♥

Being stuck at Bb's house was alright actually! After dinner, bb bathed and slept,leaving me to entertain myself. Told me to wake him up in 30mins,so did my own stuffs, and talked to the girls online! It was soooo good! ((: Talked to aisyaa azyra syasya iqahh ismahbb,blessed definitely! Dont know what the fuck we talked about la. Convo-ed with aisya ira and syasya about a mutual friend of ours,we fought over aisya's fb password and acc(everytime i clicked a photo,i had to re-log in cause ira was fighting with me over who gets to get into fb first!!! NABEYYY funnyyy fuckkkkk) cause diedie wanna see how our friend turned out after 20349239042 years of not hearing about her,and then talking about dontknow whatfuckkkelse and thennnnnnn talked to iqah to CANNOT REMEMBER!!! hahahahha den am still talking to ismah til now!!

AWWW LOVEEEE!=I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDSSSSSSSSSSSS AND I CANNOT LIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Have you guys noticed the fucking great weather lately? I love monsoon season cause all you wanna do is curl between ur sheets and sleep. Something that I am very deprived of but you know, the idea is there and it is usually a fucking great idea if you have time in the evening after work. Woah.

Anyway Ismah just reminded me of her engagement date,and SERIOUSLY, i can do like a checklist lor. and if got checklist,it would be something like this;

1) Naj

Engaged? [X]

Married? [X]

2) Shaz

Engaged? [X]

Married? [ ]

if No,please specify

Wedding in 1st half 2010!!! (SO AS GOOD AS CHECKED LOR -_____- )

[X]

3) Ismah

Engaged [ ]

if No,please specify

engagement in ONE month SO ALSO AS GOOD AS CHECKED!!)

4) Ana

Engaged [ - ]

Married [ - ]

SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD RIGHT. Hahahhahah!!!!

WITH A CHECKLIST LIKE THAT,

LIKE AS IF I NEEDED TO BE REMINDED THAT IM THE ONLY ONE LEFT AMONG THE FOUR OF US WHO ISNT ENGAGED OR MARRIED.

Sometimes I dont know how my girls do it actually,how they can just wake up one day and just decide to get married and there 3 months down the road, married happily with a kid in tow AFTER the wedding night. WOW WOO WHEE.

For example, I had the exact instinct like a month or 2 back,and actually did believe that being engaged would be a fucking great idea but then I thought about it,and after 3 days, the urge went away,and I was back to loving the cohabitation idea. Its like it was never supposed to happen,like after Day 3, I was like, "what the hell was I thinking??" ): of course bb also assured me countlessly that sememangnye dier memang nak tunang,tapi tak tersampai hajatnya yang ikhlas itu. HAHHAHAH. macam2!

ANYWAYYYYY, bb said the sweetest thing ever today,just a couple of minutes ago.

"ana,sorry if i cant provide you with money and wealth.

i can only make you happy by jadi your badot."

SWEETEST EVER. EVER,EVER,EVER,EVER. You are my favourite badot,bb!!! dengan rela hati summore say like that!!! Hahaha, he actually made me laugh at 123o in the morning,because I ALWAYSSSS ask him to do stupid stuffs so that I can laugh at him!!!! Really!!! Hahahha. Ask him to dance in public, shake his ass, wriggle his tummy, pinch his face, ruffle his hair,tell him to repeat funny words and alot more other things lah. but sometimes he really damnnnn adorable and damnnn funny lehhh. The length he goes to make me laugh is ridiculous!!!

you know 4 years ago, when we first met at bk,when i first saw him in his army uniform,i didnt expect him to be the way he is right now. Such a fantastic surprise. Just have to thank God,for making our paths cross the 2nd time. Thank god,alhamdulilah. Thank you for putting an end to all the assholes,and jerks Ive had, thank youuu for FINALLY deciding to bless me with at least a decent one. Bb's not perfect,but hes perfect for me. THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUU.

okayyy gg to bathe and sleep! love you mommyyy daddyyy meimeiii(who is awayyyy right now,miss u!),all my girlfriendss,ALL, my friends,bbloveee & lastly u guys out there kays. have a freaking fantastic Friday! xoxo. im in such a good mood today,i know its going to be a great day.

♥

9 more freaking days before my off day next Friday. Like my extraction site is not painful enough, I have to deal with tonsilitis,and when an infection sets in, I will be down with fever in no time.

Heading to Crowne Plaza Changi Airport this Sat,cause we have a room, &&& WOOOOHOOOO,SWIMMING!! Going with Aidil's 1st and 3rd sisters' family,and ni aidil ni pun one kind, besarkan gig!! APER BAGOSNYE GIG NIII. Sumpah menyampah! So if Im not tired after work, ill be soaking in the pool! Other than that, hmmmmmm,morning shift for 3 days straight,tell me about it,SUMPAH MALAS. but working with Penghuat so,not so bad!! Looking forward to going home and sleeping.

Havent talked to bb for TWO FREAKING DAYS!!!! Can u believe it? We have never gone this long without talking to each other,so its pretty sucky but I shall be a good girlfriend and stop whining cause bb is doing freelance stage work for Esplanade,on top of his 9-5 job,pasal member nak kumpul duit nak kawin! Hahaha,dont know how true is that,but thats what he told me,so who am i to complain kan! Kalau I bising2 now, den aidil cannot afford the T&C,den akuuuu jugak yang mangkok kan?? So i better shut up! Hahhaha. But i hope he knows what hes doing,I dont want him to be tiring himself out just for me,and then luperkan diri,luperkan family. Insyallah!

Okay, so came home and watched Idols with Dad (THE FIRST!) FINALLY FAISAL ISA IS OUT. Am so relieved. I dont know why I still see girls crying when he was announced the boot! HE SHOULD HAVE GONE LONG AGO GIRLS! Godddddddddd. Oh wells, am happy abt the top FOUR! Im rooting for Tabi though,thinks shes good!

Okay headache already. Want to shower and crash. Am uploading my KL photos on fb, after a freaking year! Procrastination at its best. Hurhur. Kk nighttt

♥ geram

Okay so it seems aisya broke up with her bf for good today,and boy am i glad. you guys can say that I am such a lousy friend for feeling happy about such a thing like this,but who needs a boyfriend if you have a boyfriend like him? aisya should have left him a long time ago! and seriously what type of guy is he, dah break mintak balik birthday present yang dier kasi kan aisya? EH HELLO, CAMERA KAU TU TAK SEBERAPE LA,AS COMPARED TO THE PS3 THAT SHE BOUGHT PAINSTAKINGLY FOR YOU.

there are so many reasons why she shouldnt be with you,asshole. Cut the crap about 'jalankan amanah' or wanting to guide her to the right path. ARE U KIDDING ME? kau maner punye lurus yang kau nak guide dier nih. Ader ker dier cakap ira & I influence aisya buat jahat???? KIMAK. aisya is freaking 22, kau pk dier takle buat decisions sendiri? and seriously JAHAT APER NI YANG AKU N IRA BUAT. sumpah tak le accept. okay maybe kalau dier tak suke aisya gi clubbin and we always club ocassionally during birthdays, fine,accepted tapi kalau dier tak suke aisya kuar dgn girlfriends dier setakat dudok makan,have dinner in town,simply hanging out tu, aper cakap????

I qoute one example. a few months ago, i wanted to see the dr at hougang poly so i asked aisya if she could accompany me cause she lives in hougang. so coincidentally, her ear infection came back and she wanted to see the dr on the same day as well,so we meet up and then aisya was telling her bf that she was with me at the poly. and do you know what did asshole say???? " NI MESTI KORANG DAH PAKAT NAK KUAR LA NI." and he got damnnnn angry and they actually fought u knw cause he thought that aisya lied to him abt gg to poly,like as if she said that she wanted to go poly but wanted to meet me insted.and some other stuffs that implied that aisya n i pakat-ed to meet to go out and have fun. SERIOUSLY, MEREPEK KE TAK. salah kape aisya jumpe aku gi doctor samer2??? tu pun kene mintak permission kau????

den the next question follows. SAPE SIAL KAU. nak cakap bapak dier amanahkan kau jage aisya? in what way am i harming aisya setakat jumpe dier pat poly and g tgk dr same2 eh?? fucking chibai.

abeh just now, he texted aisya like nonstop telling her to fucking leave her alone so aisya didnt reply cause MALAS nak layan asshole macam dier,and this asshole texted her like dont know how many texts to tell her that he wanted his stuffs back!!! so we drove down to aisya's place, collected his stuffs and then drove to his place and aisya called him to come down.

he REFUSED TO COME DOWN SIALSSSS. pukimak betol.den cakap family dier seme dah tido,takle bukak pintu cause bising!!! WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. aku peh geram!!! den i told aisya to tell him kalau dier tak nak turun in 30mins, cakap dgn dier kiter akan naik.

cause its like already 1 freaking am,and hello? sape nak g layan lamer2 pat bawah blk rumah orang kan? so finally he texted and said," since when i want it urgently??? kau takde otak pe,aku tgh tido and u come merging at my house?" MERGING KAPE BANGGGGG. its barging lor.

nabey but yah he is the one who frantically wanted his stuffs back and when we drove all the way across the country to pass him his stuffs, member BELIT CERITE. keling nak mampossssssssssssss sial. at last, aisya just left his cheap stuffs at his doorstep and left and his fucker can ask her to take it back or elseeee. PUKIMAK. nampak sangat dah merepek ah ni jantan,dah nak start threaten2 orang. be careful who u are threatening tau cik abang wafiudin. aku warning kau dulu. dah lamerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr kite sabarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

NASIBBBB baikkk ex gf kau ni penyabar and tak kurang ajar. kalau kau matair dgn orang macam aku n ira, aku dah lamer dah ketok pintu biar seme bangun. kau dah buat aku gadoh dgn family aku,kau pk aku ni nak pk pasal family kau???? hes just lucky that aisya just wanted to leave it like that. FUCKERRR MAN.

I am so freaking angry. dah possessive takpe, obssessive. dah obsessive takpe, bual macam keling. bual macam keling takpe,perangai mcm chibai. aku sumpah tak percaye ader jantan umur 25 yang perangai macam budak kecik. ader hati cakap dgn aisya, "suro kawan u seme jgn masok campor, jgn nak jage tepi kain orang." HEYYYY dari dulu dah aku cakap, kau mess dgn kawan kite, kau mess dgn kiter bodoh. u talk bad about us, throwing accusations all over, u think we are all going to just sit on it??????? FAT HOPE.

MEMANG KITE SURO AISYA BREAK DGN KAU. PASAL KAU LELAKI MEREPEK. IVE HAD MY FAIR SHARE OF ASSHOLES,BUT NEVER IN MY LIFE,IVE SEEN A BIGGER ASSHOLE THAN U.

KAU BUAT MALU KAUM LELAKI KAU TAU TAK. IKOTKAN HATI NAK AJE AKU TAMPAL GAMBAR KAU PAT BLOG ENTRY NI SO EVERYBODY KNOW WHO THE FUCK U ARE.BUT I DONT WANT TO CEMAR MY BLOG WITH UR FACE. JIJIKKKKKKKKKKKKKK KAU TAU?

aku kalau tau kau akan buat kawan aku gini,aku akan suro pakcik kau(kau nak tau tak sape pakcik kau nye favourite nurse????),yang aku jage pat hospital,suro dier azankan pat telinge kau sikit. maybe if he is still alive,he is able to tell his favourite nephew the proper way to treat a girl. seriously.

nak cakap dier nak didik aisya, pendidikan aper yang dier ader? all our boyfriends are trying to didik us what,but they have never degraded us in any way. they have never called us cheap,they have never insulted us,never our families. din, mungkin kau salah bawak ah. kau gi matair dgn pompan lain ah sudah. kau cakap aisya cheap,pompan rolling seme, kau pegi ah dgn pompan yang lebih baik. aisya kan cheap. plabutohhh,after all this,and if i hear that u come running back to aisya like u always do, kau siap. selame ni,uve never heard from me personally right? kau cakap kiter macam2,kiter diam aje tau. ingat,enough is enough.

and aisya kalau after this,kau masih nak dgn si pukimak ni,aku tak tau nak cakap aper. seriously. the only reason why he keeps doing this to u is u let him,so please stop this cycle,get rid of his negative energy,hes never going to do u any good. its proven today.

♥ WANT TO DIE AH?

Good morning earthlings! (: Story of my life is, yday (technically) started out very early. As early as 8am in the freaking morning! Mummy woke me up and I was rushed to shower, put on some decent clothes,some shirt and tracks,and head to the bank,only to find that there were only 4 people queueing in front of me,trying to get into the bank as well. I shouldnt have rushed, cause Mummy only arrived like 30mins after that. Finally bought my bank draft, and today, OUT OF ALL THE DAYS IN THE YEAR, the exchange rate was the highest EVARRRR, 1.31!!!! Almost 13 grand sing for 9 odd grand aussie. WHICH IS CRAZYYYYYYYY. Should have bought earlier this year,so we wont lose so much money! Lesson learnt definitely.

Headed to my agent's office,straightafter, signed the necessary documents, settled my VISA for 2 years and then after talking for like 2 whole freaking hours, Mummy & I went to Harbourfront for Brunch! Had gado-gado, nasi lemak,nasi ayam and juice! Mummy blanje cause broke. Lousy daughter I am,but I promise i will bring my fam out for dinner,next week! Janji manis okay. hehehe,so still had an hour to spare,walked around vivo, went to my favourite shop in Vivo which is the National Geographic, showed mum around, aku dah macam tour guide!! Who doesnt like going into National Geographic,right?

Love looking at the photographs,the antiques,the different travellers book..love the place! I think mum loved that place too,right mummy!! Hahahha. Anyway too bad that she had to go to work,cause she had a client,if not we would spend more time together! Its not always that I get to go out with Mum,so I really love times like this. Mummy can be strict when I need taming,but shes really great and funny sometimes and my friends can vouch for that. Shes the driving force behind all ive accomplished so far,and nothing I do will be able to match up with what she has done for me & meimei. Nothing. I love you long time mammmmehhh! ((:

So yalah,after walking around, I headed home,cause my head was starting to hurt. This extraction is giving me problems, headaches and now I think Im developing ulcers and even tonsilitis. Napped for about 3 hours,before Aisya & Azyra came over.

Okay am going to talk about the rest of the stuffs in a separate entry. HEHEHE.

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Hello everybody. Today was the dreaded day. All i can say is, I am glad that I didnt do it over the weekends,that I waited it out after our getaway. Cause it was so bad. I have never experienced a pain sooooooooooooooooooooo excruciating as this one. And I am not even kidding.

So I was supposed to work today,but when I woke up at 5 this morning, my whole jaw hurt. Like somebody just punched me,and my gums were swollen so I knew I had to rush to NDC as early as I could but of course, 5am where got national dental centre open right. So took my painkillers and missed call Dr Joanna,left her a text that I couldnt wait any longer and wanted to do the extraction ASAP. She called me back at 9am,telling me that she could squeeze me in at 1015.

Went to NDC,and was straightaway brought to the xray dept to do my periapical xray which is the 2nd photo. If u want, u can click on it and look at it enlarged. The tooth on your left, the slanted one is my wisdom tooth. Hasnt erupted yet and its still under the gums. The middle one is the problematic motherfucker! The black patch in the tooth is the infection decayed site which is giving me the problems,and upon looking at the xrays, she gave me two choices.

One, to save the tooth. Root canal treatment to remove all the infection and decay, fill the tooth in, trim my gums,which means, cut it, and then fix a crown. It would take a month before completion so I had to live with the pain while im undergoing treatment. Only after the treatment,then she would go on with my braces. Removal of all the brackets, Im 80% done,which is good to hear,the ONLY good thing I heard so far about my teeth. So whats left is to try and deal with my lower teeth,which still has gaps.

2nd choice is to remove it asap. Drag my wisdom tooth out with surgery cause NO WAY am i going through another extraction with being conscious and kicking. NO WAY. and then move on with my orthodontic treatment.

so of course I chose the 2nd one cause I cannot deal with pain,my pain treshold is ZERO,nonexistant. the 3rd photo is the photo of the local anasthesia needle she used to inject the anasthesia. Despite of triple the dosage,I still kicked her, bit her fingers and was screaming like a mad woman. needed 4 nurses and 1 doctor to hold my head and hold me down. If you ask me, my painscore is 30940293402342234234324 over 10. IM SERIOUSSSS. I remembered telling her to cut my gums open and take it out.I cried and cried and wailed and wailed and screamed and begged her to stop,but of course she didnt and after 30 mins of tugging and pulling my fucking stubborn tooth, it finally came out!!!!!!!! I was shaking after the entire extraction and she gave me an ice cream to calm down and to help with the pain. But alhamdulilah!

With the tooth out, the pain was lesser. But was bleeding quite badly. She got quite worried at first cause being anaemic and bleeding, not really a good combination. But it managed to stop after 45 mins. She took a photo of me right after the extraction,which was nice of her. Im really glad that all the drs who takes care of me,be it my gastro consultant, and my dentist, im glad that they are all niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Having a good and kind dr does really make a difference u know.

Before the extraction, the nurse told her that she had 3 other patients waiting for her,but she still wanted to do the extraction herself,and told the nurse to reschedule. she assured and calmed me down,and I think thats very important. build rapport with ur patients and they will trust you,like how ive trusted her. I first met her at A&E,and she was nothing short of kind,helpful and really friendly. I knew that gg with the specialist meant that they were good at extraction,and they would take it out for me easily,but i guess, if ur going under the knife, better do it with somebody u trust.

I was still crying while having my solero ice cream,but i felt better right after. Sighs, anyway, Im glad that I went through with it,and got it over and done with. Im still feeling sore,and Im sad that I have to miss my ward's chalet tonight. I bet they are all having fun without me..SAD LOR. but I cant with all the pain and everything. I wish I could,but I think i better sit out on this one.

Okayyy, am waiting for bb to fetch me for dinner. we are having porridge at i dont know why.Anybody knows where to get good porridge? Okayyyyyyyy am going to the bank with mommy tomorrow, go to the agent's to settle my visa, and then probably just rest and recuperate at home. the extraction is giving me headaches. gosh.

ok toodles everybody. ohh I know i was supposed to blog about Mandarin Oriental,but maybe later when I get back kays? ((: Have a good one,yalls.

♥

AM BACK! Anybody miss me? Awwwwwwww,had such a wonderful time with BB for our anniversary ! Wished that we really didnt have to go back! ((: Will have to blog about it another time,cause its coming to 1am,and Im due for a morning shift in 6 hours.

Work later and dental appointment right after work! YESSS YOU HEARD ME RIGHT! Yup, after 6 years, I am FINALLY meeting the dentist to take out my severely infected 2ND Molar which has been causing me ALOT of pain for the past few days. I AM GOING FOR A TOOTH EXTRACTION TMR!!! ((: I cant wait,cause the pain is terrible! Worst than my parotitis pain you know?! Then maybe taking off my lower braces,and Im going to meet a new orthodontist to help me fix my braces or what is left of it. HAHAHHAHHA AT LAST. Ive been having my braces for SIX FREAKING YEARS SO ITS HIGH TIME.

okayyyy am uploading all the photos on fb, and then after the uploading is done, I AM CRASHING. nighty night.

♥ YAYYYYY

Pack,packing & packed for our 52nd!

Im ready to go.
See you babies in two days!

♥

" cause when you are fifteen,

and somebody tells you they love you,

you're gonna believe them.

And when you are fifteen,

feeling like

theres nothing to figure out,

but count to ten,

take it in.

this is life,

before you know

who you're gonna be,

fifteen"

Fifteen, Taylor Swift.

♥

Just random photos,which hasnt make it up fb yet. I've got loads of photos to upload into fb but havent had the time to do so,cause it has been crazy. Time flies,and in afew hours, im due for work, AGAIN. No off til next week ):

Anyway, I was really glad that it did rain earlier today, and that made me so sleepy. Woke up only close to 1pm, cooked lunch,watched tv,and I was humoured by Chuggington, which was a cartoon series about trains and they call themselves Chuggers. Damn adorable. Ate lunch, and did all of the slacking with the fucking fantastic weather. There was a slight drizzle throughout the afternoon,so that made my house really cooling,and I love it. Nothing beats lying on the mattress in front of the balcony,rolling around like a fat lazy snake on a rainy day.

Not long, Aisya & Syasya came over. Watched Rachel Ray,and Tina Knowles was the judge for her Single Ladies face off,which was won by the adorable but obviously gay man-dancer. Thought that the teachers were fantastic! Headed out to play monopoly,since all of us felt like slacking!

Didnt know where to go,so we took 147 and dropped at Serangoon,right in front of bb's house,which was next to our secondary school. Haha! Dont ask why I went to school at Zhonghua for 5 years and dropped off at the same bustop right in front of his house and still our paths didnt cross, dont ask me that eh. But our paths did cross,in 03! But unknowingly.

I felt a little nostalgic,walking through the blocks with my girls,cause we used to wait for each other under bb's block before heading to school together. And usually when that happens it is usually already 730am,so we were always late so we had to run all the way from his block to school! Hahahahaha,bende bende bodoh eh kiter buat! Padahal satu2 datang siang!

Oh wells, so we settled for 330,called Ikha and she came and joined us with hidayat. And we started our game! To conclude, I LOST LOR. Its really the first time in a long,long,long while since I lost badly! I had to mortgage my land and rip off all of my houses leh! God. But yah, not long after Apis and Bb came,and guess what, all the boys know each other,as in hidayat kenal apis and bb lahhhh,apis n yat went to the same ite, and bb & yat did the same ethnic activity which I REFUSE to mention cause sumpah aku ingatkan aku tak kan kenal dgn orang dari ___ lagi tapi rupernye2 timbol jugakkkkk. Tskkkk.but since hes dating my girlfriend,i guess it doesnt really matter.

BUT it is weird,but I guess stuffs like these happen all the time. Monopoly went on for 4 freaking hours, before I admitting defeat and I surrendered to bankruptcy. Sighs. I hate to lose in Monopoly lor,seriously. Cause i dont usually lose this bad!!!! )):

Aiyah its already 4am in the morning,no use getting sore over it. My mission for this month is to crack my brain and find a way to settle my finances. Im going to the bank next week to open another bank acc,and then heading over to my agent's to finally settle my VISA. Leceh! Okay anybody who knows a way to earn extra money without working? Please suggest! Dont tell me to sell Nayla pls,even though it might be worth a few thousand dollars,but please dont. Its my baby,and I worked hard to buy her!!! ):

Ok am gonna pee and then crash.

♥

just realised that my blog is full of bb's photos. okay from right now onwards, no more bb photos okay! heheheh.cannot blame me la, i find bb really adorable this few days!this few days only okay.hahahhaha dont know why leh. maybe the fact that he is really adorableeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee la. just adorable la kau aidilhaswin! mintak kene tepok pat dahi that kind of adorable. urghhhh ok bye.

♥

"Cause our song is the slamming screen door

Sneaking out late, tapping on his window

When we're on the phone and he talks real slow

Cause it's late and his mama don't know

Our song is the way he laughs

The first date "man, I didn't kiss him, and I should have"

And when I got home, before I said amen

Asking God if he could play it again"

Omg, Ive been spending the past 3 hours listening to Taylor Swift. There is just something about her,about her voice,that I love too much. Maybe the clarity of her voice, how naive and carefree she sounds at the same time? Maybe. I have never imagined myself adoring a country music artist like how I adore Taylor,but hey hey, Im amazed myself. But whats there not to love about her,really? Like 90% of her songs are very,very catchy lor!

She definitely has a flair in song-writing(its so obvious) and Im not surprised that she WON a national poetry competition with a 3 page long poem that she wrote herself at NINE! Hello?!

Most of her songs are very teenageque, and even at 22, I feel good listening to her. I think she write good stuffs. Ive always loved Tim Mcgraw when it first came out in 06,it sounded insanely sad,but it was a beautiful song. After that, I fell in love with Our Song,which was my anthem for a little while when it came out,cause i fell in love with the music video! Taylor was so cheeky and really pretty in that one. I dont know why she wrote about Tim Mcgraw, who is Faith Hill's husband, and probably for some tribute thingy since both of them are country singers. And then Teardrops on my Guitar became a hit or something and I fell in love with that one too.

And then 2 years later, when her album,Fearless, came out in 08, I fell in love with Love Story,and I still love it up til today! Fifteen, You Belong With Me, Forever & Always, White Horse,Fearless also nice! Aiyah I sound like a starstruck teenager,but you cant blame me,can you? Sighs. Soooo nice,and its probably old stale news but I was pissed when Kanye West went up the stage and took the mic away from her. So poor thing right! She deserves it for all the hardwork,and I think shes brilliant! God bless her.

& I still cannot believe Im still up listening to her songs,and singing alone in my room at 5am in the morning! Oh God. Im just glad that I dont to work today. Im so tired. I feel so lerthagic,I came home yday after my morning shift and slept from 5pm til about 11pm! Aisya bb came over for a little while, had lunch and then when she left,I slept!

Talked to bb for a little while and then talked to Mummy about school,the house and everything else. So Im supposed to go to Ubin today and meet the girls at 10 later,but I doubt I would be able to make it,cause it would be like another morning shift. Thinking of just being at home,and resting cause my shoulders hurt and for the fact that my next off is only going to be NEXT friday,which is ridiculous. Like if i go Ubin and tire myself out, I can only rest properly next friday because my shift is PM AM PM AM PM AM and it goes on like that til next friday. SUCKY i know.

Sighs. Im going to shower a little bit,re charge Kayla's battery and then sleep. Hopefully it rains damnnnnnnnn heavily in the morning cause I want to sleep! Seriously. I need to catch up on sleep. Pronto.

♥ beautiful

Like the clouds you,drift me away, far away

Like the sun you, brighten up my day

I love you,is an understatement. It was one of the best dates we've had together in a very long,long while. Bb & I havent had alone time for the longest time,and Im glad that we finally did. Rode to vivo to shop, had scrumptious supper/dinner at KTM and then painstakingly rode up the Henderson Waves.

It was perfect,having Norah Jones in the background, fantastic weather,and the boyfriend's arm to curl up with. I couldnt ask for more,except for another thick blanket perhaps bcuz it was getting chilly as it got later. By 1am,the head lights went off,and we could actually see many stars from where we were. I like just staring up the sky,and having nothing come between us,just me, my arms in his,and the sky,nothing else mattered.

Sighs. Its good to be in love,and being loved back,doubled even. Syukor Alhamdulilah. I just met him again, yday, he really did come and fetch me from work. Hahaha. Shared a plate of fries,iced lychee and tea at Adams,and I decide to settle for home cause Im working again today.

Its ridiculous do you know? My next off is in TWO freaking days,and I cannot wait! I feel so overworked. Im busy with nothing else,but work. Irritating. Ive got a birthday bash at the Aranda Country Club,end of month. Iqah's family invited ours,so hopefully mom and dad doesnt have to work and we could all go! (:

Okay Im due for work right now. Gotta shower,and get my ass working. Sighs. Another morning shift tomorrow,and OFF wednesday. COME ONNNN ANA.

♥ HAVE GOT URS YET?

OMG SO WE FINALLY WENT TO MUSTAFA TO GET OUR MEMBERSHIPS DONE! BOTH BB AND I ARE MEMBERS! EXCITED! ((:

I think that the card is really very pretty, its not those lousy paper lamenated stuffs that they do very shabbily behind the counter, they do it VERY nicely! Its a REAL card, and its a GORGEOUS metallic silver. The best thing is, the whole process doesnt even take like 10 mins! They take ur fingerprints(I KNOW DAMN HIGH TECH LOR), and then TAKE A FREAKING PHOTO of you,and then key in your details, and thennnnn you get your card printed in like 3 mins! AM I KIDDING YOU,APPARENTLY NOT. HAHHHHHHH.

Im pretty certain that I might have spent a few thousand dollars in Mustafa over the years,and seriously the only thing I can whine about is WHY ONLY NOW. Sighs,but better late than never right! Hahahha. Okay.

Okay i should stop talking about M,cause some people will NEVER just get why I like going to Mustafa so why should I bother even telling right! Haha. So yday (technically) was THE results day. I was freaking nervous and I woke up like fucking late!

Was supposed to be in school at 10am,woke up at 950am! and RANNNN for my life! Thank God, Mr Seow havent started so we were all mingling around feeling nervous altogether and all I can say is Syukor Alhamdulilah that I managed to bag a DN! A freaking Distinction. All the nights that I stayed up,in the hospital nursing my Gastritis was worth it. To be frank, Ive had my doubts,cause during that crucial two weeks, was the two weeks which I was hospitalised!

Talk about timing right. Wanted to ask my classmates for help,but well,to each his own,so yeah I guess I just had to rely on myself. God bless Mr Seow for his patience,with my whinings! I am just thankful that I made it through. Of course I cannot just be complacent and even though its a distinction, I must aim for better results! But this would be a stepping stone for me, Syukor Alhamdulilah! So im pretty pleased with it.

Went onto MSN,and chatted with afew of my girlfriends. One,got very heart broken,and it came to a point where she actually reminded me of myself when I was younger. Naive and young,and all I thought about was WHY did it have to happen to me,WHY did it have to be my heart that he breaks? WHY WHY WHY. The only thing I could say to the boy(not a man yet,cause men dont break hearts,boys do.thank you) is FUCK YOUUUUU.

Seriously I hope u rot and die (or die and rot,whichever comes first) and have maggots feasting on ur corpse because a person like you is no girls' dream or fantasy except for maybe Shrek's(inside joke),nothing to be even worth waiting for. Seriously? If u think breaking another person's heart,be it a girl or a man, is funny,it seriously isnt eh. Sape2 yang pk funny,deserves to be hung off a cliff over a dungeon of prickly thorns.

It hurtssssssssssssssssssssss but watch out cause the only good that will come out after getting hurt is getting and being stronger at the end. So u fucking watch out,u piece of sleaze. GERAM TERSGT SGT KALAU DENGARDENGAR CITE GINI. Tsk.

Takpe since I always tell my girls,biar orang buat kite,jangan kiter buat orang, BIARRRR DIERRRRR. He will get his karma,in the bitchiest meanest way possible.

& M, dont worry, ull get over this phase and ull turn round and look back,laugh and ask yourself why did u even bother! (: *hugs*

k enuff. Its TWO FREAKING AM. I need to wake up at 5am,cause SURPRISE SURPRISE kakak keje pagi. THANKSSSSSS~

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Wassup yalls! Just got back from meeting Bb. Had an instant craving for icecream,so we got icecream for myself and sat at the lobby and talked. Im thankful that we cleared some air, its always good to let off steam,and clear the air. Ultimately we were good again. After the serious talk, i managed to feel much much better! We went back to hugging and holding hands,something which Im very comfortable with. So he rode back home,in the rain. Poor bb. Hopefully he got home safely,still hasnt texted me yet. Insyallah.

So today was pretty alright. I was still busy at work, there were afew slipups with the roster,so we were short of 2 staffs! So you can somehow imagine the marathon! but i work better under pressure than i work without pressure,so manage to hand over everything settled,and i had a very late lunch in the MOs room with Izzaidah Merlinda Lily & Viv! Maligah & Uma cooked fucking delicious curry, and it was soooo tasty!

Went straight home right after,and caught up with my GG episodes!!!! I cried!!! I am done with my Season 3 Ep 8,and boyyyy oh boyyyyyyyyyy, S&B WAR WAR WAR!! I think that they are damn ego lor,they should have just gotten over it and moved on! Tsk. But well,we shall see! And oh, love the part when Chuck crept into Blair's bed and hugged her from behind! Nobody does it better than Chuck lor seriously. Such a creeeeper,but like it. Think he has definitely grown from S1,and i like him better in S3! GORGEOUS.

Anywayyyy, am currently thinking about what to make aidil wear for Zoukout!!! (: Usually i would be the one mix matching his clothes before he goes out,not that I am a control freak like that but bb always lovessss his EARTHY colours!!! and i hate it! he likes brownnn, mudgreen, faded blueeee,EEEW. I like him in brighter bolder colours cause he looks good in them!! earthy colours makes him look old, put aside the fact that he is a quarter of a century but still,hello??!

so was thinkin if, he thinks that spending money on a zoukout outfit would be too much, im thinkin of just tellin wear the hot pink ripcurl boardshorts that he bought for Redang and its cute cause its hot pink! and we'll figure out about the top soon enuff. Hmmm. As for me?

I dont know man. I wore a tube dress,for my first zoukout,and that dress got pretty messed up after the party when we finally crashed at 7am the next morning.so we shall see! Im excited! Im currently convincing everybody i know to go! So if u guys are gg,tell me kays! Can see u guys there! okayyy gonna crash soon.

Im 7 hours away from getting my results back,and Im so freaking nervous!! Wish me luck people. Ttyl. Soonest.

bb: ana,i dah mandi,dah put lotion. gd night. love you!

I TAUGHT HIM WELL!!

ALHAMDULILAH HE HAS EMBRACED

MOISTURIZERS AND LOTIONS. SYUKOR!

my mission in life is complete. HAHRHHRAHAHA. bullshit. k bye.

b4 i forget,

TODAY IS THE 6TH OF NOVEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIME FLIES.

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Woooooo people. I just had THE busiest afternoon EVER. On some days,we are normally occupied with stuffs,because we can still manage with minimal manpower,but TODAY, I wish I was an octopus. Everybody had Hourlys,it was crazy! 2 Bloods,1 albumin, 2 platelets to run. TWO blood cultures, 1 lumbar puncture,and the list just goes on and on and on. And this is exclusive of the constant callbells, exclusive of all the trips to the sluce rooms, to clear urinals bedpans and commodes. OMG.

And oh yah exclusive of chemo,which I am grateful that I didnt have to put up. Tsk. Exclusive of patients having fever, pain,chills and rigour. Tsk. Post biopsy, post IT, post pct, post chemo,everything jumbled in one lah! And th best thing is, suspect kuat, I am in the same room tomorrow,managing my patients with another 2 of my colleagues,ON A MORNING SHIFT= KERAZEE btw.

It doesnt help that I think bb's acting abit shady today. Maybe hes tired,maybe hes tired of me, I dont know. But wells, maybe he needs his space. Amik la space kau banyak banyak. Jgn menyesal sudah biler Im a few thousand miles away from you and all you can depend on to hear my voice is a blurry webcam photo of my staring at you on your huge screen.PEERRRIIIOD.

Anyways, I managed to watch GG yday, and ooooo, Chuck looks so good when hes sleeping,dont you all think?? I know I used to like Nate alot, but in Season 3,I dont see much of him anymore so my attention is diverted to Chuck! Harharharharhar. I fell in love with him quite late in GG,only in Season 3,after I saw him on bed,sleeping with Blair behind. He looked so gorgeous! I feel like print screening that episode,and save his face! Awww gorgeous! (:

Bb just texted me,saying that he feels like having Macdees. Macdees would be so perfect in this cold weather! I would love to have McWings with Coke. SINFUL! Hmmmm. Tempting.

OHHHHH IVE GOT NEWSSS EVERYBODY! Hahahahaha. GREAT NEWS! I nearly choked on my Siewmai after reading that text message but I felt sooo happy! LIKE PRAISEEEE THE LORDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. Hahhahahhahaha!

Bb: Ana, i wanna ask you out,bole? Am sure u wanna go. I wanna do this before you fly.

ME: (being the overratedly mushy girlfriend that I am) of course I want,bb. Anywhere with you.

Bb: LETS GO ZOUKOUT

ME: OHHHH PRAISE THE LORDDDD!!!! YESSSSS YESSS OH YESSSSSS!!! SHALL WE GET TICKETS???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEASSSS! IM GOING TO TEXT ALL MY GIRLS AND WE COULD ALL GO TOGETHER!!! THIS SHIT MUST HAPPEN IF UR THE ONE WHO WANTS IT!! OHHH WE GOOO K!!!!

Hahahhahahahhaha,so that was what happened at 1230pm today. I nearly choked on my siewmai! Bb isnt the clubbing kind,and every time I want to club, he will nag and nag and nag( but of course he doesnt restricts me cause hes a nice bf) and everytime I ask him along, he would immediately say NO in my face. SOOOO for this coming from him, its HUGE. Its like an update worthy to be on fb!

But anyway he is being shady again,so what the fuck is the use of that you tell me. I just texted him goodnight and he texted me, "bye goodnight". WOAHHHHHHHHHHH ACTIONNNNNN. Takpe takpe. k need to shower and sleep.

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Can I just say something? This would probably make aidil scream,"GATAL!!" in my face,but I dont care. Can I just say that I seriously miss my long thick hair? I was vetting Farid's photos(more like doing some major cropping), and I talked to myself and thanked God that I was actually behind the lens,in almost 90% of the photos,and in those 10% of the photos,I looked UGLY. I am NOT ugly,but I look ugly. Theres a difference,okay? And its terrible. For once in my life,i am thankful that I am AWAY from the limelight,that I actually made a decision to be behind the lens,like GOD KNEW I WAS GOING TO LOOK DAMN BAD THAT DAY. And I actually feel like mosaic-ing my face,cause I cant even stand looking at myself. Thats how bad it is!

One lesson learnt.

NEVER STAY UP LATE AND GO TO BED

ONLY 3 HOURS BEFORE ANY IMPORTANT EVENT.

SOCIAL SUICIDE.

If you want to look as bad as me,go right ahead. Anyway,Ive posted up photos of the 2 german shepards which lives in the backyard,and the only thing I can say is that THEY LOOK DAMN MASSIVE! I was shocked when I first saw them,cuz they are really huge! Hahah,but they are police dogs,so that explains!

As long as I am not the one who cleans up after them,I am pretty alright with them being in the backyard. Bryan also took a picture of the pool, and i loved the pool! (: I love everything about the house, but the only thing is, its quite a distance from uni. We have a straight bus which brings us straight to uni,and the bustop is in front of our house,but it takes us 40mins! Frankly, at this point, im okay with travelling that kind of distance to school,its like me going to school in Simei last time,so its pretty alright I guess.

Macam orang duludulu cakap, "Jauh perjalanan,luas permandangan." Which is really true. If we stay near Uni, all our 3 years, we are only going to know that area. Whereas,if we live in another suburb, we get to see alot more,dont you think?

I cant wait for this Friday,going to meet the rest of my classmates to see Mr Seow,and hopefully get our results back. Afterwhich, we have to settle our VISA, some other miscellaneous stuffs and yup, the date is definitely drawing near. 6th February 2010.

Ive just checked out flight tickets, Qantas dont do direct flights to Adelaide. Stopover would be either in Melbourne or in Sydney,sounds like a fantastic idea also, but well, I would rather do a direct flight and get it over and done with right? SQ flies out direct,but it costs a bomb! )): Looks like we've got some major planning to do.

Oh wells, I better crash soon. Its 4am,and I am due for an afternoon shift later. Luckily I slept from 5pm til 10pm just now! Gonna pee,and then gonna head to bed! Hungry already lor even though I had wholemeal crackers and cheese just now. Sad. Im craving for Roti John from KTM!!!!! SEDAPPPPP NAK MAMPOSSSS. ok ok enough ana. bye yalls.

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Hello baybees! How was your Monday? I spent the entire day sleeping in,and enjoying the cool weather. Woke up at almost 4pm,cooked lunch and watched The Devil Wears Prada. Bb picked up me at about 730pm,rode to his house for dinner,and watched Scream Queens on VH1. Bb was tired so he sent me back home at about 10pm. Bb's so nice,even though i could see that he was very tired from work,he still rode all the way here to fetch me to his place just so we could have dinner together.

Got home and msn-ed with Azyra n Aisya about our upcoming December plans.Supposed to go to Mount Angsi with Ira but I forgot that I was supposed to go to Crowne Plaza at Changi Airport with BB's family that same weekend. Such a waste,cause it was really cheap!

Hmmmm, what else am I looking forward to? Getting back results of my Research paper this coming Friday,so that would be a nerve-wrecker. I seriously do not know how I would fare,but Im hoping for the best. Insyallah.

Im going to crash cause Im due for work in less than 7 hours. Gotta wake up at 5.30pm,and oh before I forget, Im supposed to collect my award for the Nursing Competition later,so hopefully I dont trip myself when I walk up the stairs. Hahahhahaha. Okay all the best to me! So long,baybeeees!

♥ SNIK PIK.

Hello my fellow comrades! So these 3 photos are exclusively chosen to be released on bloomin-miracle,because I havent burnt a copy of all the gorgeous photos to be given to Farid herself. Given that this is HER engagement, I think I should at least let her see those photos before anybody else,and therefore, until she takes a look at it, I am still holding on to the photos with my dear life!

I am sorry,I know a number of you guys are anxiously waiting to see the outcome of my virgin photography project,and I am pleased to announced that I made it through the day,without using the Auto mode. A few hiccups here and there, but Syukor Alhamdulilah!

Farid was gorgeous,and I had so much fun shooting her. I couldnt feel more honoured,to do this for a very good friend who has been there for me,especially always looking out for me at work. I am so happy that she is finally engaged,because this girl have been waiting for this for the longest time. Congratulations to Usop & Farid on your engagement,and I wish you guys eternal bliss and happiness together,for the rest of your lives. I love you Farid,and I hope you enjoy the photos as much as I enjoyed shooting them.

And to my ever so hardworking 'assistant', Fiza,thank you so much for carrying my camera around for me(cause ME+BajuKurung+Humidity+SWEATGRIME do not go well tgtr and I was so RESTLESS),for listening to my fussy directions and instructions and carrying them out without complaining or whining,for EVERY SINGLE THING that you did for me yday, Thank You. You are the best! Sayang kau! (:

Anyway, it was a long day for me. I got back from meeting Bb, Julz Zurr Zan Iman Su & Haikel at nearly 7.30am yday,and rushed home to sleep. Was due to wake up at 10am to get ready for Farid's engagement but despite the multiple alarms, I overslept and only stirred at 1130! I was supposed to be over at Farid's at 1230 and you can imagine the panic I had to go through! I didnt want to wear my faithful baju kurung again,cause have been over-ratedly wearing it this year,but when you are a photographer for a friend's engagement and you are freaking late,image isnt really a big deal,and it certainly isnt a choice as well!

& I had a BAD,BAD hair day today, beyond frizz I tell you, I hate it. And my eyebags, OMG. DONT SAY LOR~ Probably one of the reason why I love being the photographer today,because I get to stand BEHIND the camera. Harhar. Oh wells, despite the rush, I still got out of my house at 1220,and had to pick Fiza up at TAMPFREAKINGENIS before heading to Bedok. Reached Farid's at 1pm,and Kak Nora from Ratu Weddings was already starting with the make up! Gulps. Managed to settle down,and from then on, it was snap,shoot,snap snap shoot,snap shoot shoot shoot,non stop!

Being a photographer is a DAMN tough job,and I am seriously. You feel like you have to cut yourself up into manymany pieces cause you want to capture every single moment, but somehow, being an amateur,I suck at it. I was also so freaking hungry!!!!!! God. Aku dah macam pengantin la pulak! Took like nearly 600 photos, and I loved the outdoor shoot that we did the best.

Fiza was so helpful!

" Fiza, adjust kan her train, I want to see the lace!"

"Fiza, betolkan Farid nye jari, too far apart,beh tak nampak cincin!"

"Fiza, kain dier tak lawa gitu,anu kan betolbetol pls!"

"Fiza, aku nak kasot dier gini, kau paham tak? Anukan!"

MINTAK KENE TEMPELENG KAN AKU?? Hahhaha,SERIOUSLY I was THAT fussy,but she didnt complain at all. Thank God for patient people like her! Thank God. Heheh,but it was really fun and somehow like an eye-opener,cause AT LEAST now both Fiza & I dont want to be professional photographers. Hah,too much work! Dont want leh! I thought Nursing was tough, Photography is tougher! Seriously,aint kidding!

After the shoot, went back in to wash up,cause I was really like a smelly rat and I couldnt stand myself so I showered,changed into comfy pants and shirt and went off to meet the girls in town! Supposed to go prawning,but considering the fact that I just showered,I dont want to smellify myself anymore so we settled for Lido Macdees,where we ate talked and laughed for hours before heading home slightly after 12MN just now.

It was Yaya's birthday so we spent so time with her,at least! We are all planning a huge ass party in December to celebrate Aisya Yaya & Syasya's birthday all together,and I cant wait to meet up and discuss the details with them. Its not going to be surprise cause all of us are the party planners,so we want to do something really huge. Triple celebration,triple the kill mah! Hahaha. So yeah la! Still brainstorming for ideas,but Im sure we'll figure something out in due time.

Its 4am in the morning,and I am super,super pleased that I called my manager to exchange day offs so I dont have to work today. Am so glad that I did that,cause I am super shagged and tired and oily right now. And I am freaking hungry again!!! WTFFF,suspect I have tapeworms in my stomach lor, Im always hungry! GOD. Okay, am going to wash up and crash. I intend to sleep til afternoon today,so PLEASE do NOT call me people. Calls will be ignored. Haha!

And oh yah, photos of bblove & I taken on Saturday! Aidil just cut his hair a week back,and I convinced him to recolour his hair. And now both of us looks like we have the same hair colour! And bb looks so damn good like this,dont you all think? LOVES IT. So hot lor bb! Always make me fall in love with him all over and over again. Ahhhh, I like his hair this way. Its neat,and the colour really brings out his fantastic features more. Bb has great eyes, eyelashes, great dimples so with long hair, everything is pretty much covered. Right now, he looks damn good. Just the way I like it. Hahahahha. Okay enough. Puji banyakbanyak nanti member kembang kiambang,dah susah! ((:

Night everybody. Toodles.

♥ sicky bunny

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