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My FB status reads:

"shaker fries,chicken sandwich,coke & a day off tomorrow."

I want my life to stay like this just for a little while. Away from work and assignments, and the normal routinal activities that I do,day in day out. I want to pick up my snorkelling goggles, put on my favourite bikini,and just swim swim and swim into the open sea. I probably wont get to see anything more than a couple of jellyfishes as I go deeper and deeper but tranquility is something that I always get when I do open sea swimming. I feel at peace,with myself,as I listen to my heartbeat,against the current.

I dont want to fall asleep just yet,because Im off today(technically) and I dont want to waste my hours. But I want to fall asleep because I am sleepy,and I had such a fulfilling and challenging afternoon shift just now.

Everybody loved my new hair. Oh, its a very soft blonde brown now,and I just thinned and layered my entire crown.I personally loved it,and to me, it is something that I should have done a very long time ago,because after I sat in the salon for more than 3 hours to fix my hair, I felt so damn good. Undeniably, I needed a hair cut and colour fix so bad. I had split ends all over,my hair was dry and damaged, it was already an obvious two-tone,and yah I was starting to have dandruff. So the need to chop off unnecessary hair became very necessary indeed. Will post up photos soon enough I hope,if I dont get any lazier than this.

Anyway, its the Friday already,and I have so many plans for this coming weekend and the next! AND oh yes, I finally received Liz's wedding invite. Oohhhh,another one down, cant wait to meet up with everybody this Sunday! Tonight's Mom & Dad's wedding anniversary dinner, I have no idea where we are all going,but it should be good! After dinner, I would probably meet up with Fara for Clarke Quay. My next weekend is pretty tight! Bb's show on the 8th,as well as I have to find time to rush over to Lichi Ave for bbq,for Thaqif's bday and I dont want to miss it for the world,and of course, BBQ= great backyard bbq food by Bak & Mama is always the bestttt! And the next day is Ismah's sister's wedding! Sighs, and then after the National Day, I am on leave!!!

Im so happy lor I tell you. Ok okay I want to sleeeppp now. Want to bathe, smoke and crash. I intend to wake up very,very,very late tomorrow. Hee. Kisskiss. Have a good Friday,yall!

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Just little snaps of Mika from the time when she was only a few days old,to 2 months and now, at 1 year 7 months. She has grown to be very cheeky,and it is that phase where I just want her to stop growing so fast! I was snapping all the way,when we went out yesterday. Just a simple day,nothing too fancy,just late lunch at Popeye's and walked around Clarke Quay,before going back to Nana's place for dinner! Even though we had a very hearty meal, I still couldnt resist a good plate of Rice & Ayam Masak Lemak Cili Padi. Sedappp,and Mika was also trying to be a big girl,eating on her own,and she obediently sat in front of me,devouring every grain of rice. Such a sweetie,of course I couldnt bear to leave,but I had to,cause it was really getting late and I was really beginning to get very lazy.

Had class, earlier this morning, was late again. I think it is such a bad idea to have morning classes, I have difficulties in waking up! I used to be able to get up right on time,but lately, maybe its just my body switching back to being its normal self. But lesson went very well, we went down to 7-11 for my usual cheesy hotdog during break! Lesson was not that bad, Qualitative Research isnt as dry as I thought it would be, alot of common sense and general knowledge. But yet, I only scored a 75% for this week's assignment! Buckkkkk up,Ana! Im still hanging on,been scoring at least 85% for all my assignments,and only this one. I have to do better next week,to bring up my total percentage. I want to bag that Distinction of course!

And we finally received our very thick Fundamentals of Anatomy & Physiology textbook,which means to say that we have to start mugging,like right now! Oh bummer. I like Physiology Biology and all that sort of stuffs because I think I grasp better and do alot better in subjects like these so lets just pray that I get over my Research module asap!!! Cant wait!

Had Fried Fish Beehoon Soup with milk for lunch,was yummy,and had to rush back up to ward. Was nursing my male patients today,wasnt that bad, as I say, I like nursing males better and Im sure alot of my nursing friends can agree with this fact. Female patients tend to be like us,you know so macam maner aku whiny,dorang pun whiny. Macam maner aku moodswing,dorang pun moodswing. Macam maner aku ngade ngade,dorang pun ngade ngade.Macam maner aku biadab, DORANG PUN LAGI BIADAB. My apeks and uncles are usually more understanding,more gentle,less fierce,more patient and of course more cute!!! ((: Harharhar.

Hmmmmmm oh yah I missssss my girls so much man! Biler nak bertemu,dok bawah blok makanmakan ketaweketawe macam pompan giler lagik ni!! Ishk. We are all so busy with our own lives,that sadly, our schedules clash like fuck cymbals. Syasya is busy with school & tuition. Ira pun busy with school & tuition. Aisya busy dengan keje cause member just quit school to pursue her long time dream of becoming a nurse! Harharhhrharharh. Am definitely very proud of her,cause having the calling is something rather sacred la. Even I didnt have the calling to do Nursing. I took it up cause I thought it might be interesting,and ended up falling in love with it,so thats a totally different story completely. I know Aisya has always been wanting to be a nurse since Day 1,so just for that, she deserves a chance. Nursing is tough,but one thing for sure, it will completely change you.

Alah bottomline,aku rindu tersgt sgt dgn ni tige ekor!!!! The other time I wanted to treat all of them for seafood,den Ira pulak tested positive. Talk about perfect timing. Hmmmm,soon eh girls. Soon. I can only live this long without you guys lor. Love you much much.

& meimei just came into my room and told me that we are meeting at my Grandmother's place on the National Day,which is fine with me because I WILL BE ON LEAVE FROM THE 7TH TO THE 16TH OF AUGUST!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Happy nak mampos! Yay yay, I dont have to work!!! Hahahha. BUTTTTT,this will be the first time in 2 years that I will not be flying anywhere for my annual leave. It is such a motherfucking waste I tell you. But well,it is alright. Cukop la all year round keep travelling here and there. Argh, dont remind me already la okkkkk. Im sure Ill be very occupied. Yeaaa right. With what I also dont know. Maybe hardcore mugging. Yikes. Okay la I dont mind muggin at all,cause I feel enpowered.

Oh I just realised that Ive sidetracked quite a bit! Talking about my grandmother, I miss her leh. Cute tau nenek aku nih. Hahahha. N im lookin forward to spending the evening with my family and the rest of my family. Satu satu busy aje! Ok la, am going to go and sleep,cause Ive already showered,and Its already past 12. Im due for work in less than 7 hours,DOUBLE YIKESSSSSSS.

love you mommyyy lovee you daddyyyy love you meimeiiii love you bbbbbb love you all my girlsssssssssssssssss. mwahmwah kiss kissssss! Nighty nights.

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Oh hello again. I just got back from meeting Dee downstairs.I was having some problems with i banking, called the bank up,and apparently, my bank account shows that I had ZERO dollars in my bank,right after I transferred money to Mummy & Iqah,and then Iqah said that nothing was reflected at all,so I was damn kanchiong, called the bank hotline, it made me wait for like 15 minutes before the operator picked up,and luckily she was nice.

She was calm and collected as I was practically screaming through the phone! " How to calm down? My pay only yday, now all gone! Whos going to give me money!!!" Den she said, " Miss calm down, I will help you. u just hold on for one minute ok?" WOAH still ask me to wait leh,if I wait it would be 16 minutes already lor,but I did wait la cause damn kanchiong already,scared laaaaaa,life savings all gone! So ya dee dapp,finally she told me to check through I banking if its such a hassle to get to the nearest atm,and I thought ya lah,sape nak gi layan nak gi turun bawah jalan gi atm sorang sorang kan so I got into my I.banking and the loading was soooo slowww dont know why so I just got out of the house and got my way to the atm. LUCKY it was all in placeeeee,syukorrrrrrr. So ya lahhh. You all got ever come across this problem or not? Or am I the only one who is damn unluckyyyy? But whatever la. yang penting duit aku masih ader,and I am not broke. YET.

pfft. money issues really make me pening kepale. NOW I have to think of a way to raise at least another 7k before January. Anybody has any tips? I thought about going into private nursing,cause the pay is damn high,but the risk also damn high la! ); HOW ARH HOW?

Tsk. I will be meeting Nana n Mika tomorrow,so am looking forward. Hmmm, I think I will wash up and sleep la ok. Si bb ni masih pat luar tgh men game,dah kul bape tak tau nak balik. Kalau orang tak bising tak bolehhh tauuuuu. Oi cik abang oiiii,dah pukul berape ni tak tau nak balikkkkkkkk. Besokk kejeeeee oi. Kalau tak keje,sape nak gi kasi duit pat anak bini u nihhhh!! Pfft. okay dah bye.

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MY FAVOURITEEEE

PEPPERONI & CHEESE!!!!!!!

((:

Okay tomorrow then I start diet.

Tomorrow.

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Hello everybody! It's Sunday again, how boring right?!!!! Yeah I know exactly how you guys feel man. Back to school tomorrow,back to work tomorrow. For those who has no form of personal transportation(this doesnt include girls who are lucky enough to have their boyfriends send them to and fro work/sch), I know how you people feel. Early morning rushes and squeezes on the train, and in the bus, something that I do not like at all either.

Hmmm, so yesterday,bb & I got to date for the entire day and I came back,a happier and fatter girl. Hahaha. Hmm,where did we go eh? Hmmm. Oh we walked around town,and yah it was our first time to ION Orchard,cause we are all heartlanders like that,and I personally havent stepped in town for like the longest time! Hahha,so abit jakon la right the both of us. We spent like a few minutes standing in front of the very grand entrance of ION,and just staring at the building and thinking about where to go from there.

So as we were walking along ngee ann city,finding a place for dinner, I suddenly decided to point towards Lucky Plaza for some good Indonesian food. And we did have good,if not,greatttt indonesian food! Initial plan was Ayam Penyet Ria,but well, there were alot,alot of people outside so we went against it,and pounced upon Indo Food Express which was located in the Asian Food Mall,it is just beside the Macdonaldsssss. And the food is goodddd leh!!!Abit pricey but nice la. Like 6.30 for a plate of Sambal Ayam Rice and like 6 bucks for baby's soto ayam with rice, but it tasted authenticcccc,and the sambal belacan wassssssssssssssssss good! ((: Heh.

Sedapppp,sampai I practicall drank up bb's soto soupppp. Yumyum,so if you guys havent tried eating there, maybe u shud start patronising the stall,its really not that bad. After the very heavy dinner, we took a long,long,long walk along Orchard Road. Walked past Far East Shopping Centre, Forum, Orchard Parade Hotel, Tanglin Mall and St Regis Hotel.

Bb wanted to impress me so he brought me up,and it was soooooooooooooo classy! ((: I loveeee the bathroom especially. I mean you guys know howwww much I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee pretty bathrooms,and among all the hotels that Ive been to,I think this is the best there is. The Hilton pun kalah, Swissotel Stamford pun kalah,Park Royal lagi kalah habishabisaannnnnn!!!!! The hotel's lobby looks really enchanted with the hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee gold shiny chandelier, to the huge black girl statue outside the hotel,and she does really look like me. Fat and cute. Harharharhar. But ya lah, I opened the bathroom door,and gasped and closed it again cause it is toooo pretty. I wish I took photos,but terlalu amazed sgt la! ((:

After gasping and hoo-ing and haa-ing, we decided that we didnt want to waste the night,so we walked some more! Some more into the private estates, bb showed me around,and it was reallyyyyyy niceee to just walk and walk and walk and look at all the pretty houses!!!! Oh ya I forgot to mention, St Regis has another tower right beside the hotel,St Regis Residences!! I WANT TO LIVEEE THEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Hahahaha,I think it should be damnnnnnnn expensive like probably a few million dollars that kind,cause it looks VERY exclusive and I loveeeeee itttttt. God. Sighssss. But ya lah. We ended the walk,back at Ming Arcade. I loveeeee the walkkkkk so much, walking hand in hand, talking and laughing at bb,cause he has become my clownn who makes me laugh and laugh and laugh and sometimes I also laugh at myself la but that aside, after the whole night we were both sticky and sweaty. So tak jambu lor,and then we so crashedddddddddddd.

Then we woke up early this morning, TO GO TO THE NEW PASAR GEYLANG!!! Woahhhhhh hebat siakkk ni Geylang!!! Two storeys already lehhhhhh. I loveeee loveee it. We bought alot of food,but the only thing is, WHY I CANNOT FIND ANY SHOP THAT SELLS KOPOK LEKORRRRR ONE?!!! Did we miss out any shopssssss?!! Can anybody tell me??? We were both walking to and fro the stallsss,carik carik pakcik yang jual kopok lekor sedap nak mampos, tapi tak jumpe pun!! EHHHH but the cempedak goreng damnnnnn nice!!

Tskkkkk,see la,how to lose weight like this!!! Aidil told me like a week ago,that I really have gained alot alot of weight like 50(no kidding eh this fact,scaryyy shitttt) over kilos over this 4 years n he was kinda worried that I might drop dead anytime soon cause my arteries might clog up or something so he was suggesting that I should start exercising again,but aiyahhhhh lazyyy lehh!! Zaman aku semangat dgn fitness first, I did lose like 8 kilos within 2 weeks, and that was I literally dedicated my life to it la, like go gym twice per day that kind,before n after work,off days at gym,before practicals at gym,after practicals at gym that kind,but now how?!!!!!

Meyaa already label me superwoman just because Im strugglin to juggle both work n school. and thats just IT lor,nothing else leh. I think other people handle more stuffs than me lor,and I dont know how the fuck they do it la right. Tskkkk. Mr Seow just emailed me,saying that our mega thick Anatomy & Physiology book is here,which means,we have to start MUGGING!!! It is thicker than Tabbners lorrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!! How to study like that. Sighs.

Ok ok meimei just brought back pizzas i think. I want to check them out. TENGOK ANA, MAKANNNN LAGIII. ok la tak makan,TENGOK AJE OK!! heheeeeeeeeee.

have a good week everyone. love u guyss,whoever u are la! mwahs.

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Nuryn Mika B.

How can anybody NOT fall in love with her,

with those eyes?

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" You are like my lover,and my best friend,

all wrapped in one,with a ribbon on it."

-Amy W.

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Is it me,or is it normal not to have Ellen Degeneres screaming through your tv screens at 5pm now? Did they stop airing Ellen? I was all ready with my seasoned Cajun-spiced wedges and nuggets,waiting and sitting in front of the telly,and when it striked 5, Rachel Ray came on. WHERE IS ELLEN DEGENERES!!!!! I mean I havent been watching televisi on for the longest time,so has it been a while since they stopped airing Ellen?

Ohhhh it is sooooo sad. Its bad enough that we are approx. 2 weeks behind the actual showtime,and now? we dont even get to see it? Awwww i wantt Ellen!!! Sedihhh siak,baru kul 5 tadi nak jogetjoget nyanyi nyanyi. I had such lousy round of night,and the only patient I could tolerate was 1 out of my 11 other patients,all because he was such a cute apek,with a huge beer belly,and he was genuinely nice and appreciative. The others, hmmm,takpe laaa eh. Kirim salam sua. God. But yah I was lucky enough to have Halwa n Lily with me in this round of night,at least,to keep me alittle sane and rational.

But tell me, how do you keep sane n rational when you get kicked in your ass(literally) by a teenage patient and when you try to keep it cool,try to curb my anger, she decides to irritate the fuck out of you and say the rudest thing, " you bitch, your mother is a bitch,BITCH!" followed by the damned middle finger. Woahhhh tergugat keimanan aku nihhhhh. Fuck nearly came out of my mouth,she threatened to complain to the management that I was rude, and the only thing I did was glare at her after she called my mother a bitch.

So agakagak tu,sape patot complain eh? I was verbally and physically abused by a patient,and you know the most sick thing is that, if I do bring it up to the management, the first thing thats going to come out is, "What did u do until she did that?" You know when I told my senior SN who was supposedly supposed to be 'looking after' us, she just told me, "Nevermind la, as long as she doesnt run out of th ward." HELLO?!!! This is nursing,people. It is so sick, Im literally disgusted. They do NOTHING to stand up for us,and EXPECT us to be patient and quiet. Kalau nak maki aku, tak pasal, ni maki mak bapak aku,maki family aku. Fucking motherfucker. Enough is really enough. And the best thing is, I didnt even do ANYTHING at all to deserve this. Seriously sick. Nak lari dari hospital, nak refuse treatment, go ahead man. I used to sympathesize with her because of her diagnosis and stuffs like that, and that shes like really young,but now, its too much. Phew, now you know why I want to run out of the ward as soon as Im done.

People think nursing is easy preasy,but it really isnt. It has made me stronger than before,and it really makes you realise that there are certain things in life that just isnt worth your time and effort. Seriously. Like it isnt worth your time to be angry over something like that,and you just have got to get over it.

And I will,because Im finally meeting bb tonight! Phew finally. Im so looking forward to a great weekend,and bb is taking me somewhere tomorrow!I have no idea where.He said, "as long as you are happy!" Sweet eh kauuuuuuuu aidilhaswin. Kalau dah sweet,sweet habis. Kalau tak,macam hantu momok. Okay I want to shower and get some stuffs done. Love love.

Have a great and fantastic Friday night,yall! ((:

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Of late,I realised that I have been taking random photos of anything at all,anything that seemed interesting and cute to me. Well,I thought the morning humping of the cats were totally adorable and really kinky. I just had to take the date marquee board in my ward on the 15th cause 15th is such a sacred number now.And the poster and the money plant photo was taken in my staff toilet a couple of days ago,and yesss, my staff toilet is THAT chic. And then oh,the Cranberry n Promeganate Juice, which I totally adore because of its influx of Vitamin C in that,and I finished up the entire 1 litre within one night! ((:

And then u can see my very tired face without any make up on,cause seriously aku dah start malas eh nak pakai lawa lawa gi keje. Malasssss tersgt sgt. and oh yah,a few photos of bb on his 25th. I regretted not bringing Nayla,cause I ended up taking crap photos of the family,with Kayla, and well, i cannot blame her,can I? She has been such a great phone! Hahahhaha.

Okayy I had class in the morning, and I am due for my last night TONIGHTTT. I cant fucking wait to get it over and done with. By far,the MOST irritating round of night ever.I ended up changing all terumo tubings to normal free flow tubings! The beepings from machines makes me want to punch someone. It seriously gets to you like a sick motherfucker. And yes, I cant wait for the weekend to spend time with bb!!!

Do you know that we only met for like less than 30 minutes yday?!!! SADDDD right. But well, I guess as the relationship progresses, I have to realise that I cannot do everything my way,due to alot of limitations and as much as we want to spend the entire day together,we were both bounded with work,WHICH WAS SAD, but its alright I guess,cause the day turned out pretty well actually. And oh, for the record, he didnt get me anything AGAIN this year.

He is just very lucky that his birthday is a day before the anniversary,so Im like compelled to buy him something cause kan birthday..kesian pulak kan kalau tak kasi present. So this year, it wasnt any gadgets,it wasnt anything expensive for that matter,because I am broke. I bought him a pair of crocs cause his previous pair is beyond repair, and a Nike trainer jacket,which he has always been wanting to have. So yahhhhhh, I know hes damn happy about it. Happy sudah la kan! ((:

Takpe aidilhaswin nanti birthday I which is in TWO months,EHEM, i tuntot! Ok ok enough its 7.30pm,I need to get to work. What a dragggggggggggggggggg. And ohhhh, FARA JUST LANDED FROM VANCOUVER TODAY!! Woah member confident,call abeh bual melayu,beh tak passsssssss. Hahahha, okay suke hati kau. Probably meeting her next week,cause shes flying to KL on saturday for a weeeekkk,so yah! MANER VICTORIA SECRETSSSS AKU!!!! Hahahhaha. Ohhh i miss Yana too. God. Ok ok am so done with this, BYEEE!

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Happy 4th Anniversary, My Dear!

May forever be ours.

I love you.

Xoxo.

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Happy 25th Birthday,

to my best friend in the whole wide world,

Aidilhaswin Baybee Intan Payong!

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Nothing comes close to waiting for somebody to come back so we can all spring a surprise on him,cause Baby is turning 25 in 5 hours! Goddamnit. It makes me want to tear actually,cause hahahha when bb came up to me in that army uniform looking damn right hot and hunky,at burger king, he was only 20! (I was barely legal of course,going to be but havent) Hurhurr. Dahhhh besarrrrr orang tuer nih. Sighhhhs. How time flies,and he is a quarter of a century,like it or not! ((:

So yeahhh I rushed the entire morning and afternoon just to get his little party in order,and his niece Kaka and I dah macam cacing kepanasan dok pat dalam bilik,tengah tahan excitement! Oh gosh. *bites nailssssss*

Anyway while we await the "Old Man" to come home, how are you guys? Oh it has been so many days since I last blogged. Seriously the fever drained all of me,but being the loveliest girlfriends anybody could ever have, Iqah,Aisya,Ikha & Ayn dragged me out of the house for some fresh air! Awww,sweet love. I did get better after two nights of staying out til noon,and I was back to work only on Friday! Work was pretty alright, It was nice that on most days I had my usual kakis with me,so it wouldnt be thattt boringgggg.

I am on night tonight,and I dont know who Im working with. It has been a long time since I last did a round of nighttttttt,so Im kinda excited! Hmm term break is done and over with,and classes start TOMORROW MORNINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! Arghhhh I think Im going to be such a zombie, cause class is at 8.30am!!! Thats like right after my 10 hour shift,but I am looking forward to meeting all of my classmates again!! I miss Lilyyy Nad and Phiiii!!! OHHHHHH and Mr Seowww too. And I havent submitted my assignment yet!! I dont think neither of us did the assignment lor! Nevermind still have 4 dayssss left to do.

Hmmmmmmmmm manerrrr ni tuerrr nih!!!! Dah kul tujuhh setengah,aku start keje kul 9,sampai skrg belom balik lagi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh goddddddd. Cepattt la balikkkkkkkk cik abangggg oi.

okay gonna stand at the window sill to choo-wee(sp? peek) whether hes coming or nottt. Kaka n I plan to screammmmm SURPRISE!!!! at his doorrrrrrr. Hahahahha. okayy till laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrzZzz.

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"I love you ok. dont cry."

arghhhhhhhhhhh,

tough love. tough tough love.

As he rolls his chair next up to mine,

look at me with those eyes,

and kisses me on my temples,

I knew Im complete.

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Girls, on a roll. Been so long since I last crashed at a girlfriend's place. Was a warm night but with all the ganstasisterlove-loving a girl could possibly have, Ive had the best night in yet. Awww,sweet love,sweet sweet love.

Bitches they come they go, girlfriends stick with you like glue. And after all these years, I am so glad I have them with me. We have come a long way,yet to stick so strong,and still have the same old fun vibe we have when we were 12 going on 13,thank you the Almighty Lord.

Now Im off to bed,cause Im due to see my moonlightlight in the evening for dinner at his place.
Yawns,ngantokk ah. Good night people. It must be my anti-pyretics. Im recovering well people, will be back to work tomorrow. Wish me luck.

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Hello everybody. I am currently recovering quite well,with the antibiotics. I dont know what bug has caught me yet again,but I know I am able to counter it back soon. Thanks for all of the get well soon messages,girls! (: At this rate that you guys are supporting me in everything that has been going on with me, insyallah,cumer Tuhan sahaje la boleh balas budi baik anda anda semuer eh eh eh. Hehe.

I met Aisyabb after seeing the Dr at noon,to get some fresh air,and you know,just to get out for a change. I havent been going out for the longest time,and Im beginning to think that work has already taken a toll over me,and my health. My ultimate aim is to fly over to Adelaide,fit as a cow,and if I continue working irregular hours,and not getting enough rest, I dont think ill be very well by the time Im due to fly.

Work has been fine,but I find it a strain to keep up with the hours, and my shift is always irregular. Afternoon shifts end at 10pm, and it is almost 11 by the time I reach home. Of course, bathing and washing up will probably take about an hour or so,and if Im lucky, Im asleep by 1. If Im too tired, I usually cant sleep straight away and I am awake on my bed til like 2-3am and then I have to get up at 5.30am. I start at 7am,which is goddamned early i know. So u guys who are NOT nurses, please be eternally grateful to your lucky stars. Whatever your calling may be, pls thank God that it aint Nursing. Hahaha. I talk as if Nursing is bad eh,WHICH IS NOT EH BTW.

If I can list down all the good times I had in Nursing, my entry would be as long as the Nile River. BWAHHAHAHHA, okay part tu bedek. Hahha, ok what Im tryin to say is, Please read my entries with a pinch of salt eh. Another man's poison is another man's treasure. So yahhhh.

So going out was great. AKU RINDUUUU KAU AISYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! ohhh i love you so much!! hahhaha~We finally went out of her house at 7pm,trained down to Cityhall,over to MSQ to get Subways'( OH SHITTTTT!) I suddenly remembered I bought a footlong sandwich but only managed to stuff a 6 Inch into my mouth,and the other 6inch is in my bag!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OHHHH MAYNNNN. Habissss my bag bauuu tuna later!!! EEWWW. Tskk. Malas la want to take out actually. Heee. later k later.

Anw we just finished talking,and it has been a long long long long long long long long time since we had such a long long long long and fun conversation together,we were laughing giggling and if it wasnt 12 in the night,i would have shouted and jumped around in glee but yah too badddddddddddddddddd.

Im dying to tell you the juicy details,but I already swore to secrecy that I wont tell a soul. THAT IS SOOOO SADDD KAN. Good news must be shared right?????? Urghhhh. But cannot tellll lehhh how arh!!!! Oh no la, the good news is not about us getting back together again! HAHHAHAHHA. which is really really not,cause we are really still separated and our FB status remains as 'Its Complicated'. hahaha but aiyah. I just got to know something that I dont know, and it was suchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh a cool thing to know. Hahhahahah. Ok i should stop talking about it since I cannot tell a soul. But if one day he says I can break my swear, I will tell u guys ok! Sweearrrrr. heeee.

Ok its late. Time to shower,take my meds and sleep. Current temp: 37.8degs. Tskkk. I should mandi air sejokkk eh! okk okk enough. good bye. i love you moonlightlight. u know who you are. dont step dont know. bye everyone. love mummy daddy meimei moonlightlight my friends and all of u guysssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. God bless.

♥ faith,staying strong

When I got to work, I knew I wasnt feeling very well. My body was aching all over,and I was having chills and rigor. For a person who is always feeling warm and hot, I can usuallywithstand the freezingggg cold. But today was different. I shivered throughout shift,it wasnt a very comfortable state to be in,surprisingly. I checked my temp at 1,its was 37.4degs. Decided to pop some paracet to bring down my temperature. It got to 37.8 at 6pm,and then just before I got off from work, i rechecked my temperature and it was 38.2degs. Seriously, what else?! Im sick of being sick. Im sick of working. & Im sick of every single thing that is going on right now.

BUT something made my day today. Remember the senior nurse that I was bitching about in my previous posts? The very senior one,who was being very mean and was picking on me since like forever? Well, today,she bought me a bottle of Lemon Lime 100 Plus,held my arm and apologised sincerely. She made me smirk secretly,luckily I was with my surgical mask,if not, i would have laughed in her face. Which I didnt of course because I am such a nice and forgiving person. But HAHA. The first word that came to my mind was, "MIRACLE!"

" Lina, Im sorry for all the things I did and said to you. Dont take it to heart. Nah i bought you this, hope you can forgive me ok?" She actually said all of that,while holding my arm,while I was busy making Milo in the pantry alone. SNEAKYYY EH DIER! hahahah. I think she was pacing up and down the toilet,just thinking about what to say to me. Hahahhaa~

It does makes me feel a little better actually, and I cannot believe that the person I hate the most, is the person who made my day. She actually made me feel a little less sick,cause I feel like hugging everybody after that. Sighs.

Seee what has God in store for me? It seems like my day isnt that bad afterall. Cheer up people, it isnt as bad as what you think it is. Im glad Im holding it up,not doing very well,but at least surviving.

♥ oh happy days!

Hahahhahaha. Photos from the previous time we lepaked at my place. Indeed, damn very lepak. Pakai helmet pat dalam rumah, 3 of us, 2 very big one very small, sharing one super single size mattress. Tskkk. Burok burok.

Off to work,now!

♥

7 months til we fly off! Are u guys excited already? Somehow,it cheers me up instantly when I think about it. Of course, there is a surge of sadness especially at a time like this,when I am very emotionally unstable.

In other parts of the world, people are dying and crying because they have got nothing to eat,no place to live in,no water to drink,no proper sanitation,no proper roof over their heads. Here I am, bawling my eyes out over my break up. It hurts, but i have to pick myself up.

Aidil asked to this today, " what are u doing tonight? no plans?" It made me smile,because he has never asked me that throughout our relationship. It made me realise how much I have taken him for granted. It is not easy for me,what makes it more easier for him? I know he is doing this for my own good, to make me realise that we have lost certain things in our relationship because of me. Because if he doesnt do this, what makes you think that I'll realise it now?

I'll probably not feel any pinch at all,and just continue to take him for granted. Absence does makes the heart grow fonder,and time is always the essence. I need to have faith and be strong. Insyallah.

And aidilhaswinnn, why you call me Amalina now!!! Mentangmentang dah breakkk,tak payah laaa nak panggil amalina!!! Formalllll sangat tu! Cik Ana sudahhh laaaaaaaa. Hahahhaha ader ader aje laaa ni aidilhaswin ni. " Amalina, im home. Amalina,blahblahblahaaa..." OI IM SO NOT USED TO U CALLING ME AMALINA. GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. Hahhaha.

& to my flinders people, START PACKING!! we are leaving in 7 months! God. I want to write a list of things to bring over. So need to do that. okay, am going to crash now. sleepy and tired. yawnsss.

and oh before i forget, thank you to everybody for ur kind,kind words. appreciate it tremendously. I will always stay strong because you guys have always been encouraging me in anything that happens to me. I am soooooo touched,and may God bless all of you ok. thank you to my girlfriends for ur endless texts,checking up on me and all that. thank you again.

Thank you mummy for what you have said to me, It made me cry but yeah I will let Nature takes its course. I think it is such a strong and driven statement. You know, it takes strength to let go. Something I dont have,but hopefully by going through with this pain, ill be a much stronger person,cause when u ask God for strength, He doesnt make you strong. He gives you opportunities to BE strong. i will always remember that. Oh God I love you. thank you for looking out for me. good night everybody.

♥

What broke my heart was when he said,
"Im so done with you,Ana.No more,Ana. No more!"
With so much hatred,in his voice. I felt worst than shit.

I just couldnt take it anymore. I stopped, kept quiet,kept still,with the tears running down my cheeks,I just hang up. It broke me so much,it hit me too hard.

Im so helpless right now. Crying seems like the only way I know how. and even that doesnt take the pain away. I miss you so so much. I want to run to you,hug you and cry on your shoulders like how I always do when I had a bad day.

*Hellooooo aidil!!!Hiiiii my loaffffffffffffffffffffffffff!*
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Arghhhh all the memories can kill me. Sighsss...oh goodness gracious. its getting too sad again.

♥ my rainman.

I had a rough night last night. It didnt occur to me,that it would be our last. But very very sadly, it was. Ive got alot to say but maybe Im just not ready to let it go out in the open,and somehow words in my mind doesnt make any sense at all. Undeniably, it takes two hands to clap. I am aware of how much you have cared and loved me,and hopefully, after all this is done,on top of every single mistake I've made,i hope u are still able to smile when you think of me.

Even though it is useless to say it now,from the bottom of my heart, I really am sincerely and genuinely sorry for all the things I put you through. I feel so pathetic,cause these words will never amend the fact that it will never be the same for us anymore.

Aidilhaswin,so tell me how can my tears stop and how can I be alright when I have just lost a best friend,and a huge part of me?

I may regret so much in my life,but one thing for sure, I have never regretted,and will never regret my life with you. My eyes are swollen from all these crying,but I know, i know, when Im done being a girl, I will smile each and every time I think of you. You are special. So special.

Good night people.

♥ Adora & Kayla.

MENYAMPAHH KAN!!!

Bwahahhaha.

Good night world.

I want to playplay with Kayla.

She's soooo adorable.

Im thinking of bedazzling it.

Next month,not now man.

Gotta curb my moneyyyy already!

♥ lockdown

Been spending alot of time with my chubcake right here,and she was right,if it wasnt for school, i think I would just be a go-schooler,go-worker,go-homer,just like that. I think school saved my life,cause I am aware of how i am soooo socially deprived. It isnt funny anymore,i tell you. Its Thursday today, got asked to club tonight, but yessssss, I am so lazy super lazy right now. I so want to crash on my comfy bed,which has always been comfy,and I want to play with my new playtoy! Hurhurhurs.

Bought a new playtoy today, not the most newest in the market,but I like it cause its big,cute and black. I can bid goodbye to my N6500,and say a huge ass hello to my E63! Hahaha. It is still charging on my desk right now,and Im supposed to charge it for at least 8 hours! Owhhh man.

Oh guess what? Ive JUST made up my mind not to club tonight,JUST. I just texted Iqah,

"Iqahhh aku ngantokkkkkk. Dok umah msn,nak????"

ANA DAHHHH BORING!!!!!! A party animal no more,man.Oh god it is almost pathetic!But I do like the idea of staying in tonight,and entertaining myself in my room,and just enjoying the night alone. Im really tired from morning class,as early as 8.30am,and we went to couple of places after class. We went to Raffles City for Roxy, MSQ for more Roxy,and found out that both shops were closed for stock taking! What a bummer, right? Had lunch,and cabbed down M (againnnnnnn,i know) to get Kayla,which ohhhhh, is the name of my E63. Hahaha.

So now, Ive got a whole load of names to remember.Theres Rayola,my S5800. Then, came Nayla, my D80,and thenn Daddy bought me Karla,my Acer Aspire,and todayyyy, its Kayla,my E63. Woots. Dah boleh jadi happy family nih! ((:

Anywayyyyyyyy bb will definitely be happy to know that I am staying in instead of clubbing the night away. No no, dont get me wrong. He isnt selfish so as to restrict me from doing what I want,but he is what I call a No-Three-r. He doesnt smoke,drink nor club. He would rather I club alone,then step in the club with me and my girls. Its weird how different both of us are,in terms of things that we like to do,and sometimes both bb & I do debate about stuffs like that,sometimes it brings us down to a very heated argument,so I always assure him,that I would be fine,and I do know how to take care of myself. I remember, when we first dated, I was still working in Bungy Bar, some 5 years back and it was hard for him to accept the fact that I like doing the things that I was doing.

I guess both of us somehow mature over the years. He has learnt to respect my space,and vice versa even tho sometimes he do gets a little naggy when I tell him that I want to club. I mean to me, as how I always hear people say that clubbing is for sluts,whores,bitches,manwhores or even malebitches to get laid,and head is the only thing in their mind, I beg to differ!!! Hahaha. I sometimes I cannot believe how a person can judge a person by just that! I've known alot of people who goes clubbing,for the fun of it,who chooses not to be intoxicated by alcohol and still be as high. Sometimes I am one of them,and I dont think its something to be ashamed of,really.

I also always hear people passing snide remarks like, " kalau gi club tak minom,buat aper eh gi club!" Kimak, no pun intended,but I really dont agree at all. Even though sometimes I like a little intoxication, there are times when me & my girls go clean,and we do still have the same fun,if not more. I always believe that your niat(intention) is always important. If you want to club, and just club with your girls,dance around the floor,and get wet and sweaty and sing out loud to fucking great music, its fine what. I mean,undeniably there will be a handful of people,both men and women who goes to club,to get laid,but if you are not one of them,i dont see why people should label us as sluts or whores.

"Pompan sialll aje gi clubbing!"

Helloooo,excuse me?! Tsk. Please put off that stereotype of yours. Memang tempat maksiat,tak boleh dinafikan,but you make it what it is you want it to be. I like clubbing with my girls, will always like clubbing,and i will forever love how we dance around together,and sing out loud like we own the world,with or without the booze. Everybody is matured enough to think,what is right and wrong. If you want to drink, and think its alright,go head. Just be responsible. Dont you think? I dont really get all these people who has NEVER stepped into a club with fucking good company,yet still have so much things to say. Its sad,isnt it?

ANYWAYYY i cannot believe how much Ive sidetracked. And oh, i forgot. We might be passing a Ladies night tonight,but come tomorrow morning, Iqah Mary & I are going to Sentosa! AT LAST LORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I so need a tan, I am so yellow right now. My tan lines from Boracay has already faded,and I so need to be under the sun,and in the water. I miss the beach,and the sea.

Its 2220hrs right now. I cannot believe it took me 2 hours to wait for Iqah to pass me photos,and she still hasnt come online yettttt. I just finished cooking myself a nice huge bowl of noodles,with fishballs and nothing else. It was spicy,and satisfying. Oh goddddd,i love spicy noodles with fishballs.

so while I finish up my yummy home cooked noodles, you guys have a fantastic thursday alright. Am going to enjoy my thursday night on bed, rolling around,cause its not always that I can roll around and not worry about working the next day. Life is definitely good,when you dont have to work.

takecare all.

♥

I never thought I'd in love like this

When I look at you my mind goes on a trip

Then you came in and knocked me on my face

Feels like Im in a race but Ive already won first place

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did

You got me thinking, about our life,our house and kids,yeah

Every morning I look at you and smile

Cause boy, you came around and knocked me down

Knocked me down

It's past 2 am in the morning,and Ive got a very early morning class later at 0830hours. I hope I can wake up early enough,so I can get something to fill my tummy before class starts. Anyway,good news! The general alert for the H1N1 pandemic is at Yellow Mitigation right now. Even though we are seeing a few hundred more cases as the days goes by, we are moving towards mitigation which means, we discharge the well,healthy cases,serve them with the HQO order,and concentrate on the more sickly ones in the hospital. Therefore, I am back in 72!! Hahaha.

58 ID was good while it lasted. It made me realise how vulnerable which one of us are,and how precious our lives are. I got to brushed up on a couple of intricate nursing skills while Im in ID. Deployment is always good to a certain extent because it lets you have a breather out of your normal daily routine. New environment is always good,cause sometimes change IS good,like it or not. I used to complain each time my nurse manager sends me out for postings and I used to whine and complain about how I belong to neither here nor there.

But if you ask me frankly, there are things which I will always remember when I am out posted to another ward. I've been to A&E, Burns, ID, C class Family Meds, Med-Surg. And I even got a chance to nurse a few of the VVIPs while I was in 78. All these experience, even though it comes with a price, will always be handy to me,and I can proudly say that for the 2 years I was working as a full pledged nurse, I have seen a little more things than the rest of my colleagues who are always in 72. I feel bad for them,because some say that Im always posted out because of my MCs, what not nonsense,but well, Thank you for the experience man. Hahaha. Ive made a whole lot of friends,Ive learnt a lot of new stuffs which I will NEVER learn in 72.

Like for example, none of them will ever know what issit like to nurse a 38% burnt patient,and what it feels like to do a 2-hour dressing just on a man's arm, and having to peel off the hardened burnt skin off his arm,with nothing but my bare hands and a sterile knife. None of them will ever know how it feels like to feel so honoured to nurse the man who made Singapore what it is today. None of them.

So who has got the last laugh now? Definitely not me. Afterall, after all of this even, I will still be leaving all these people to laugh at how they try to bring me down and failed so miserably. Tskk low life. Im humoured by how hard they try,but hello? Dont you just see it? So sad man.

MOVINGGGG ONNNNNNNNNN~

Anywayyyyyyyy. I am already so pissed so pagipagi gini,lets talk about something happier and less merepek,shall we?

I love bb laaaa. I treated him to Ice Age 3,just now. Was a good and simple date,with me wearing nothing but my pyjamas. Yah, i wear my pyjamas to town. Cannot meh? I think its alright to wear pyjamas to town you know. I dont think its inappropiate. Aidil said as long as Im comfortable,which I am lor. And I dont know why I've been reading about people saying that people who wears flipflops dont have any fashion sense at all? Erms, whats the relation eh I wonder? Do you know that wearing flipflops is better than wearing shoes? Because your feet gets aired because its out in the open,and you are not prone to footrot. Who cares about fashion when your feet is rotting,smelly and yucky?!!! God all this people are damn shallow. Fashion pun fashion jugak tapi tak payah la cakap sampai gitu. Tskkkkk! And besides, when you have swaroski crystals and diamonds all over your toenails, WOULD YOU WEAR SHOESSS?!!!! God.

Okay anyway, i love my flipflops,and you will NEVER see me wearing shoes unless Im at work or when Im at the gym. So yah. I think flipflops are cute,and they are really comfortable. and yah only fashionable people can work Flipflops and make them look good hor. people with good fashion sense CAN make everything look good,cant they? Heh. pleaseee lah.

good night world. class later in 5 hours. YIKES.