. and to think that i accepted you as a friend and i didnt even discriminate you.THANKS.

oh well. yup, im bitchin because ive got nothing to do,i agree. and yah, i am bored with my life. yah yah. whatever. but its my blog and if i am bored, i am bored. and i find bitchin vey appealing. that is why ive decided to bitch about you.

ok, takecare.

♥

ok, so i finished my work and i decided to be a itchyitchy kukubird and start surfing the net. and cant resist the compability tests that were offered at yahoo.com

Im a Virgin & Hes a Cancerian.

When Cancer and Virgo make a love match, a strong, down-to-earth relationship with staying power is the happy result. This is a relationship with great potential to get better and better over the passing years. Both Cancer and Virgo are goal-oriented and disciplined. They are sincere and devoted to one another and share a strong sense of purpose. No lightweight love here: These two were not really built for flings! Cancer and Virgo deeply admire one another: Virgo respects Cancer's quiet strength and dedication while Cancer appreciates Virgo's keen adaptability and intelligence.

These lovers may get off to a slow start, but over time, bonds will only grow stronger. The Cancer-Virgo love match prides itself on common sense and strong principles over fluff and inconsequential or fleeting connections. They enjoy the material comforts of life, but they will only feel good about their bounty if it has come as a result of honest hard work. There could be tiffs if Virgo becomes too critical for Cancer's easily bruised feelings; Cancer needs to understand that it's just Virgo's nature to point out what they observe, that it's not a personal attack. A Virgo may bristle at their Cancer mate's stubborn streak, but it's a trait that a patient and understanding love partner like Virgo could come to appreciate. Also, Virgo's urge to serve suits Cancer's affectionate, nurturing nature well.

The Moon (Emotion) rules Cancer, and Mercury (Communication) rules Virgo. Though they're very different planets, they're both near the Sun and therefore always in one another's neighborhoods. The Moon is a mothering influence; it's about cultivation and fostering growth, which are both central concerns for Cancer. Mercury is all about communication, and it's an androgynous energy -- Virgo will adapt and take on the form that it chooses, the guise that best serves a situation. Virgo takes an intellectual approach to life (especially compared to the emotional Cancer), but still manages to be perceptive and intuitive enough to figure others out if they choose. Good thing for the Crab, then, that a Virgo mate can get a feel for devotion and domestic fulfillment if that's what their Cancer lover desires. These two won't argue about fulfilling one another's needs. They'll work at it and relish the rewards of their conscientiousness.
Cancer is a Water Sign, and Virgo is an Earth Sign. Earth Signs, true to their name, are down-to-earth, but they can also be materialistic and preoccupied with acquisition. The Cancer-Virgo love partners like to surround themselves with comfortable, well-crafted things. Water Signs rely on feeling and intuition, making Cancer the emotive force behind this relationship, in a subtle Cancer way, of course. Along with their desire for prosperity, their love of a fancy home life ensures that this couple will work hard toward this shared goal. Also, they're practical pair, and losing control is never really an issue.

Cancer is a Cardinal Sign, and Virgo is a Mutable Sign. While Cancer gets things going, Virgo thrives on a changing routine of responsibilities and challenges. Because they're so ubiquitous, Virgo will find a place in Cancer's plans if they really want to. Virgo will keep in mind Cancer's plans, and will eventually bring results even if Cancer has moved on.
What's the best aspect of Cancer-Virgo relationship? Their dedication to working toward the same goals. Both partners in this love match enjoy a stable home life and nice things, and Virgo truly enjoys helping Cancer along the way to achieving their goals. Their shared goals and desires make theirs a highly compatible love match.

And it does haf a tinge of accuracy in what is given back to me. and im happy.
HAppy!

♥

i love,aidil.
very much.
i love the riding trips, the long walks, the late nights, the mushytalks, the fights, the kisses after the fights, the hugs afta the fights and most of all, i just love ur company.

xoxo

Ana,
ur fattybombom.

♥

i spent the entire day with aidil. and im suppa happy. despite goin home with alot more pain than i already can handle. HIASH. we went pulau ubin to cycle. yes,yes, the small lil island with alot of pokokpokok and alot of coconuts? YES,that one. hee. so we went there. the first part of the trip was cool. we cycled like prolly everywhere suckin in the kampungish view and my eyes feasted on alot of greenery whic was good.and i was fuckin happy.

UNTIL, my bike decided to go against me and make me pratically flew off the bike. we were goin down this very bumpy and very steep slope and of course, i bein a kuku dingdong who didnt noe how to use the brakes just followed with the flow and let the bike take me wherever. at first, i cud handle the entire slope-gravity-pullin-force thingy but then, it got out of control. i found myself screamin and shoutin like a fucktup bitch and my screamin stopped when my bike stopped into a fuckin depression and i slided out of my bike and then rolled over a few metres b4 landin chestfirst.

and FOR ONCE, I WAS GRATEFUL THAT I WAS FAT LAA SIALS. seriously. if i were to be like erin, thats it for me i tell you. and even with me bein fat, when i fell chestfirst, i felt as though i wud die. because the impact was so hard dat i think my chest was squeezed and i was breatheless for like 5 mins. and luckily aidil was strong enuff to bring me up because i cudnt move a muscle. after sitting up, i felt better but still, alil breathless. and i found many many scratches on my hands arms and kneecap. like,SO UGLY. and now, i am sufferin the aftermath of it all. i am officially afraid of slopes. and after i fell, i cud still larf because i knew i made a fool out of myself. haha. and yup, bein a camwhore, i took pictures after falling. but the fall ws far most THE WORST. and alhamdulillah, i am fat. and yup, i also tot that my ribcage broke and it punctured my lungs. whahaha. i noe, wild imagination rite? but i really tot that i wud die. i was sooo afraid and the only thing that i cud do then was just to hold aidil very very tightly. i mean, i cudnt die right in the middle of a jungle in pulau ubin? like, it is so unglam la.
-shakeshead- oh wells. and after that, i just cycled VERY VERY SLOWLY. taking FULL advantage of my injury to slack and skive. haha. so we cycled very slowly with frequent slow walks with the bikes with aidil beside me. i am so happy. and like i told aidil, it was all worthwhile. ((:

and mom was obviously goin on and on with the i-told-you-so regimes because she told me NOT to go to ubin because of my back. haha. tulah, tak dgr cakap. but all is good now. hopefully i wud recover like ASAP. i dun wanna walk like a cripple. sobsob.

and i love Aidilhaswin. the day was very very fabulous. i lorve it.
hehe.

so now im goin to down a couple of panadols and im goin to crash. the pain is fucktub i tell you.
URGH.

♥

hi!
so, hows xmas,everybody?
well, i spent my xmas morning completely unconscious and completely oblivious of my surroundings because i was soundly sleepin. hee. because me and aidil lepaked til like 6 this morning. and as soon as my body landed onto my bed, it went to the unconscious mode.
heehee. woke up around two in the afternoon and woke aidil up because he had to go for his soccerdate with his gay friends. -rolleyes- haha. as usual mah ((:

at arnd 5, made my way to mom's clinic. to ged massaged. and like farks, it was a very painful process. but hopefully it geds betta because i am supposed to go to ubin with aidil and friends,i think. frankly, i am NOT excited to go to ubin to cycle because of my back. but sayang peh pasal, i shall go laa. i mean, at least IF i were to faint or anythin, aidil will be there to carry me i noe.
HAHA, prasan kurus jek aku nih. ok,ok, just kiddin. hopefully my back co-operates with me laa. because dah lamer pun tak pegi ubin. hehe, cam paham jek.

like, the last time i went there was when i was 15 when we had OBS. that was indeed the best 5 days in my life. because i swam in the largelarge quarry which was 90metres deep, i ate durians immediately after they dropped from the trees. i ate loads of rambutans, i shitted anywhere i liked. also, obs was the first time i slept with a person of my opposite sex in a same tent because there was only two girls and we were afraid to sleep alone. hehe. and during that five days, on one of the days afta we kayaked from ubin to some other island, we had to sleep on that island b4 movin off early next mornin.so, at nite, it was so hot that we decided to take out our lifejackets and made them like pillows and sleep in the open air. and that night, i saw THREE shooting stars. and so, bein a naive gullible girl that i am, i wished and i wished. and afta that, it was history. but i remembered going home lookin very thin. because i lost like 12kg. like, i will remember lookin myself at the mirror for the first time after 5 days and i was fuckin shocked. i actually didnt like what i saw because there wasnt any fishball cheeks and i look quite sad and pathetic and very very malnourished. REALLY.

hmm.im actually quite sleepy. i wanna crash already laa.
toodles.

♥

i was bloghoppin. i was disgusted. maybe im just in my meanobeano mode or sumthin because i found what i read disgusting. like, the girl was suddenly angry in her entry and then afta she ranted and ranted WITHOUT any signs of stoppin, she signed off with, Love. i find that fuckin contradictory.esp after u called ur boyfriend "jantan dayus, tak sadar diri." WOW sey. like, seriously.

ok, am meetin aidil later. chillin out at mah place. i am very sleepy and very very tired and i seriously do NOT know how am i goin to stay up all night,just talking to him. but i.will.try.my.best. *smiles.

oh wells, im gonna gif him the foolscap pper note thingy that i attempted to draw. hopefully he likes it. gees. but i am so sleepy laa. even my hair is in a mess. and did i mention that my back hurt like fucks? i am now walkin as if i am pregnant lah ok. seriously. blame it on all the tribal dances that me and shaz tried to imitate. pfft. oh well. they say, you hafta sweat it out to haf farn. so that was what i did ydae and suffered severe backaches now. *rolleyes.
but its ok because, tmr, ill be goin to mommy's clinic. like,yayness. hopefully i feel muchmuch better afta that. i told u guys that i was sleepy rite? guess what is playin thru my ears?
BUFFALO SOLDIERS LAAA SIAL. ive gotta change already la. semakin ngantuk siolll.

Dear Conscious,
Please do not close down on me. I need at least about 4 hours of awakeness here. PUHLEASE.
after that, you can shut down,seriously. i dont wanna look as if i am fuckin ungratefuly because aidil came all the way and i bet the last thing he wanna see is a very very sleepy and very lerthagic girlfriend. *doinks.

Love, Amalina,
Your Other Conscious.

♥

okie. i lorved ydae's clubbin with shaz&nana. like, farnlicious, i tell you. but it wasnt farn AT ALL at desire, so we hopped to phunk's at ms.

the usual people were there, tong,king,gordon,azman,arif,fitria,khai,wanthebartender and some other people whom we shared the counter with. haha. and louis took pictures of us and i think it wud be up at phunk's webbie or sumthin. haha. but he threathened that he wud post it up phunkbarporn.com. like, HELLO? i was dressed. and very decently, in fact. i mean, pornpeople are either naked or skimpily dressed. and i belonged to neither catagories. AND, for a record( i was quite happy with myself!), i wasnt tipsy. AT ALL. hmmm, thats a record seriously because on most occasions, alcohol don really like me and decides to overtake overcome overwhatever my mind and body. but ydae, i got it under control.

and kudos to nana and shaz too, because they too behaved very well. *winks. and it was always farn to dance like sum african tribal people on the dancefloor. so it was farn! oh yah, i think i irritated arif with my "Why Are You White?" questions. after three, we hang around at phunk's for alil while and then proceeded back to desire's. because nana wanted to meet remy. but i dont really like desire ydae cause it was full of dancers and you noe how i wud feel fuckin inferior because i dont dance very well and wen they danced beside me, people standin around will haf the tendency to compare. so,i wanna be spared of their comments and i myself became a spectator. -beams-

ok, ill hafta go ged ready to visit my grams now. and prolly meetin aidil later at night. so, takecare yall.

iloveyou,baby.
and PUHLEASE SEND ME THE WWF PICS ASAP.
hehe. theres this pic where it seems like aidil was stranglin me and i looked quite happy to be strangled. so, bondage are usually kinky, i say.
WOOOHOOO.
toodles, now.

♥

harlow.
just got off the fone with baby bcuz he decided that he prefered to shit than talk to me on the fone. so, here i am, again, bloggin like nobody's father's farkin sake. hee.

ok so, since i was bored, obviously the links section on bloomin's didnt go wasted. i went blog-hoppin of course! so i was hopping very happily and digestin daily rantings of sum of my fav people until i pounced onto kak amy's blog. she was kinda emotional i cud feel but that wasnt all. a phrase from her entry caught my eye and i cudnt help but think.
the phrase goes like, Good Things Dont Last. OK, so i was abit confused because i didnt really noe how to figure out what it actually meant. like, was she talking about materialistic things or is she talkin about all things intangible? like, or , like was she talkin about love? and so i thought and i thought and suddenly, it set me thinking about my relationship with Aidil. like, OK SHALON, i noe im not supposed to go on and on about my significant other, but i really cudnt help it. tmr, i blanja you sweets ok? ok. so, now, i consider myself having a fairly good relationship with aidil as in like, we ged along quite well, we talk nonsense together, we do things that we've both not done in any of our past relationships or like simply, we are enjoyin each other's company. so in reference to that phrase, is it goin to end? like, i dont care whether its soon or not but it is still goin to end? HMM. i cant help but disagree.

i mean, we've talked about this like umpteen times and we both agreed that so long as we make an effort to make things work, at the end of the day, it will work, sumhow or rather and all you need is faith. and alot and alot of trust. and yup, im not a love guru and im just an amatuer at this game, i admit.i mean, yah, its easier said than done and i totaly also agree with it because i,myself am havin trouble with that area but at least, i know im trying very very hard. so thats my point of view. and i know, alot of people has had this stereotype been plastered right onto their foreheads. stereotypes arent good or bad. it just depends on which way you look at it.

oh wells. school was quite alright today. that blardy bitchy tcher was still as bitchy as ever and i refused to state her name on my blog because who knows she might just report me for talking behind her back. which is totally outrageous. but whatever. and im so glad that our glad stood up for our rights and beliefs and yup, im very proud of myself for standing firm. i mean, i noe my head's as strong as a rock and my heart isnt as soft when it comes to rights and self-beliefs so, i beg ur pardon. u just hafta bear with me, i guess. and today, at lunch, i was supppppa pissed i tell you. i was pissed because a classmate twisted my arm just because i pulled his sleeve. SERIOUSLY. and i was so tempted to hit his farkin head with my plate and i was on the verge of shouting but the twisting was so painful that i cudnt speak, let alone scream. -rolleyes- and yah, i was so upset that he treated a girl the way he treated me and like, WHO THE HELL HE THINK HE IS. hes such a jerk even though hes my friend's boyfriend. like, even Aidil who has been mad at me for more severe things DOESNT lay his hands on me. while HE, twisted my arm just because of his farkin sleeve. GET A FARKIN LIFE,BOY. -rolleyes- as much as i want to respect you as a leader, I AM SO SORRY because all the respect has just been drained out of me. nevermind if u dont respect me as amalina the bitchy one. but at least, respect me because im a girl! you just dont go round twistin a girl's arm JUST BECAUSE OF A SLEEVE. hes such a skeaze. i hate you. sooo much that i dont farkin respect you anymore. go fark urself,seriously. that is not the way to treat a girl. puh-lease. kau nak step maner peh hero lah gitu. kalau betulbetul kau nak step hero, KAU BOLEH JALAN. -rolleyes-. geramnye aku.

ok, breathe in and breathe out. tmr is the mark of the beginning of the weekend. seriously, im not really lookin forward to clubbin tmr. im more lookin forward to meetin aidil. because i just miss him too much. ok,stop it ana. stop talking abt him,already! ok, so tmr, we're goin clubbin. im goin phunk with my usual girls and hopefully, shaz cud be there to meriahkan lagik suasana. HAHA. ok, so, i anticipate alot of taxirides tmr. to and fro between queenz and phunk. like, i cud never make up my mind. hee. because phunk is havin an ala christmas thingy goin on while queenz is just very appealin because its been sumtyme since i last went and even tho that sum people may call it a kental club, i still loike it because thats the place where the people saw the worst of me so im quite comfortable with myself there. whereas in phunk, i noe less people and theres always this tendency to keep to urself in a very unfamiliar place. but be it phunk or queenz, hopefully, it will be a farn night. HAHA. *crossesfingers*

ok, im quite hungry. i wanna whip up sumthin to eat.
takecare yall.

♥

Dearest Aidil,

I want to say I'm sorry for certain things I say.

And sometimes how I act is really not the way.

We are so far apart, my mind sometimes goes astray.

I know this is no excuse for what I said today.

If you were with me, at your feet I would lay,

So that you would know how sorry I am

And that I will continue to love you

Forever and a day...

♥

hello.
i cant help it. im attracted to bloomin-miracle and since ive just given her a new skin, i just cant help it. HURS. anywaes, ate my zinger meal all by myself. puhlease, im hungry. i mean, even if i wasnt hungry,i wud still downed that zinger meal because its ZINGER for fuck's sake. like, dont go round tellin me to stop eatin now because i adore food. and yah, its kinda late to ask me to stop eatin because ive already developed thunderthighs flabby arms and bulgin tummy now.
so, what the hells.

ive got this theory going in me that if, i was happy with myself, everyone else wud be happy for me. hee. i know. what a way to console myself,rite? hee. people actually realli think that im always in a state of denial. but seriously, you people shud try it, it is very healthy. i mean, it makes you very very happy. Like ME! hee. and if u wanna live happily and be bubbly always, start appreciating urself and start loving urself. hee. but its not always that im jumpy and happy and acting very gay ((:

i haf my emopussy days where i just feel like crying my heart out or i just feel extraextra insecured where i will msg Aidil senseless msgs. and just now was a PERFECT example of me acting like a total biatch and a total spoilt brat. i mean, i dunnoe what hit me just now;but whatever it is, it hit me like a huge yellow schoolbus. But i am just very grateful that ive got him watching my back. hes such a sweet guy,really. i mean, i dont think any guy has ever tolerated my nonsense like how he has tolerated me and i am especially grateful that im with him. and i love him also because, he has finally given me the permission to club! *yayness* like, i dont haf ta do it undercovers anymore. i mean, not that ive gone clubbin behind his back, but you know what i mean. i rather do it in the open, you see. and baby, this means ALOT to me. the fact that ur actually allowin me to go shows that you have brought down ur pride and ego level by a notch and im eternally grateful for trustin me. and dont you worry, i shall not play play with your feelings. i am committed to be a one-man girl/woman-to-be. ok.

ey did i say that my class, the Champions of JN0504, are actually goin to dance on Nurses Day and National Day? Like, FUWAHH. i am uber excited laa sials. like, OMG. i am so afraid of screwing up but hopefully things will go smoothly like chocolate milkshake. ah-ha,ah-ha. and Guess who wrote her name on TOP of the list? -smilesverywidely-
yessa, of course, YOURS TRULY laa sials.
*beams*

and i read shaz's blog. i wonder too. i wonder if celebrities like syed azmir, taufiq batisah, have had pre marital sex. i mean, they are like just another person you see walkin on the roads of town and i seriously am very curious laa. ANYONE CARE TO ENLIGHTEN ME?

perhaps, they are uber different from the majority? hmmm, PERHAPS laa sials.

ok,im gonna go already. ohhh, this weekend, im goin Queenzing and prolly visiting mom's clinic on sunday with aidil,hopefully. because saturday nite dah penat club, sunday gi clinic mommy dapat free massage.
*yaaahooo*
*jumpsaround*
nilah perks dapat massage theraphist as a mom!
LOVE YAH! mwahmwah.

♥

Hello.
Ive changed my skin. Looks good,ey?
HARHAR.
nilah, orang kater nak buang suay lah kan.
okie, i dont feel like typing anymore because my tummy's growling and i am goin to go down to kfc in like 10MINUTES.
haha.
anyways, i went to the dentist just now. and now, I HAVE RED TEETH.
heee. and yup,ive sent my application for sponsorship at sgh. hopefully, they wud ged impressed with my veryvery demure-looking face. HARHAR. -crossesfingers-
and guess what, im watchin MacamMacamAznil on suria and its just quite farny cause i find myself giggling to myself like an idiot. harhar! but its like a replica of KOTT only that MMA is more MATMATM'SIA. if you noe what i mean. but i like sharifah shahira or whatever her name is lah.

and Shalon,my classmate saed that i shud talk about sumthin else other than ranting about Aidil,Aidil,Aidil. HAHA. so i shall talk about sumthin. ey, i think i really hafta charge my classmates. i mean, they have been asking me to plait their hairs and i tell you, if i were to charge them, i wudnt hafta ask daddy for lunchmoney. but since i am a nice nice classmate, i shall not ponder over it. HAHA. ok, shalon, u happy not. we shall join danceworks and do our special dance ey. LOVE IT. -licklips- haha.

ok, i gtg. i wanna eat. TOODLES.
and guess what, i am BROKE, again.
-shakeshead-

♥

harlow everybody.
i am ultra pissed. i am pissed because my computer crashed like, 2 days ago and it only recovered like yesterday and that means, EVERYTHING IS ERADICATED. like, hello? ok, so ALL songs, ALL videos, ALL everything. urghs. and oh yah, ALL MY PICTURES too. double URGH. pictures taken with Aidil, is all OUT of my system. and it is fuckin sucky to be openin my d drive and just to haf a blank screen just staring back at me. like, FUCK lah.

ok, so today, i was supposed to go town-ing with ama. but unfortunately, i cant cause of blardy projects and blardy presentations. and like, I AM SO MAD. i can hardly breathe. anyways, erin and shaz are over at my place and they are pretty obsessed with my redred ball which mommy bought so that i cud exercise on it. but they ended up jus bouncing on it and me and shaz had this theory whereby, if you keep bouncin on that ball for a continuous 15mins, you wud lose like pounds. but that is all bullshit and yah u guys are right, i was just consoling myself. HAHA. i noe, lame. so enuff of the stories. ive got a better story.

guess what, AIDIL HAS THESIMS ON HIS ENGAGE.
like, FUWAAH. i dont like it. because i so noe that his engage is much much more appealing than me. and like, wtf. -rolleyes- yea yea, i noe b. i noe. haha. ok, so im watching MeanGirls for like the 19th time. and im still not bored with it. and im not bored with MeanGirls like how im not bored with FindingNemo. My all time favourite. HARHAR.

ok, so meangirls is ending soon. so that means, i hafta send them both back to the bustop.
-rolleyes- but after that, i am so gonna crash. i am oh-so-sleepy. very sleepy in fact.

ok, so BYE. OH, TMR IVE GOT MY DENTAL APPT.
which means, HELLO MISS ORANGE-TEETH.
im thinkin of havin orange bands now. instead of green. HEE. i wanna look good.
yah yah, with orange teeth. -rolleyes-

♥

I know i pissed you off just now. Im sorry, dear.
I Love You.

xoxo

ana.

♥

For Once, watching bimbotic movies have benefited me drastically. like, seriously. FOR ONCE LAH EY. harhar! i qoute MeanGirls;

In Girlworld, all the fighting have to be sneaky.

Cool rite. and the only reason why i totally wanna conform to it is because, well, to put it very very nicely for the other party, i am just not in her league. -rolleyes- AND that has actually grooved her to wanting to ruin my life. well biatch, guess what, since you're playing with fire, i dont mind getting myself burnt too, so count me in. i am playing the same game. i am gonna be the most fuckiest sluttiest bitchiest and the most cruel friend you have ever had, and the best thing is, YOU WONT EVEN KNOW IT. but dont worry, i will spare you of the humiliation, of course because no one else will noe so it will eat you up inside. heh. to think i trusted you. to think we were SUPPOSED to be friends. again biatch, friends dont do this to friends. the feelings' mutual now. my perception of you has changed and so has the rest of your friends who are ALSO my friends because im just very sorry girl, u played with the wrong girl.

hmm, aside from that biatch who is a two-faced pig, everythin else is going very well. todae also commemorates the fifth month that me and aidil celebrates our friendship and our love. and yup, like ive mentioned to him, this is a time where we express our appreciation for each other. and so, being very financially tight this month, i wrote him a huge note on a FOOLSCAP paper telling him that i love him. and even drew a cartoon of him with really big ears. cause my baby has big ears. HAHA. hes gonna kill me when he sees this but i find it cute. REALLY. tak tipu, b! hopefully when he sees it, he'll like it. i mean, its always the effort that counts rite? right, baby? RIGHT? heee. ok ok, i am just consoling myself. haha. but hopefully he likes it lah.
*crossesfingers*

ok, i feel like washing my uniform lah ok. sooo im gonna scrub-scrub-scrub-scrub.
Tralalalalalalalalalaaaaaa.
i love you all.

♥

the weekends were great! iva had yet another great weekend because i spent it with aidil. HaHA, i noe, whats new, rite? HOOO. i cant help it you see. he's my current fetish. oh wells. spent the sunday at Ikea's again. To get shoerack, cd containers and kaka's colourful and very very cute bowls. and the sight of aidil buying so many things is just mind-blowing and i cant help but feel envious because AT LEAST he has got money to spend. whereas, i just hafta 'tumpang' happy gitu. ALL because my bank account is left fuckin dry. like, its dying of thirst laaa. and yah, just talking about cash, meimei has just received like a couple of hundred dollars to spend. because she excelled in school. and i am oh-so-jealous lah. again, at least she has money to spend. -rolleyes- I HATE THIS. why cant money drop from the sky. urghs.

i wanna buy clothes. my shopping plans have been pretty concurrent because everytime i haf cash, i wud postpone my clothing shoppings so, given my current financial status now, i am set to buy clothes the minute i received my paycheck. like fucks lah ok. urghs. THIS IS BAD. ok, i am not hungry YET but i wanna gorge down like hotdogs and nuggets. because for the first time, meimei is cooking sumthin over the stove and it actually smells nice and very very delicious. harhar!

and did i tell mention that aidil is attached to Tekong? i think i have rite?
well, i dont think ive mentioned that hes goin to EXTEND his stay there by another MONTH. so total, he wud be in tekong FOR TWO WHOLE MONTHS. like, HOHOHO. -rolleyes-
this one, i also dont like. ADERADER AJE LAH RSAF NIH. CHEETOOT.

ok, im goin to watch channel5 and pig out.
and OH, did i sae that tmr's my behavioural sci test? like, OMG.
i can go jump down already.
-rolleyes-
and how i saed that psychology is fckin interesting? well, it doesnt get interesting when ur supposed to study it for exams. believe me. sighs.

baby, i nak youuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
-smiles-
and he actually sang, Seroja for me, you noe.
How Sweet! heheeee.
i love you dear. many many.
<3.

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i love Aidilhaswin very much.
i love him because..

he has the second best ass in the world.
he makes me cry and then larf like a sexually deprived hyena.
he likes my fats. (That's very impt!)
he is a good setsetsetmememe player.
he addores food, like me!
he kuchi-kuchi me everytyme i cry.
i can wakeup, cry, call him and tell him abt lastnight's nightmare.
i can be myself. that includes being silly and bein very stupid.
both of us are obsessed about fries like how we are obssessed about Ikea also.

And Lastly, i love him because he brings out both THE BEST and sumtymes, not-the-very-best in Me.

Sighs.

I am a happy girl!
MwahMwah,love yah! ( doesflyingkiss)

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hello people! i am right in the heart of what i call an international IT hub because, im in my school's media resource centre. HAHA. and yup, to think that i think this school isnt really well-equiped with technologies, i was caught by surprise when i first stepped into the media resource centre yesterdae. and i am oh-so-proud because it can cater to my bloggin desires and yup, a very easy access to, HELLO WORLDWIDEWEB. -smiles-

ohkie but the system here is screwed because i did my presentation last night and mind you, it wasnt very easy to put the pictures together onto a slide because of my IT defiency, so im quite proud of myself that i put it all together, ALL BY MYSELF. thank you very much ey. and its quite an offence to me if you just come along and then tell me that my work suck very much because i did it all on my own. yes, even without the boyfriend. teeehheee.

and yup, talking about the boyfriend. -stares- he left me for Tekong lah ok. its like, its the second time in like four months that he's leavin me to rot all alone on my bed while he goes to sumwhere else baskin in the sun the sand and the sea. like, fuck. haha. if by now u haf an illusionised idea that he's out there sumwhere tucked away in sum ulu corners of the world, enjoying himself, YOU ARE SO WRONG. haha. He is in Tekong, for what you may ask.
UNTUK PERTAHANKAN NEGARA. heee. being physically there leaves me all weak because i noe hes not enjoying himself because he doesnt like lovebites given generously by the nyamuknyamuk sebok. but then again, it gives me alot of space to myself. i mean, i haven been doing things on my own for quite awhile and its nice to feel alil independence sometimes. but then again, i want him badly.

oh well. i find sumthin very amusing. like, seriously. okie, so i dunnoe how long has this rumour has been goin on but it got to my ears just 20mins ago. so here's the story; (sentence:ged ready to larf/smirk/whatever.) I was the main female lead in a bitchy situation and the story has it that i slapped one of my coursemate right on the face because i wasnt happy with her going out with my ex-boyfriend. and like, WHAT THE HELL. like, firstly, its my ex-boyfriend and i dont lick after i spit so please. and puhlease, i dont slap girls. i mean, i am bitchy to a certain extent but i dun really agree that slapping is a resort at all. so yah. i am not pissed but i find it interesting and i am quite flattered because who the hell has the time in the world to make up such cock and bull stories about me, for that matter. and for the matter that he/she did, i am quite flattered. AHAKS. so, thanks ey. i love the attention. Thanks Again.

ok, i shud really ged on with my presentation and shud crack my head on how the hell am i supposed to talk in front of a class of 40. i mean, i shudnt be havin stage fright but i am alil jittery cause i haven been public-speaking for a long long time except the time that i shouted across Cityhall interchange while exchanging sarcasms with The Ex. but that isnt really public speakin so i am quite nervous. but like, why shud i be nervous. i am good at this. -breathes-

ok, im good! take care people. have a nice day aite! mwahs.

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ok, its like 9.30 in the morning. and guess what i am doing?
harhar, u wudnt believe it, i tell you.
i am tryin to ged my ass into e-tutor for behavioural sci. but sumhow, prolly its jodoh, the stupid fuckin system wudnt work. like i haf ta click this particular icon and when its loading, it suddenly disappears. like, zoooosh, kinda thing! weird rite? so, thats why im bloggin now. i felt betrayed already cause i was really excited to actually write notes bt prenatal and infancy development but TOO BAD.

and yup, the only reason why im stayin home on a saturdae IS because, aidil is goin to be busy layanin his friend, iman. well well well. i really thought we were goin out today because he was goin on and on about " i cant wait to spend time with you.." kinda shit. but whatever. i shall not expect too much now. HAIYOH. but i forgave him lah ok. maebe im just screwed on my side.heeh. but yesterday was fun i guess. i mean, i haven seen him for a week and of course, i miss him like hells. and how i adore him because he is just as childish and as psycho as me. so yap, ive met my match. HURHUR. and i like playin setsetsetmememe with him. hehe. its prolly bad rep lah but i dont care anyway.coolness, i noe.

ANYWAY, school has been fuckin hectic. and yup, i went swimming! YEESSA. i noe. very farny oso. with all my fats terburai-burai and bersepah-sepah, i still love swimming lah ok. esp swimming in the sch's pool at like 6 in the evening cause its sooo cool tau. like, u can beremdam like a badak on the side of the pool and Mr. Lifeguard cant be bothered. like, WOOHOO. and i tried swimming the length of the pool and like, fucks lah ok, by the end of it, i was breathless. haha. but it was farn seeing erin in a swimmin costume, it was farn seein her shiver like mad and how me and shaz was so grateful that we are fat because we dont share the same plight as her. and school work is atrocious. presentations coming up, lecture notes due like next week, e-learning journals need alot and alot of attention. like, urghs.

actually Gavaos was supposed to meet up last night too. but for sum reason, the venue was changed. so, yup, no thank you. HEE. theres always limitations to what a girlfriend could do for another girlfriend. talking about girlfriends, i haven been seein alot of ama though. im thinkin of burnout at her place. like, i dun even wanna go anywhere else. i wanna lepak. i wanna paint nails and pluck eyebrows and then, PIG OUT. lepak sounds so fuckin minah-ish but i dun care. because i seriously wanna do sum slack lepaking. WOOHOO. so, im gonna call ama now.

takecare yall.