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MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDD.Have I mentioned that I HATED Inglorious Basterds????? Omggggg. This is the 2nd WORST MOVIE OF THE YEAR EVERRRRRRRR. THE FIRST GOES TO THE SPARTANS OR WHATEVER SPOOF OR WHATEVER SHIT LA RIGHT. I hated that movie,and now I hate this. SERIOUSLY.

I hated the movie, didnt understand ONE bit of it,didnt know when to laugh,when to cry,when to cover my eyes. Im serious! It was terrible. I didnt understand why skinning off a person's scalp off is funny. HOW IS THAT FUNNY YOU TELL ME? KIMAK ALL U PEOPLE WHO LOVE THAT IS SO SICK.

I heard people laughing in the theatre and I was like, " I SKIN UR FUCKING SCALP,SEE U LAUGH OR NOTTTT NABEY" fucking gore. and DO NOT BE FOOLED. CAUSE I WAS FOOLED BY THE FUNNY TRAILER SO I THOUGHT IT WAS A FUNNY MOVIE, LIKE TOTALLY 100% FUNNY BUT IT IS SO NOT FUNNY AT ALL.

AND HOW IS BASHING A MAN'S HEAD WITH A BAT TIL THE FACE SPLIT INTO TWO FUNNY????? HOWWW! WOAHHHH THIS AIDILHASWIN CAN NICELY SIT BESIDE ME AND TSK-ED ME YOU KNOW WHEN I COVER MY FACE AND ASK ME NOT TO COMPLAIN SO MUCH SOMEMORE. NABEYYYYY PEH GERAMMMM. I REALLYY DONT UNDERSTAND!!!!!!

HOW CAN SHOOTING YOUR FUCKING BALLS STRAIGHT UP FUNNY? HOW CAN SHOOTING KILLING AND STABBING TIL DEATH FUNNY?!?!!!!!

I DONT UNDERSTAND ALL THESE PEOPLE. SICK SICK SICK. SADIST SIAK SATU SATU. AND TU HITLER LAGI SATU,BAGOS JUGAK AH KAU BUNOH DIRI. U MUST HAVE DROWNED INTO YOUR FUCKING CONSCIENCE. YOUR CONSCIENCE MUST HAVE EATEN U UP,ASSSSSFUCKINGHOLE.

WOAHHHHHHH. I WAS ALMOST SICK TO MY STOMACH. EEEEE MEREPEK SIAK MOVIE. SAPE SAPE YANG PK MOVIE TU HEBAT PLS KEEP IT TO URSELF,CAUSE BOLEH JADI GADOH EH. EEEEE I AM SO ANTI THIS. IT IS NOT THAT I AM SAINT OR WHATEVER LA RIGHT AND I AM AWARE OF THE FACT THAT IT IS A MOVIE,BUT HELLO? SIAKK AH THERE WERE PEOPLE IN THAT CINEMA WHO LAUGHED WHEN THE MEN WERE SHOOTING EVERYBODY IN THE ROOM AND EVERYBODY DIED INCLUDING THE WOMAN.

I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY SINGAPORE EVEN APPROVE MOVIES LIKE THIS. THIS IS VIOLENCE YOU KNOWWWW?!!! AND IF KIDS WATCH IT, THEY WILL THINK THAT SKINNING PEOPLE'S SCALP OFF THEIR HEAD IS FUNNY. AND THEN THAT KID WILL GROW UP AND BE THAT SCRAPER AND THEN HIS KID WILL FOLLOW AND ALL THAT VICIOUS CYCLE SHIT AND OH MY FUCKING GOD,AND HERE U ARE TELLING PEOPLE NOT TO BE VIOLENT AND START BEING SANE? OMG.

PLS BE AWARE THAT I AM THROWING A BITCHFIT WITH MY KEYBOARD RIGHT NOW AND I CANNNOT STOP. I CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE LIKE MOVIES LIKE THAT. I DONT. I GOT TRICKED INTO WATCHING BECAUSE THE TRAILER LOOKED FUNNY. EEEEEEEE. GERAM.

OKAY I AM ACTUALLY TAKING A BREAK FROM STUDYING AND IT IS 430AM,I HAVE TO MEET MY LECTURER AT 9AM,SO I BETTER WASH UP AND SLEEP CAUSE IM SLEEPY.

BUT I STILL HATE INGLORIOUS BASTERDS. FUCKING IRRITATING. I NEED TO CALM DOWN AND THINK ABOUT FOOD. I AM HUNGRY,SUDDENLY. KAY BYE.

JUST REMEMBER,DONT WATCH INGLORIOUS BASTERDS.

IF NOT I DONT FRIEND U.

♥ SKYLA.

Good Afternoon everybody! (: How are you guys doing? The weather is a bitch,dont you all think? But well, God is forever fair, there are cold days,where we can snuggle up in between sheets and get cosy cause it is just so shiok to sleep,whereas on days like these, all you want to do is pretty much soak yourself in a pool,filled with ice,constricting your pores and let all the heat out of our system. That's what I feel like doing.

Bblove & I went out on Saturday,and at 6pm our dearest azirahart texted me that she had tixs for F1 rocks,the first thing that came to mind was, OH SHIT. Still had to reject the offer cause I promised Bb that we go out on a good date after I was discharged so I can absorb all the Vitamin Ds from the sun,to make up for the 12 days of being completely indoors. If you ask me how I do it, I seriously do not know.

Been busy completing my assignment, and am glad that I am on the right track,even before my sweet lecturer gave me more guidelines to follow. Thank God, that means I didnt have to amend awhole lot of junk. I am still halfway there,not quite complete but am confident of the given dateline. Syukor Alhamdulilah again. Seriously all these wooze about Glaser & Strauss,gives me headaches. After reading and researching by myself, I realised that they have conflicting ideas of Grounded Theory,and that was quite a bit for me to figure out.

Nonetheless, my head is in the game, but right now,given the weather and my rising temperature, I feel like sleeping. Bb bought me PC games to fill my time,so sweet of him right? But suspect kuat,member nak suroh aku main game so I dont bug him too much. Kan bb kan?! Hmm, takpe takpe. Wa sabar. Hee.

He just came over for lunch,we had our very delayed raya meal, cause my tummy is getting better and I am only just able to take in a little sambal. Not alot,cause I would run to the toilet like 349238924 times if I do that,and that means suicide cause shitting water is really no joke at all.

I bought myself a gorgeous pair of Nike Air Force and I know I contradict myself sometimes cause

1) I dont wear shoes,like EVERR

2) I hate shoes, I feel that it doesnt do justice to my poor plumpy toes being all covered like that.I cant deprived them of fresh air,can I?
3) It was a 60% slash off the original price,which was a hefty SGD 180. On a usual day, WITHOUT the sale, I wouldnt even consider,but it was a 60% slash and who the hell I am to reject such a beautiful pair. I ended up paying only FIFTY NINE bucks for it,a great fucking deal,aint it? SWEET. I figured that it would be an investment for my future,cause I cant wear flipflops and sandals during winter in Adelaide so my AF-1 would be of good use. So if u really ask me, when am I going to wear this or where would I wear this too, I seriously wouldnt know.

THAT said, I am keeping it safe in my box,and I already have a name for my AF-1,Skyla. I am a happy girl. Only that I need to get another bigger make up bag,cause right now,Ive succumbed to utilising the Ribena free tupperware to hold all my lotions,and whatnots. & It is seriously filled to the brim. Dont ask why I need like 10 bottles of lotions,the thing is, I dont,but I get paranoid when my lotions and moisturizers run out and I dont like being paranoid just because my moisturizers are running out. A bad,bad case of OCD,so Ive heard.

Okay, am going to sleep in the heat,and hopefully when I wake up,I am fresh enough to get the rest of my assignment going. Insyallah. Been feeling lerthagic and tired these few days, maybe its my dipping blood counts,but I have been taking my Iron tablets,hopefully it will recover soon. I am just afraid of fainting cause Ive never fainted before and Ive always wondered, where would my soul be when Ive fainted? Would I know that I am actually lying on the ground,lifeless? Or what? Hmmmm,thats scary.

Okay okayyy,would not bore you guys with details anymore and spare you the torture of my whinings and ramblings. But I like rambling and going on and on and on and on and on.

♥

This is me,at 6am just now. Oily,smelly & sticky,but love the hair too much,to ignore it. Hahahhahahaha. Buck up girlfriends, short is the new long. Hee. But after waking up, my hair is still in the mess, same as my study table, filled with my new faux lashes which I bought last night to try out. And it was sooooo tricky. I dont think Ive got enough patience to handle lashes like that. 30 minutes,just to have them stuck. Tsk.

Omgzz, i just had a decent conversation with the person I hate the most,WITHOUT killing her. That is some feat,I tell you. I mean,it wasnt much of a conversation,but you could say it was more like an exchange of words. Tsk. Ya allah,ya tuhanku,if she isnt as bad/evil as how I see her to be, PLEASE ya allah,bukakkanlah hati aku nih. Amin. Hatred is an understatement,I cannot begin to decipher how much it would take for me to erase all that.

Bb & I are finally going out today,managed to nurse him back to health yesterday,and hes all good today,alhamdulilah. Would be mugging to finish up my assignment later at night, cause I think Ive got a few more sections to go. I like studying,it makes me feel smart. Knowledge is power. & I love Power.

With thatttt, Have a good weekends people, cause it will end in 2 days! Grab that party dress, those wedges( cause heels are so 60s right now) and head out! Hahaha. Oh dont take it from me, I dont party with wedges. Hee,just nasihat sahaje! Speaking of which, when was the last time I partyed???? God, a long,longlong,long,long time ago.

♥

Change is good,and I didnt sleep the entire night last night,waiting for 7am to rush to SS to buy ingredients for bfast. At last, it was just fried maggie noodles with prawn wantons! It was yummy,slept after,and then woke up at 3pm,rushed to the salon for my 2.30pm appt.

The first photo was after the bleaching process,and I had 3o minutes to enjoy my BLONDE moment,before they dyed my entire head back to a LESS loud colour,which is ASH GREEN. I have no idea how is that less loud,but well,I like it.

I dont think I could pull off going to work being a blonde anyway. I had this exact bob chic hairstyle a couple of years ago,and I remembered looking like a button mushroom,just a little bit cuter then.

Bb & I are supposed to go watch a movie,but he is sick,and I am going to wash up, get ready to see him at home. I so want to go out tonight,like go party or something but bb's health is more important I guess. Okay I better get going. Oh, btw,is it me,or is the weather acting up again?

I know, whining about the weather is my daily mantra,

get over it already.

♥

Im gonna cut my hair in a few hours time. Maybe thats the reason why I am still up til 5am. OR Chuck Bass just made me cry after listening to his best man speech. I've watched that episode kazillion times,and still love how he says it.

"learn the importance of perseverance,that in the face of true love, you just dont give up,even if the object of your affection is begging you to."
"learn the importance of forgiveness,give the gift of the second chance,and in kind watch them become someone worthy of that gift.and one day, I hope Ill be lucky enough to find someone who will do the same for me"

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. before u watch that episode, could any of you imagine that he was capable of such sweet words?!

And in Season 2,Remember what Blair said?? GODDDD~

Blair said, "I am me,and you are you, We are Chuck & Blair,Blair & Chuck. The worst thing you've ever done, the darkest thought you have ever had,I will stand by you through anything. Because I love you. "

But Chuck had to be an asshole and said TOO BAD and left,just.like.that. Not just like that,but for his father's funeral but STILLL Im still mad that he didnt say it back to Blair.Tough love. And in the same episode, the crash was their hug in the end,it was epic. So,so,soo sadddddd.

Watching reruns are addictive,but it makes you cry so bad like it is soap. But it is not a soap opera,so it is weird. Its 6am,feel like going down to 7-11 and making bfast for the whole family. Hmmmmm. Would Shengsiong be open at 6.30am? Its been a long time since I cooked for the family,I miss doing that. What shall I cook?

♥

Current FB Status Reads: "Meteorology is the interdisciplinary scientific study of the atmosphere that focuses on weather processes and forecasting. My sister has a distinction for that,SUDDENLY I feel like my Bach of Science doesnt even match up right. ARE YOU KIDDING ME, I HAVE A GENIUS FOR A SISTER."

Always a genius,in my eyes.

And you know, when she told me she passed her exams,and already had a Diploma in her grasp, I took the word PASS a little too lightly. I didnt probe further into what grades, As Bs Cs Ds?, cause if she says she pass, it isnt a surprise at all,cause HELLO???? my sister is smart,undeniably. BUT when she showed me her transcripts, my jaw dropped. SEVERAL As,Mei?? And a Distinction in Meteorology? ARE U KIDDING ME. Meteorology is NOT even in my vocab,like SINCE when would the word Meteorology be used in ANY of my sentences?!!!

The only clear image I had,representing of what might have been defined as Meteorology,was when Karen Smith, in Mean Girls,played by Amanda Seyfried,squeezed her breasts to see if it was going to rain,OR NOT. And that was it. Karen was quite convinced that she was psychic,in Meteorology. Yah, she & I are worlds apart,I know. She,refers to my sister of course. Me,Karen,Cady,Regina & Gretchen,forever of course. I love Mean Girls,memorised practically 80% of the script,wadya think?!

THAT said, I took my meds,took my lunch and slept. Bblove was supposed to pick me up to have dinner at his place,but was quite woozy. Slept til Abg Fadh & Jamilah came,dragged both meimei & I out of the house to visit one of our aunty & granduncle's place,since it was just nearby. I figured that I needed to get out and breathe in the air,and was quite sick of being indoors. It was pleasant,going out. I miss doing that,and right now, as much as I would like to prance around in Mustafa,cause my toiletries are running out *ehem* (necessary excuses),lying on bed,tummy down,feels so comfortable.

Gave Daddy 5 bucks today,just for the fun of it,and he smiled at me. It was heartwarming. Realised that it didnt take that much to make him smile afterall. Hmm.

We are all probably going to my Grandfather's grave this coming Sunday,I missed him. His photo is still in my glass display bookshelf,he missed out alot that has happened lately,there isnt a family gathering that I looked around and wished that he was with us,but Im sure he is up there,watching us all,cause he was a good man,and good people go to Heaven. He is probably living his life now,Insyallah. Ya'i, orang rindu sangatsangat pat Ya'i. Ya'i punye lepat paling power la,sekarang,takde orang boleh beat Ya'i nye lepat.Seme takde kick la. Sighssssss.

Anyway, I fought for my 5 days of extended leave,and I CANNOT believe he initially wanted to only give me 3! THE CHEEK. Oh i have ANOTHER reason to hate this guy. So I will be back next week, my getaway plans have to be cancelled,since I am still recuperating,we wouldnt want Aidil to be carrying me in his arms,when I suddenly faint,would we? But 5 days to recuperate and complete my assignment,is just crazy alright? But well,whatever,I just gotta make do with what I have. Starts NOW.

Yeah,like this very minute. Toodles yall. Wish me luck,cause I am about to go back to being the juggler I was 2 weeks ago.

♥ FINALLY!

I can finally be discharged tomorrow,and I am getting excited! I have been here for 11 days, and I cant wait to get out!

I spent the morning,lounging on bed, rewatching GG, until my replacement consultant came,cuz apparently my Miss Cutesy went on urgent leave,LEAVING me behind. He pretty much spoilt my entire morning,and I was left sitting at the edge of my bed feeling pretty pissed.I wish I hadnt brushed my teeth so I could HAAAAAA-ed him with my fantastic morning breath. Such a prick.

Doctors are supposed to comfort their patients,NOT agitate them. They are supposed to be there for us to complain our concerns to,and address them,THAT IS WHAT THEY ARE FORRRR,DAMN IT. I,as the patient,DO NOT have to go miles just to prove that I am having pain for you to investigate it for me. If I say I have pain,I AM IN PAIN. What is wrong with him,really?!

I am so ready to be discharged cause everything else is under control,alhamdulilah. I am going to be on medications for awhile now,and since I have stabilised, I do not need further hospitalisation. But I still have to drag Bblove to KK for the Thalassaemia routine check,since he is a PROSPECTIVE husband. I am a T Minor,and if he is a T Minor too, if we have kids, there is 25% chance of one of them being a T Major,and that would be a problem! So better be prepared early.

Oh speaking about discharge, there are a few things that I need to complete,whether urgent or not.

#1 has to be my final assignment before I fly off. I have to ace this one. But due to my hospitalisation,I was unable to focus fully on the assignment and Im only halfway done. I missed several lessons,which was very valuable cause my classmates got the full attention of our very fantastic lecturer,to guide them through whereas I just have to depend on his emails. This is definitely to my disadvantage,but Insyallah, look on the bright side, I am recuperating now,which means I am ready to get out and be stressed again. At least thats what my lecturer said. "Get well soon,and make sure when u come back,you are ready to be stressed again."

I desperately need to get Meimei a huge graduation gift,cause my intelligent sister just scored several As in her final exams,and I couldnt be more proud. My sister is really something,I dont know how she does it,but she does it perfectly well,and I am so proud that my sister is smart. The only worry I have is, she is also due to sail around the time that Ill be flying off. And it breaks my heart to leave both my parents behind,alone without us. And of course, us without them.

Meimei & I will be in two different continents and Im not sure of how the hell am I supposed to handle that. Hmm,maybe not yet,cause I still have like, what, 4 freaking months. Ira & Aris came visit today, they bought me this red plant thingy thing. I am really convinced that it is NOT a cacti, because it has leaves and it doesnt have thorns. I dont know why Ira calls it a cacti but i dont think it is,Im pretty sure Im correct though. Was lounging on bed, watching television,just keeping everything sane.

Like Ive said to her,I am not going to apologise because it is how I feel,and the reason why I dont reply to all her msgs because I dont think she needed to explain anything. It is like we dont have to agree with each other,cause we both have different point of views,and thats that. I dont like apologizing when I know I dont want to,or feel like Im forced to just because you are offended,because it would be unreal and ingenuine. Its kinda mean,but I still dont agree,and the good thing about both Ira & I is that,we dont agree on alot of stuffs. ALOT. I think among all our friends, both of us fight with each other the most,but maybe thats because we are just both very vulgar and very brutal when it comes to the truth.

For eg, A & B fights. C is best friends with A. C agress with B that A is wrong,because A is really wrong. But C chooses to shut up and just watch A & B fight because if C says something, A would get more pissed cause even her best friend C thinks shes wrong. And that would be unacceptable cause best friends are supposed to be on the same side.

What would you do if u were B? If I was B,i'd disgusted. I still am,btw. I hate stuffs like these,but I shall not say anything in case I hurt somebody else. Sighs. Tough love.

I cant wait to go dating with BBlove. It has been a long time. I miss you bb. I really do. Miss going out with you,riding and hugging you from the back,screaming ILOVEYOUs out loud against the wind,kissing in between traffic lights. Oh I just miss going out basically.

I hope I would melt in the sun tomorrow. & I cant wait to see my room! Meimei cleaned it for me. Isnt she just superb? Sape nak kawin dgn adik aku?!!! Otak pandai, pandai kemas, segale-galenye pandai,cumer tak pandai masak aje! EHEHHEHEHEHEH. Tapi kene go through aku dulu kays. Bukan sembarang orang tau boleh jadi adik ipar aku. hehehehe,gatal la pulak.

AND OHHH, I THINK AIDILHASWIN IS PLANNING A HUGE SURPRISE FOR ME. MAYBE HE IS FINALLY PROPOSING. HAHAHAHHAHA PERASAN~ BCZ RECENTLY,HE ASKED ME FOR ALL OF OUR OLD PHOTOS,AND DEMANDED THAT I SAVED THEM IN A THUMBDRIVE. AND WHEN I ASKED HIM,DIER CKP "JGN KEPO!" HE USUALLY SAYS THAT WHEN HE IS PLANNING SOMETHING. HURHURHURRRRRRRRRZ

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMZZZZZZZZZ.OKAY LA 2 AM ALREADY. WANT TO SLEEP. NIGHT!

♥

IM ABOUT TO THROW A BITCHFIT,AT 3AM IN THE MORNING,ON MY HOSPITAL BED. BECAUSE I AM SO FUCKING PISSED.

MAYBE NOT REALLY PISSED,JUST FUCKING DISAPPOINTED, YOU KNOW? MY FB STATUS A FEW DAYS AGO READS SOMETHING LIKE,
" YOU ONLY KNOW YOUR REAL FRIENDS WHEN YOU ARE IN DISTRESS."

I HATE TO AGREE WITH IT. BUT SERIOUSLY I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE. BBLOVE TOLD ME," JGN HARAPKAN DORANG SGT." I KEEP MAKING EXCUSES FOR YOU GUYS. ITS DAY NINE FOR GOD'S SAKE,AND I DONT EVEN SEE EVEN ONE OF YOU.

SERIOUSLY. GREATEST DISAPPOINTMENT. NI BUKAN MENGHARAPKAN AIDILHASWIN,TETAPI KALAU DAH CAKAP KAWAN BAIK,KALAU DAH PERNAH JANJI WE GROW OLD TOGETHER FOREVER AND ALWAYS,THEN MANER BATANG IDONG SATU SATU.

NI AKU CAKAP, KORANG TENGOK AND BACER. I DONT WANT TO TEXT OR CALL AND TALK ABOUT IT CAUSE I KNOW IF I DO THAT, I WONT BE ABLE TO SAY WHATS ON MY MIND.

SERIOUSLY. MENYAMPAH KORANG TAU TAK? BFF SINI BFF SANER?! KALAU AKU NAK BUKAK CERITE,DAH MEMANG AKU DASAR KURANG AJAR CAUSE MACAM NAK API-API KAN, TAPIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII TU AJE LA I WANT TO SAY.

BANYAK BEBUAL NANTI BANYAK LAGI DOSER. SIGHS. TAK SANGKE ORANG LAIN YANG AKU SYG,ORANG LAIN YANG SAYANG AKU. TSKK. OH GOD PLS.

♥ SYAWAL 2009

Selamat Hari Raya,everybody! I know its coming to Day 3,but I dont care! I woke up on Syawal morning, looking like that with the green ball as my ONLY raya accessory. I spent Sunday morning, eating BAD BAD french toasts by the kitchen,while u guys were a little more lucky,I know! And they served me Chicken Rendang for lunch(THE CHEEK), siap dgn Kad Raya, probably to remind me of how ill fated I am to be in hospital on such a festive occasion. I youtubed for the Hari Raya takbir and felt abit solemn cause I was all alone on my bed, til slightly after 1pm.

FINALLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY Meimei & Daddy brought my fav lepat & serondeng and Bblove brought me goooooodddiessss! I had ketupat, AYAM MASAK MERAH,lodeh,serondeng,lepats and even cookies! Mum & Dad left to visit the relatives while Meimei & Aidil kept me company. I had a good time. But the pain wasnt good. But I guess with good food and a nasty gastritis,it comes with a price. Hmm,Ayn & Hasrom came shortly after to 'BERAYA BERSAMA',and we had even more cookies, desserts and kuihkuihs. Dah macam open house bilik aku! (:

I am due for my colonoscopy tomorrow, and I am proud of say that I did finish my Oral Fleet aka laxatives aka WORST DRINK IN THE ENTIRE WORLD(WDITEW). I also did puked like I was a busted sewage pipe,and flooded the entire bowl. & currently, I am purging water off my ass. I am literally leaking water,except that the water is a huge load of water.Hahah,sorry for the intimate details,you guys. The oral fleet was really terrible,I am serious. It was worst than PEG.I had PEG a few days ago also,and that was so bad,but THISSSSSSSSS.

Goodness,dont know which smart aleck go and invent this stupid stuff until sooooooooooooooooooooooo gross.SETTING PLUG A HUNDRED TIMES IS WAYYYYYYYYYYYY BETTER THAN HAVING TO DRINK THAT THING. I am serious. The last 20mls of the WDITEW left me so nauseated,that I ran to the toilet and just puked EVERYTHING out.

The only good thing about it is, IT WORKED. After 4 hours of finishing it, I am still purging. The dr says I am supposed to purge AT LEAST 20 times,AND IT MUST BE CLEAR WATER and so far,it is only my number 9. So I foresee spending the entire night running to the toilet and back. I cant wait to get the scope over and done,hopefully it is nothing and hopefully they dont bombard me with a whole new set of weird and abnormal findings.

So how was your raya,you guys?! I am so envious cause I was on fb,and all i see was Lebaran photos! Gerek! I miss going out with my family and all,and whats even suckier is, I wont even get to celebrate it with my family next year cause Ill be away in Adelaide. So technically, I have to wait 3 more years.

Im sure u guys will have this impression that I am doing fine and that I am strong and blah blah blah. The truth is, sometimes the toughest nut will crack at some point of time too. I did crack a few days ago, because I couldnt handle what the doctor told me. Imagine, you living your life thinking that EVERYTHING was alright. and when you find out that it is not, it just crashes somehow. I dont know how else to describe the feeling but I did cry very hard.

I always tell myself that I have to be strong,and deep down I know I can handle a whole lot of shit,but I always tell myself that I am only human,and I cannot be too hard on myself,or else it will just eat me up inside. How do you handle news like a hereditary blood disorder that will endanger your life,how do you handle news like there is a possibility of removing a major organ? How,I ask you? The only thing I did was just to burst out crying in front of the doctor, run to the toilet and cry some more. I only thought that it was just gastritis. Little did I,or we know that it was something else.

Maybe its just me, I have gotten over it. I still cry and I still whine,but thats about it I guess. Sad FOR WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. My patients have Cancer,Leaukemia,Lymphomas, Chronic Infections and I still dont see them slitting their wrists or anything? So why should I. Tsk. I know many are worried for me, but the only thing you can do for me is to pray for me. I will be fine,dont worry la.

Sometimes I am really pissed at Bb for being too hard on me. Maybe thats what Tough Love is all about. He is really very strict with me nowadays, because I know he cares for me and his heart aches each time he sees me in pain,so when I complain that I cannot take the Oral Fleet anymore or that the medicine taste funky and it makes me nauseous, it really agitates him! My family still pampers me,cause I really am craving for a whole lot of stuffs,but Bb is really an asshole. SO DAMN STRICT LA. But maybe he doesnt understand being a patient. Before this, I dont too.

But after going through this myself, I can understand why my patients take hours and hours to finish just a glass of Oral Fleet. It stings your mouth and you wrench like fuck. Gag and gag and gag like nobody's business.

Im Nil By Mouth,which means no food no drinks from 12MN til my scope is done. Maybe scope in the afternoon so like 12 hours WITHOUT food probably. Ive already asked meimei to buy me goodddd food in the evening. Let me see,what shall I eat. a few days ago, I craved for telor masak kicap! hurhuhuurrrr,sodappp. See la tomorrow want to eat what. maybe kopok lekor. Havent had enuff of lekors this year lehh,miss lekors and cempedak gorengs!!! WOOOO SEDAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP.

K set. Want to discharge ASAP. It was been 9 days,goodness. Okay la you all,I think I just wet my bed,despite the protective sheets,so am going to clean myself up and shower and shit and probably have a good night's sleep.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MY FRIENDS,MUSLIM OR NOT. MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN TO ONE AND ALL. YOU GUYS KNOW ME,SOMETIMES I JUST SHOOT MY MOUTH OFF,SO MAAFKAN KALAU TERKASAR BAHASE,TERSILAP KATA.

HAVE A GOOD SYAWAL YOU GUYS! (:

♥

Good afternoon everybody. I am sitting up on bed, watching Are you Smarter than A 5th grader? and I actually love my afternoons the most. I am either watching television,sleeping or cringing in pain. On good days, I watch television back to back,like I dont have anything else to do.

I realise that my hospitalisation stories are all over my blog,as stated by Shazana,who visited me with Mars yday,and Thank God for them,because I was getting restless and getting very bored. So today, I am not going to talk about my hospitalisation,ever. The only thing you guys need to know is that, there is a slight possibility that I might be spending Hari Raya in hospital.

So since it has been 5 days since I got here, I havent seen 'the outside' for a really long time. So whats up OUTSIDE PEOPLE???????? Hmm,spaceships lounging around yet? Maybe everybody is walking in stilts? Hmmm,just imagination running wild. I mean, anything could happen in like 5 days,hello?! I havent breathed in natural fresh air for FIVE days,do you even know what it does to me? No clue,sistas!

Anyway, today I realised how true it is when people tell me that you will only know who your true friends are when you are in distress. Heh,its sad that I have to realise it,maybe I already knew for a long time that they are just selfish & self-centred,but maybe I just want to remain delusional. But its hard to remain delusional when you are crying your heart out to a supposedly good friend and instead of feeling better, you feel a little more sick and disgusted.

Yaya told me once before that she would rather have ONE good friend than a hundred hypocritical ones. I agree. I have alot,alot,alot of friends,of course NOT all of them are hypocritical, to err is human sometimes and I am also human. So right now, at this stage,whats there is there. Di bulan yang mulia ini, only God knows how much I want to slap across her face.

Ishk, Masyallah. Okay,breathe.

Anywayy,whats good on TV on a Thursday night! Anybody know? Hmm,been watching Tangisan Bulan Madu,which is a teleseries in TV3 and the series is really,really,really sad. Everybody dies,and it gets so sentimental,and it feels like I am having angina sometimes,because my heart literally aches and breaks for the cast. The story is so sad,omg,how can it not get any more sadder, you lose both your only son and husband within a span of like 2 weeks probably? )): Sad,SAD!

Oh god. Today is not a really good day for me, I had my 2nd plug set earlier today,luckily Kak Suhaida was free to set it for me so she came right up and did me the huge favour. Anyway, Im feeling way better than I was after I spoke to my loved ones,I just have to be strong in what is being thrown at me.

& I was watching Rachel Ray on TV just now,and did you know that Obama smokes too? (: thats surprising,and it makes me feel like hes real. Like for eg, I dont like celebs or important people to suddenly want to quit just because they have just turn famous,like SUDDDENLY they think Smoking is bad for them,SUDDENLY they take part in Smoking Cessation shit just to show the public that if they can do it, others can too.I find it quite contradicting actually. Smoking is bad, but Im glad to hear that Obama smokes. Shows that he is real,and not contradicting. I like that.

I woke up at 2.30pm this afternoon,after my painkillers,was drowsy throughout the day, probably just wanted to sleep on the stuffs that my consultants have been telling me, and my Miss Cutesy is really nice,Im glad that shes my doctor. Im worried about the colonoscopy tomorrow,scared that I might kill somebody in that room. *gulps*

Oh wells. Right now,while I am in the room filled with the rich aromas of great food from my neighbours, I can ONLY swallow my saliva and sip on my Juice. I have bowel prep tonight,and it is to make me have diarrhoea and shit my ass out for at least 20 times,til I pass out clear water. SICK I KNOW,but u can imagine me practically living in the toilet later at night.

OHHH guess what? My "mother & sisters in law" just visited me. I still find it weird to you know call them that but heck, they have been worried and so concerned,that its pretty scary. Esp Cik Kintan kita,who calls me every morning just to ask how I am. But I can disturb Bb, " Bb,mak you sayang I la sebabtu la dier callcall!" Bwahahahahahahahah. Perasan aje aku ni eh,but really what!

Ok okayyy so how are your Raya preparation coming along now? I know Meimei has cleaned my ENTIRE room for me,and I am so grateful. Thank you Meimei,you are the best indeed. Love you.kayyy,back to being sad and depressed and back to having my eyes glued on youtube.

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Why do I have more hospital photos? Because, I am still here. Looking very bloated still,AND messy not to mention. So I have been here since Saturday and the highlight of my hospital stay has to be my OGD(other than my Virgin IV Cannulation),you guys! Hands down, my OGD wins being THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY HOSPITALISATION,ohhh scrap that, THE HIGHLIGHT OF MYYYY LIFE. & the best thing is, I AM NOT EVEN JOKING -_____________-

I waited the entire day for 1330hours because I was due for my various Ultrasounds and 1430hours for my OGD,and I just cant wait to get it over and done with it cause I was so hungry! So when I was finally done with my ultrasounds, I was pretty excited and I was not scared,maybe a little nervous because I thought that BECAUSE I GOT OVER MY CANNULATION WHICH TO ME WAS SUPPOSED TO HURT THE MOST, everything else was not a major problem.

BUTTTTT, I was so wrong. They pushed me on the trolley,and almost immediately, i was under bright lights,surrounded by MANY nurses and I only recognised ONE pair of eyes which was my consultants'. She talked me through the procedure again and then thats when the nurse held out a white spray and asked me to open my mouth! Of course I didnt. She patiently waited for me to be calm and then explain that the spray might be VERY bitter,and it would sting,and it would make me breathless. AND BOY WAS SHE RIGHT. OH MY GODDDDDDD LAAAA.

I remembered having some bitter spray into my throat and that was 6 years ago,when I first wanted to extracted my teeth for my braces but that didnt hurt as much as this! The first time she sprayed, I choked cause it was SOOOOOO BITTER AND IT ACTUALLY DID STING. And then I was supposed to swallow the damnedddd poison down my throat,and I actually imagined it to be Vodka,cause it burns and sting the same, ONLY WORST. So I had two HUGE SPRITZ of that awful thing and then my whole mouth, throat,oesophagus went NUMB. I could not swallow my saliva, I felt like my tongue was wagging around like a dog's tail and then i just crashed on the bed,cause i got really really breathless!

Of course I was given sedatives and was DEAD by the time my consultant could even finish her sentence. I stirred a little bit after the procedure and I remembered being pushed to the waiting area to be sent back to my room,and I remembered very vividly feeling quite damnnnnn high like I was fucking drunk! I was laughing and giggling on the trolley after the procedure and then I think i crashed again! I only woke up another hour later, with my head at the foot of the bed and my legs the other way round. I was still quite ooozy from the scope but managed to pull through. Thank God.

Later that evening, Aisya & Bb came to accompany me for dinner,which is great cause I was getting too bored! Watched youtube, laughed at some hilarious veeedeeeohsss and sharing the bed with Aisya was just the bomb! Hahahahha,gurrrl bonding you guyssss! And then when she left, I went to shower, (yess I shower at 10pm every night,gd life,NOT) while bb entertained himself with Karla.

& then when he went home, I did some surfing,watched 50 First Dates AGAIN, cried AGAIN and fiza came up to my room and tapped me on my ass to teman them for their break,cause they were all doing night so since i was bored, WHY NOTTTT. Hahahahha. Had my hotdog bun and pink dolphin,and I went to bed HAPPY! Hhahahah.

So my condition has improved tremendously, and I am definitely getting better, Thank God. I dont feel pain as much today, and I can finally sleep without waking up in the middle of it,in cold sweat. So I woke up EARLY,like 8am early, brushed my teeth, washed my face and literally just waited on my bed, waiting for my cutesy Snr Consultant to come see me. Which she did,and the first thing that came from her mouth was,

Miss Cutesy: GOODMORNING LINA.DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH SEDATION WE HAVE TO GIVE YOU YDAY? *giggling while slapping me on my shoulders*

Me: HUH????? ALOT I GUESS CAUSE I WAS DEAD!

Miss Cutesy: OH no no my dear, if there is anything that u were yday,u were definitely NOT dead! You were kicking everybody,pushing everything, banging everything and refusing to co-operate! It was alot alot alot of sedation you know! Im surprised u woke up early today even!

Me: HUH!! I DONT REMEMBER! I WAS DEADDDDDD!!!

I really felt so bad and she began to told me that after the 2 spritz and after the IV sedation,I knocked out but woke up the moment she put the scope into me and she had to have the nurses hold me down cause I was completely crazy and wild and I was puking and choking and wrenching and indeed when i read the report, it did say that Biopsy was incomplete!!!!

WAHLAO. It seems that she managed to only take a biopsy of my stomach,my stomach lining and all but when it got to my oesophagus, i was wrenching so much,she had to pull it out! And thats freaky cause she said that my eyes were open throughout the procedure but I seriously cannot remember ANYTHING. I only know that I was really just dead! Oh man, i think she must have hated me a whole lot.

So that is that. and right now, Dinner has just been served, Ive been spending the entire day watching clicknetworktv,watching Chick VS Dick, Boring In Bikinis and practically just laughing my ass off. Of course pain was here and there, but not that much anymore.

& oh yes, I just found out today that I am a little anaemic! I didnt know that throughout my 22 years,it definitely shocked me alittle but well, I guess im lucky i found out about it nowwww. Okaylah, Im going to like dig around my porridge because they served me CAULIFLOWERS like EEWWW,and Im going to wait for Bb for my Murtabak! ((:

Bb has been THE BEST. He comes visit me EVERY single day after work, accompany me til late at night,wait til I am really comfortable for bed, and then leave when he feels that Im okay. He buys me food,and lots of Pink Dolphins, and my favourite Ondeh Ondeh and ya lah been the best! Thank you bb!

I am appreciative of those who came to say Hi,and to spend some time with me, and to those who cant because of the strict restrictions by the hosp, Thank you for having me in your prayers always. Thanks you guys. To mummy who never fails to come after work,even though shes tired from work, thank you mummyyy. You the best, love youuuu.

Okay I want to pee. Oh I forgot another conversation with Miss Cutesy.

Me: So Dr,if the OGD was incomplete, that means I must go through it again? HUHH DONT WANT LEHHHH.

Miss Cutesy: Yah, technically yes but not urgent la cause nothing is bleeding,just inflammed but I would recommend a colonoscopy but lookin at how you were yday, I think you would have killed somebody,even without you knowin, if we really put you through one.

FUNNNY HOR MY CONSULTANT. Damn cute!

Labels: hospital woes

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If you havent already heard, Ive been admitted and today is Day 2,and its going to be Day 3,in less than an hour. I am somewhat just very proud of myself,for enduring the numerous injections for medications,blood takings and also plug setting. Ive had my virgin plug,and trust me, I am taking care of it,like its sacred. Surprisingly, it didnt hurt one bit when it was set, maybe I was in too much pain to refuse the doctor from just doing it.

I think that my condition has pretty much been rather progressive. I am in less pain that I was yday,even though the pain is still there. Still have yet to find out the cause of it, could be as mild as hyper acidity or as major as polycycitis. I have an OGD and an

Ultrasound KUB scheduled tomorrow,and I have to fast from 12MN! Im getting pretty anxious and I dont know if I am able to sleep tonight.

I was very restless last night,didnt manage to score any sleep at all in fact,because of the colic pain. Was seen by my Gastro consultant, who was adorable. Given assurance and she immediately ran blood tests. I think Ive been poked more than 10 times throughout my hospitalisation. Ive gotten used to it and I am very surprised that I actually can tolerate pain and I am not really that bratty like I thought I was. Syukor.

Alot of people have actually visited me,and I am serious when I say if you can ,please come and keep me company,cause I AM SO BORED OMGZZZZZ. As you guys know, I cant keep still for nuts and seriously being on this bed for more than 24 hours, isnt really my thing. I dont know how my patients do it. It is soooo tough! I have to like get up, adjust stuffs, walk to the mirror, walk back, like check out the corridor if anything interesting happens, OMG i am really so bored. I know that I have to sleep in order to rest,but maybe its due to the fact that I am so restless.

But like Ive said, I am so lucky that I worked in the same hospital so my colleagues can come over and visit anytime,which is greatttt because I am pretty bored most of the time,Haha! Meimei came and brought me LOTS of food! Bread, CHEESE OMGX,FAVOURITE PANDAN ROLLS,and some tidbit biscuits thing which I absolutely loveeee! And oh bb also bought me a jar of Nutella which is finishing. Hahahha! Glutton,I KNOW.

This gastritis has made me feel so hungry,to a point where it actually hurts,so I eat and after that, THATS WHEN THE DRAMA WILL BEGIN!!! I hate post meals the most cause I feel like I want to just turn myself upside down and vomit out everything cause I will be soooooooooo nauseous and the pain becomes alittle unbearable. Then I have to crouch down and bend down and like roll around in bed like a fried prawn. SO now, I clever. Every single time I want to eat, I ask for my bolus Buscopan. The only thing about it is, its supposed to be injected intra-muscular soooo Ive been having injections on my arms for a couple of times.

ANYWAY ive been babbling on for far too long. Its 1130pm, I want to drink some water before I start fasting for my OGD. Oh pray for me people. Insyallah.

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Today, I ate too much,drank too much, talked too much & laughed too much. Too much, Im actually tired from being too hyper. Went out with my fucking fantastic colleagues for Dinner at Seoul Garden,and it was beyonddddddddddddd what I imagined. Got out of the restaurant,smelling like marinated meat. But it was all good. I think a couple of new girls who were with us, has warmed up a little bit with the rest of us, and it is all good. Cheers to the new girls, an addition to the 72 family, Nadhirah, Farhana, Kasinah & Afidah! (: Im looking forward to spending more time with them and the rest esp,since we are all working together,and cohesion is always a plus point. It fosters good relationships at work, and Im glad that they are all beginning to fit in just nicely.

I had a morning shift earlier today,and I tremendously enjoyed my 2 hour nap. I cant believe that NOBODY noticed that I was gone for that long, and they only called me frantically at 1pm! I was dead,perhaps from the medication I took during Sahor for my gastritis,and I had such a deep,and fulfilling sleep,I even drooled on the sofa. Showered and changed right after work and made our way with the rest to Bugis to break fast.

Can I just comment that their marinated meat were all damn yummy?! Other than the beef and mutton that I didnt touch, th chicken were all delicious.I loved my salad mix,I enjoyed my dessert very much too, I had chocolate ice cream, Nata de coco, very sweet jackfruit slices and a drizzle of Gula Melaka, JUST SO HEAVENLY. All that for a price less than SGD24. Not that bad actually,considering the fact that we wanted to go to Straits this year but decide against it at the last minute because we figured that ANY food was GOOD food,if we have GREAT company.

I think I might have just gained back my 4 kilos which I have lost during Ramadhan. & oh speaking of which, I am thankful that I managed to pull through today without succumbing to my pills and managed to fast throughout. Alhamdulilah. 11 more days to Syawal,people! I will have a very simple Shawal this year,no fancy cars,no fancy clothings,but I think simple is good enough for me,cause I am blessed with my family and friends around me. And i think that is what Syawal is all about. Nothing matters than having your loved ones around.Syukor Alhamdulilah.

Of course,my heart goes out to those who have lost their loved ones in this holy month,and I am constantly reminded of how I should be contented with what is bestowed upon me this year.

Thank you Good Lord for what you have given me, the opportunities for me to grit my teeth and stay strong,especially. What doesnt break me,will just make me stronger.

Lovely photos will be up soon,cause I.is.sleepy.sweaty.and.tired. I've got a morning class tomorrow and an afternoon shift following suit. What a life. School in the morning,working at night,what a life. Irregardless of that, I think that I am lucky enough to be doing this without having any other commitments. Other people have to juggle their family life, kids, household chores, work and STILL go to school,so who am I to complain?

Dok diam diam,jgn banyak bunyi, sua la kan. Hee. Night.

♥ 5th Sept 09

Hello,sup yall. I had class in the morning, everything was alright until about 11am,when I started to feel the pain coming back. It radiates to my back and I was getting so restless cause the pain was escalating so fast! I had to again break my fast and took my medications and felt asleep in the afternoon. Woke up close to 6pm,felt so much better, Syukor and Bb dragged me out to make me feel better. Cause I am usually very whiny and grumpy when I am sick so I Love You Beth Cooper did cheer me up alittle bit and now, I am back at home,finally.

I am on morning shift in less than 6 hours, please pray that I'll be fine and pain free. Please. My gastritis has not been merciful at all,and I really cannot imagine what I will do if the pain still persists tomorrow. Ive got Iftar with my ward colleagues,and I cant wait! I will NOT forget to bring my meds along in case my tummy starts being bitchy.

In class today, Mdm Elizabeth came in the room and briefed us

regarding THE NEXT STEP.

& the NEXT STEP consists of Submission of Final Assignment due on the 25th of September, Confirmation & Booking of Air Ticket to Adelaide, Applying for Student VISA,Confirmation of Housing Address in SA, Enrolment into Classes(because it seems that we have to book and choose which classes and subjects we want to sit for), Tendering of Resignation Letter (for those working,LIKE ME) and last but not least, this is by far the most tedious, WAITING.

Lets see.....and how many months do we have left again? Technically two weeks before paper due, 4 months before we leave. We have already set the date to the 6TH of FEB 2010, because Orientation was brought forward a week earlier. I was getting butterflies in my tummy,and boy was I nervous! Oh I also forgot that we have to wait for our Research Paper results before we fly off. I am aiming for a H. Distinction for my paper so which means, I better start soon! I dont want to rush my work and hand in haphazardly. Its already my last leg, I cannot afford to give up! YOU CAN DO IT,ANA!!! I know I can!!! Work HARD,den later can party harder kaysss Ana!!! GO GO GOOOOOOOO!!!!

kaysss I know i sound weird motivating myself this way,but AKU SUKE PULAKKKKK BUAL SORANGSORANG PEKIK GOGOGO! SORANGSORANG! hurhurhurrrrZ.

So many things to do,so many things to shop for, My favourite part! Ive outgrown MOST of my winter clothings so I need winter clothes. But I intend to shop for clothes ONLY after I submitted my papers so it will be like a treat. Hehhh.

Okay so those are photos from Saturday, I had heaps of fun. Bday Supper with family, I didnt take much photos because the food was seriously so good that I forgot! Really, and by the time I noticed that I didnt even take ONE photo of the food, we finished eating everything! But wells, like I said, I love the supper cause Mummy Daddy Meiz & Bblove was there with me to celebrate my bday, so it was a good one! Syukor. Alright alright, I better stop nowww. More photos will be uploaded to FB,tag yourself people.

See you guys around! have a fantastic Wednesday kayssss. XOXOXOXOOX.

AND OHHH HAPPY 090909!!!!! HAVE A GOOD ONE!!!! ((:

♥ birthday weekend!

Hello! How are you guys? I hope you guys have had a fantastic weekend,cause its ALREADY Tuesday,and technically, its another 3 days to the weekend, SO HANG IN THERE KAYSS! (:

I had a bad case of gastritis early this morning and I just had to break my fast cause the pain was excruciating! Imagine, crouching every 2 minutes in the middle of sponging and by the time I was done, I was in cold sweat. I hate having gastritis,because all you want to do is crouch and sedate yourself with painkillers and fall asleep. I tolerated the pain throughout the shift,and by 2pm, I knew i couldnt anymore so went to the staff clinic, pending scope(wtffff) but I declined IMMEDIATELY! I,is scary cat kiss the rat so I took the medicine and left,promised the very sweet doctor that I would come back if the pain persists.

So far, the pain is still here,despite the medications so we shall just see. I mean,its NOT like I starve myself,and you guys know how I eat,I dont starve and to be having gastritis is pretty weird. Oh wells, I promised you guys for an exclusive birthday update and so, I shall do it right now,whilst hugging my warm pillow and drowsy from the medications. Heh, bear with me kays.

OH BEFORE I FORGET, I WANNA THANK EACH AND EVERYONE FOR YOUR WISHES AND PRAYERS. THANK YOU SO MUCH, I REALLY HAD A GOOD BIRTHDAY. LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES FROM ME TO YOU GUYS.

4th September 2009,Friday

I got back at 5am,on the 4th Sept this year,all in the name of being 22. Slept right after,had the sweetest dream yet, only to wake up at 5pm! Sweet sweet love that is,when I get to sleep this late and wake up even later. There wasnt anybody at home,so I did my own stuff. Finally got round to watching Syurga Cinta,which was so,so so sweet and I think I batal-ed my fast because I cried so bad at 6.45pm. But wells, had roti john for buka, and then I fell asleep again after not hearing from Bblove. Got abit pissed but whatever, I think somebody spiked my drink the night before or something cause the whole day of Sept 4th, I was superrrrr drowsyyyy!

All I wanted to do was to sleep,sleep and sleep on my birthday! Hahaha. But wells, I finally woke up at 8.30pm,after 6 missed calls from Babylove and hurriedly got ready. Seems that he got off work late and rushed as soon as he could,and we went to PS for Pizzahut. Wanted to try out Secret Recipe but the menu wasnt as hebat as Pizzahut's so we settled for Pastas,NO PIZZAS that day and Bb specifically mentioned that he will be bringing me somewhere sweet for desserts and I instantly knew that he was bringing me to Dempsey Hill for Ben & Jerry's!!! Hahahahha, and I was right! ((: I loveeeee it.

There was a band playing and it seems that they start playing only at 1030pm on Friday nights so we came around the right time! Ordered Belgian Waffles with Chocolate Theraphy & Bb's mega SWEEET icecream ( forgot the name,too long), topped with hot chocolate fudge and nuts! WOWWWWW SWEET LOVE. I enjoyed myself,singing along to the band. They were not that bad. Thank you Bb for the sweeet treat, you are really the sweetest. He said, "I want to bring you to places nobody has ever brought you to." Awwwww. Loveee youuuu! Im lucky cause baby know alot of unknown and ulu places due to his job,and he is always bringing me around! Hahahhaha I like!

Because of him, I know where lee hsien loong stays, i know where the owner of LEVIs Spore stays, I know which house belongs to the Sultan of Brunei, I know where Jet Li stays. HAHAHAHAHHA,BAGOS KAN!! Syukorrr Alhamdulilahhh. So here are some photos! Enjoy! Didnt bring Nayla, only took them with Kayla so the quality isnt that good,but wells.

3rd Sept 09, Thursday

On the 3rd, I had a morning shift, got home and hurriedly changed and I was so excited, I almost went hysterical. Luckily I met Yaya earlier,so we walked around to pass the time,and we were already at the Glasshouse by 6.30pm. I saw my hothot, who was quite adorable, and then they didnt allow us to sit at our reserved tables cause of their seating policy so we sat on the sofas,with magazines and stuffs. It was pretty comfortable.

Waited for the star karats, but I didnt complain CAUSE I KNEW THEY WERE PLANNING A SURPRISE LORRR. Hahhahaha,so thats why I didnt even scold anybody for being late!!!! Usually I would cause sumpah aku tak suke tunggu orang.Hahahhaha. Korang ingat aku bodoh eh eh eh!!! Hahahahah. And when they finally arrived, we broke fast with just iced water cause our food wasnt ready at all,and while we were talking and giggling, THEY CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD ON THIS ONE, they brought out my adorable cuppcakes!!!!

Have you just checked them out?? Kimakkk, almost TOO adorable to be eaten lor! But I loveddd the cuppycakes cause they were black and hot pink with planes,cameras and handbags on top of each cuppy. Cute nak mampossss!! But yah, I thought everything was over and that we would go back to being greedy and hungry people,but NOOO, they handed me this huge ass card,which ALMOST brought me to tears cause I saw all of our photos and I love every one of it and they made me stand on the chair so they can sing me MY birthday song! Hahahhaha. I pitied the chair,frankly but well,when it was all really over, we finally ate!!! I was starving!

We ate for TWO whole hours, dont know what we ate also but it was sooo filling and then Ayn being the Minah Karaoke,suggested Karaoke-ing over Sheesha. So well, why not I thought since she had the exclusive card and we actually ended just paying 8 bucks per person for 4 hours of screaming,singing,dancing and laughingggggggg. Heh. Oh yah we actually walked all the way from Dhoby Ghaut to Ming Arcade and we really really did take ONE whole hour.

We got out of The Glasshouse at 8,reached Ming at 9.05pm lor!! Lepas makan satu satu dah macam ular siak, pemalas! Tapi ayn la yang paling pandai, govt buat MRT tak nak pakai, CHOOSE TO WALK. Die die nak jalan. Tsk. But when we finally arrived, we started straightaway! and I love the fact that cash allows us to use their instruments freely!!! Yay!!! So we were jiggling and shaking and making hella lot of noise! It was more noise than there was singing,truth be told! And they were surprised that I knw how to sing Biarla Rahsia by Siti Nurhaliza. HAHAHAHHA. Be AMAZEDDDD PEOPLE!!! But okay what I sing!! hahahha,puji diri sendiri eh! Tapi betol, OKAY LA. Tak la macam nak sumbat cotton that kind. Heh.

So ya laaaaa, kiter berjogetjoget dangdut, tarian seme keluar! The dancer in us was unleashed. Mummy said that we had to respect Ramadhan,esp on my birthday, so warned me against clubbing,so we made our own club la pat dalam tu bilik!!! Bisingggg tersangatsangat. Ayn,biaser jugakkkk, dok tengah tengah pegang tu mike and sing. TU LAH KEJE DIER, TANGKAP JAMBU AND KELUARKAN SUARE while the rest of us go wild n outtttZ. Kirekan kiter macam clown dier ah konon, suke sgt suro kiter joget jogettttt. NABEYYYYYYYYYYY~ hahahha anyway it was gooddddd. We were at it for 4 whole hours and only got off nearly 1am!!!! ((:

By this point, everybody was sweaty and tired but that didnt end there lorrr. We were quite hungry so while Ira went off to take her pay at Novena, the rest of us cabbed to Adams for Sahor! Went back home at 2am, put my stuffs,and came back out,just in time for sahor,and another round of bual merepekkkkk and laughing our asses off. So like Ive said earlier this entry, I only got back at 5am on the 4th. SHIOKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

And it was even drizzling abit,so the weather was perfect. I feel so blessed! Okay so that was my 3rd & 4th Sept entry. Will write about my 5th of Sept,the day bb & I went out for Iftar with Zurr, Iman, Zan,Julz, Ayu & Irwin at Tong Seng and that crazy game night at Al- Majlis. Left at 11pm,to go to JB with my dearest family n with bb!! Thank you Daddy for the treat,it was yummy,and I am forever thankful for my family,for always being there. I LOVEE YOU MUMMYYY DADDYYY & MEIMEIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII. XOXOXOOXOX.

SUPPER WAS GOOD. SHOPPING AT 3AM WAS GOODD!!! YAY, have NO reason at all NOT to feel blessed,cause I realised that I really am blessed. Alhamdulilahhhhhhhh,Syukor.

Okayy will save that for another entry kaysss,am super tired.I have class in 5 hours so I better take my meds and sleep. Goodnight yalls. SAKITTT PEROTTTT,masyallah.

♥ twenty two

Good Morning yall! Its coming to 5am,and I just got back from meeting the girls. I had such a blast, and I enjoyed it tremendously. Thank you Aisya Azira Ayn,Syasya & Yaya for dinner,the company was fantastic especially. It has been such a long time to have everybody sit the same table, at the same time and it was refreshing after a very long time. Fish & Co dinner was great,they gave me a huge ass card,filled with photos and pretty graffiti, and adorable cupcakes! The cupcakes were black and hot pink, my favourite colours.

They made me stand on the chair, sang me THE song, and it was exhilarating to be standing up so high and know that I was surrounded by my favourite girls. Felt so,so,so good. And Im sure I am supposed to feel this good on my birthday. I am beyond elation, even more so because I have 2 days off.

Its 5 now,and I want to crash. Will post up photos once Kayla stops being such a bitch. Night yall. Have a good 4th of September! (:
Happy Birthday Beyonce & Dan Miller!

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Was supposed to meet Aidil at 730pm at Vivo,but only managed to wake up at 730pm. Was so tired and drowsy after the competition that I went straight to bed. The competition was alright, & no, we didnt get into the finals,but its alright. Alot of hiccups along the way, but syukor, I managed to still keep my fast. With competition down, I can finally just concentrate on work & school.

It is going to be the last few weeks of school,and I am left with 1 more major assignment and I think about 2 more tests before we can finally wrap up our Research module in Singapore. I am still deciding between my quantitative or qualitative paper, and I seriously do not know which to choose. Such a headache.

Baby bought me a very pretty Nike jacket in Royal Purple,and I love it so much. He has the same one,that I bought him for his 25th,only in a different colour. Abit menyampah to be wearing the same design but I like! ((: I think its cute.

Im actually glad for Ramadhan because I get to see more of my family,which is great because at 4.50am in the morning all of us will be laughing our ass off while watching Just For Laughs. So Thank God for that. Speaking of which, I need to sleep like right now cause Im doing another morning tomorrow,NOT lookin forward to it and i WILL make sure I go for the 1st break so I can have my one hour nap.

Nights now.

♥ gift of the gap

Ahhhh, I miss my girls! I cant wait to meet them on Thursday for dinner! We are going to The Glasshouse,and I cant wait. I have 2 more hurdles to go through. Competition tomorrow,and a Morning shift on Thursday before Dinner in the evening! ((: Oh God, I have been quite well behaved and hardworking these past weeks, can faster fast forward time just a tiny bit? I would appreciate it so much. Mwahmwahkisskiss.

Anyway, I just got back from my shift,and I am so tired and shagged. For the first time in my life, I am so tired of talking so much! You guys are hearing it right. I am so tired of talking so much today, I just want to zip my mouth and embrace silence. I had two students with me,during shift,so I had to teach,teach,teach and teach. Like neverending leh! Being a teacher is definitely tough. Just when you think you want to stop talking, you cant! Cause there are so much you feel that you need to impart, and so much that the students should learn. But a job well done,and a pat on my shoulders,because I think I did cover a very broad spectrum of skills and topics today,and Thank God my students are nice.

They thank me over and over and over again, and during break fast one of them came up to me and asked, " You never tired ah, talk so much?!" So I replied, " Ive got the gift of the gap la,what to do." Dah buke, menjadi jadi eh mulot! Hahaha,of course la,she laughed after that,so I know she was kidding. Kalau tidak, bedpan tu aku sumbat pat mulot kau. Hahahha,masyallah!

Hurhurhur. I think I am gifted like that.Its amazing how I can just talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk nonstop. Tsk. So yah tonight, I promised God that I would keep quiet, listen to Ayatul Qursi on replay and probably just sleep WITHOUT calling baybee to say goodnight.

And of Aidil's niece,Razika,who is like 5, drew me a Teachers Day card and gave it to me on Sunday. Howwww Sweet. My next target after my Bachelor of Science is to probably pursue a Masters degree,and when I am done with my education, I would want to return to ITE to teach Nursing,the place where I first started cause like how Duxton Plains says it, "They have been inspired, so its their turn to inspire." Same concept! Hahahha.That is my ultimate dream,in many many years to come,so we shall see if I end up being a lecturer or not. SINCE I LIKE TO TALK SO MUCH RIGHT. hahahhaha. Insyallah.

kayysss enough of this. I need to sleep and since I promised God, I better fulfil my promise. Okayyy byeeee people!