♥ ITS ALL ABOUT THE HAIR.

Sooo. Upon getting out of the building,after getting the braids done, i received my first +/-ve comment. Some mat who whizzed past me, called me a nigga. & i turned and stared at him hard. but then,after that, i had like many many people looking at me. & i felt so conscious within the first 30minutes that i really felt like putting a bag over my head. not that i dont like my braids, i do. i love them in fact but i guess, i just feel awkward with people staring at my head like it was something and yeah, i just feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo goddamned conscious. Tsk.

but i am still keeping it,i dont know til when but as for now, my bunch of hair is my 2nd bestfriend. my first best friend is my braces! (: it has been with me for quite awhile now. it has been with me when i had my firstttttttttttttttttttttt supersuper wet kiss, my first blahblah..oh, you get the drift. Maybe i shall name em! i dont know but i think that theres something wrong with me, cuz i name everything that belongs to me.

My dress, Keiko. My Blog, Orian. Oh, my hair(when i was havin the classic 80's bob chic cut), Jinky. I even named aidil's hair, which is Jinko,by the way. The PSP that i bought for Aidil is, Jinku. & about kazillion other names lah. sooo, what shall i name my braids & my braces?! i.have.no.blardy.idea.

You people help me ok?! HAHA. tag lah.
den maybe i should compile all the names and do a poll.
oh, its 130pm & i feel so sleepy. urgh./
oklah. im gg to sleep. i had a rough night. dont wanna talk about it.
i feel like im emotionally fighting with myself.
with whats politically right & what feels right for me.

goodnight,world.

♥ ITS ALL ABOUT THE HAIR.

♥

" When everything and everyone pushes and bring you down,

only to your knees,

you are in the perfect position

to Pray."

♥

I'm tired.

Physically & Emotionally.

How i wish.

There are manymany things that i wish for right now.

Some of them, are totally unreachable.

I dont even come close.

Pfft. Penat arh.

♥

Yeah. People have been telling me to move on,get to know guys, go into relationships so that

it would be less painful. Ok, one thing.

FOR WHAT. not as if i want to marry in the next 5 years kan?! Seriously, ive been thinking long and good. Even when i was with him, i told him straight that it would be about 9-10 years. So, yeh. I figured it out.

WHY THE HELL DO I NEED A BLARDY BOYFRIEND.

Seriously. Step aku nak kawin aje. Wahlao. So i dont need you to make me happy. Ok aper hidop aku sekarang. Mmg lah, sakit hati giler, but you know, after everything, you realise that its not that bad afterall. Heck man, its been 2 months! & well, i am surviving. im not good, but at least i am okay.

& i have a riding lesson later tonight but its raining!

Heavily pulakkk tuh.

♥

Miss me? Hahaha. confirm tidak kan. WAHLAO. tapi takpe, tetap akan ku blog.haha. anyways, ive been really busy with work, girlfriends & whatnots lah. currently, the only thing that i am looking forward to is, my bike practical lessons & my MAJORRR date on the 17th. icantfreakkingwaitsials.

i dont know but Lyn has to seriously find a job. like girl, COME ON! haha. well, other than that, my betterhalf ex is well, better without me. i can see that hes moving on. good for him. asalkan kau happy gembire-bire selalu sudahkan. asalkan aku tak nampak aper yang aku tak nak tengok, insyallah, world war 3 has yet to come. just dont make me lose my head. hee.

ok. i wanna go sleep. its past 1 and ive got a morning to do tml. ONE MORE WEEEKKKK BABEHHHHH! (: n then, for my long awaited holiday. but i seriously have no ideawhere to go. i am officially broke after certain circumstances. but i am just glad, its over and donewith. but i am still itchin for a holiday outside of singapore. Redang, Bintan sounds perfectly fine at this point of time.

Hard Rock, MOS, Attica has been good to me. i miss my lancinglancingsampaikakicramp days. Really. ok lah. bye.

have a good week ahead! cuz i know ill have a good week.

busy aje lah kan.sooooo, bye!

♥

Its always a blessing to have all your close friends stay near you.

Lyn, Azri, Zan & Ayeen.

So, small gatherings like these will always come true! YAASSSSIIINNNN RAWK. Today was like the bengwan reunion or sumthin. It was only supposed to be only me & Lyn but then, memandangkan kiter seme semangat BengWan giler babi, everybody met up for supper! I swear i am goin to gain weight like nobody's business. Really. Carl's Jr was superb followed by,manymany sticks of my viceroy over at Yassin & then, sips of teh tarik & bites of pratas. Hoho.

This is life. Haha. Okeh, tml ader morning shift. followed by school shit. so i really gotta sleep.surviving on 4 hours of sleep per day is madness. & yah, my new toy dropped today. It suffered minor scratches on the back. Seeee? Im always like that with electronics tau. They never seem to just stick to my palms. Tskk. Poooorrr baby!

I cant wait for the 17th because ive got a date with Theodora at The Afro Shop. ICANTWAITTOGETMYBRAIDS!hohohoh.

to him;;

get away from me. i dont even want you near. u hurt me alil tad too much. im done with you.

you are not worth me, my time & everything that i have laid on for.

GOOD NITE, WORLD.